holidays are hereeee! :D
thank god sem 2.1 is over!
it's like the shittiest sem ever. and if any upcoming semester is gonna outbeat this shit sem... it's gonna be like living hell i swear.

this shit sem is like... really bad. but in a way.. it pretty much shows who we really are i guess.
=/
guess the turning point was the AEL freshie camp.
aft tt.. it seems like all hell broke lose.
but then it's not that bad i guess. i got to know someone who somehow one way or the other would be a part of my life no matter how small it is.
and now whenever i see a BnJ ice cream it'll never be just a BnJ ice cream.
in a good way lahh. i guess..
i also had lots of firsts... first date. first stayover. first overnight movie with frens.
lots tt i dun think it's wise to say it here.. hahaz! :D
ANYWAY! i dunno... i guess through everything we know who our true frens are...
things happened for a reason i guess.

there were some regrets too...but then again... i dun think i shld regret it..
i mean... if i were worth fighting for... something shld happened shldn't it?
but i guess i wasn't. not for someone anyway.
there were lots of chances. but it wasn't taken.
so i guess i shldn't cry over someone who doesn't think i'm worth the fight right?
besides! if it is fated... nothing could ever stand in the way.
but seeing as how fated we are.. the chances of anything happening would be zero.
ouh well. i'm sure i'll get over it. =)
although it's taking a longer time than i thought it would.
stupid little thing creeping into my mind without me knowing.
and when i knew how much it meant it was too late.
some things i'll never forget though. but it's ok. cause i wouldn't want to wash away those awesome memories.. =)
i guess i gotta thank that someone for giving me a beautiful period of time. no matter how short it was. =)
thank you. and i'll nv forget you. well.. i hope i can forget those not so great moments.. but thanks for giving me those awesome memories.. =)
not that you'll see this but it's for my benefit! who cares bout you... :D

anyway...through it all i grew up. and i was that girl who doesn't give a shit to anything but me and as long as i'm having fun i wun give anymore shit.
but now.. i'm pretty sure that i've become someone who gave a shit. and think bout things wayyyyy too much. =/ which in a way i guess it's good... and it made me grow up. ALOT.
as much as i would like to go back to that carefree not giving a shit life... i dun think it'll happen.
too much things have happened. i've heard way too much stuff to not give a shit.
i've been through way too much shit to not give any more shit.
and not giving any more shit makes me realise some things..
and realising some things makes me know what matters and what doesn't matters.
and i'm a different person now.
not much. but still different. in a good way i hope.
=)
ohoh! and one last thing...
i'm proud to say that even though there's a bunch of things tt happened.. my believe in fate and "if he is the one he'll be the one" is still intact! :D
and yes. i'm proud of it.

SO! i'm gonna kill this blog.
aft 4 years and 7/8 mnths.
there's not much link. but there's lots of link to me.
but anyway...till never! :D

you know you love me. :D

those who matter doesn't care.
and those who care, doesn't matter.

1:20 AM

HAHAHAHAHAHA!
ok.. i'm like really bored.
but everyone seems to be busy with something or something...
zzz.
and yes. i'm supposed to be busy too.
but i dun really care
cuz i'm in a holiday mood alr.
lalalalalalalalala.
just give my thursday.
i wan my thursday!
GIMME THURSDAYYYYYYYYY!

anyway!
been online shopping! which is baddddd.
and i can feel my purple streaks coming to meeeeee!
hahahahaha! i think i'm really going to do it.
either tt or chicken out in the last minute.
but i hope not. LALALALALALA!
I WAN MY FREAKING PURPLE STREAKS!

heehee! i'm so bored right now.
and these few days i feel like i'm living inside a bubble.
i'm like... in my own world.
it feels... pretty awesome. hahaz!
but detatched to the world.
although i'm like THERE but not THERE.
hehehehe! i'm not making sense.



hahaz! totally man.

and i love orange and blue m&ms!
and knowing that you're able to finish one huge packet of m&ms is NOT a good thing.

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! :D

12:35 AM

Jolin Tsai - Dao Dai.

probably the only song i like from her... =/
and yes... i shld be freaking slping...
freaking presentation tmr. or maybe not.
and i think my body clock is getting screwed up.
ouh well.
not the first time.
AND MY FREAKING PIMPLES ARE POPPING OUT ON MY FOREHEAD LIKE IT'S FREAKING FREE!
ok.. it is free BUT STILL!
walauuuuu! =/

ANYWAY! hahaha! THANKS PIG! for everything! :D
thanks for not judging me. =)
AND I GEDDIT! VINDICATED ROCKS!
LOL! i'm pretty sure you're gonna continue singing it later when i meet you again but ouh well...
TT'S WHY I LOVE YOU!
HAHAHAHAHA!
and YOUM! i like telling you stuff! HAHA!
cuz you'll tell me the logical side that i always not see.
:D and i love you for tt!
THANK YOUUU!
YIIIII! hahaha! I MISS YOU LIKE NUTS OK?!
dun wan disturb you only!
and i love you becuz you dun say i love you often!
which is a good thing cause when you say i love you or i miss you i know you mean it!
MUACKZ!
YOU GUYS ARE WAYYYYYYY AWESOME THAN STICKY CHEWY CHOCOLATE! :D

oh damn. i really need WWY on a daily basis.
a frequent basis is not even enough.
ouh well...
I CAN'T FREAKING WAIT FOR HOLIDAY! OH MY GOD!
it's coming way too slowly!
but before tt there's still freaking accounts test to get over.. PIG! NEED HELP!
ok.. i better go before i become some cranky bitch later.

NO AMOUNT OF WORDS CAN SHOW HOW MUCH I LOVE WWY RIGHT NOW.
but it's ok. i dun need anymore words. they know it alr.. heehee! :D

maybe the happy ending is...just...
moving on.

3:17 AM

okok.. 12 more freaking god damn days.
then plus another 3 more days of work and i'm gonna sleep till the sun burns my ass everyday!

shit. and i'm procrastinating.
this is baddddddd...
considering the fact that there's this shitass reprot which i have not even started and it's a hell lot of stuff to report on.

so things have been pretty shitty for the last week.
or the week before? or something like tt.
now i can't be bothered cuz shit is practically flying everywhere and it's hard to keep up with the mess.

anyway. i slept at 6am yestnight/thismorn. and woke up at 9.
how nice. i swear the whole day my vision could not focus and even when i'm texting all the keypad is blur and i'm texting subconsciously.
quite cool in a way. hahaz!
was re-reading The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants. =)
for the..... idunnohowmanytimes.
it's like no matter how many times i read it.. i'll just realise something new.

and reading it makes me miss Wanyi Pig and Youm. =(
and the four frens in tt book reminded me of our friendship.
and somehow i realised tt Pig is something like Lena (in a way), Wanyi is like Tibby, Youm is like Carmen and i'm kinda like Bridget.
hahaz! you gotta read the book to know wad i mean.. :D

i dunno but Tibby reminds me of Wanyi.
the way Tibby loves her frens is something like how Wanyi loves us. i guess.
she doesn't show it often. and she's pretty much always sarcastic. hahaz!

Lena like Pig cause of the beauty i guess.
and the way she love that one person only.
i dunno... it doesn't make sense but somehow it makes sense too.

Carmen like Youm... hahaz! i dun really know why.
but i guess it's the way Carmen like to looks for signs. and she likes to overthink and feel things?
LOL! not in a bad way! in a good way i mean.. :D
i dunno.. i can't explain it!

and me like Bridget. i guess the thing i see me in her is that one moment Bee can be wayyyyy high and full of energy and the next moment she could be so lack of energy she dun even know what she's doing.
ouh well...

I REALLY REALLY MISS THEM SUPER DAMN MUCH.
and no matter how often i see them it'll nv be enough.
it's like they're the only reason why i'm still sane despite all those shit.
and yes we argue and throw temper at each other (for my case) but underneath all that we know that we can't live without each other. (well for me it felt tt way but i'm pretty sure it's the same for them unless i'm wrong which i dun think i'm wrong...)
it's like even when i hate myself for doing some stuff they'll still love me.
and i dunno.. it's like plus my flaws and bitchiness, they love me even more.
and yes i think i'm openly confessing my love for them right here.
but wtheck... you can't blame me with just 3 hours of slp in my screwed up system.
heehee!

and i better stop before Wanyi puke with all that mushiness and stops coming here just when she's getting the habit to. :D
:D
I KNOW YOU GUYS LOVE ME AND I KNOW YOU GUYS KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU GUYS!
♥!

cause some, who had lost everything, were still open to love.
while she, who had lost nothing,was not.

7:12 PM

it's totally reminds me of AWWY.
=(
it's like all the bad shit blew up right in front of my face.
i've been really short tempered lately.. blowing off my top easily.. must be the pms..
and now's the chiong project season which adds into the already tensed situation.
how nice.
and as much as i love the rain... FK YOU RAIN! FK YOU!
it's like heaven is playing some sick games.
tt's fking twice damn it.
do you really have to?! SERIOUSLY?
oh c'mon! all we want is the fun, sun and bitch`.
IS TT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?!

argh..
and wow! it's just one more mnth!
till i'll jet off to US of A! :D
i'm looking forward to it so at least i can get out of this shithole for awhile.
i have no idea wad to expect there.. and i hope as hell tt it's something pleasant...

World Cup is over. and it doesn't feel like it's less than a week since it's over..
it felt like eons ago.. =/
i kinda missed the screwed up feeling when you wake up aft just 3 hours of slp.
and those sneaking out.
apparently my parents know tt i sneaked out.
just tt they're too nice to say so... :D
hahaz! at least i din get grounded or anything..
ouh well...



and damn.... i'd like one kiss from you too please? :D
hahaz! oh damn... they're too hot for tt football pitch...
hey! i think you'll look good in my bed... how bout tt?! :D
LOL!

anyway. i think there's enough bad shit for this sem to last a whole lifetime...
and next sem is a really important and i'm gonna pray everyday tt it's not gonna be a screw up.. =/
i think i'll need to start investing in three alarm clocks.
and tune my body clock to slp at 10:30pm everyday.
hahaz!
i wonder if tt will ever happen.

kinda looking forward to next week actually.. =)
yes.. presentations and quizzes coming up.. but i'll handle it..whether i like it or not..
but we gotta get through the shit to get to the awesome stuff right? :D
JIAYOU PPL!

you sweep all the bad stuff under your bed where you can't see it.
and you accumulate all those bad shit under your bed till you can't shove any more bad stuff in there.
and that's when you have no choice but to get all that bad shit out
but by that time, it'll just be unrepairable.

oh honey, don't look at me that way.
i'm just doing what you always to do.

oh! AND I FKING FINALLY FOUND MY ROYAL PURPLE NAIL POLISH! HAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAPPY! :D

1:51 AM

hahaz! the video.. :D
youm! HOT EH?! :D he so cuteeeeee!
LOL! and he JUST JUST JUST have to sing half naked!
OH MY GOD.
and not to mention Dara... SUPER PRETTY CAN?!
heehee!

anyway...went out with Kent Wenliang and Karen yest! :D
heehee! watched Despicable Me! :D
"it's so fluffy! i'm gonna die!"
hahahahahahaha! FREAK! she's damn cuteeeeeeee!
aft tt went to Parkway to get our PAYYYYYYY! :D
heehee! at least now my bank isn't looking too pathetic.. =)
waited for Wenliang for SUPER DUPER LOOOOOOOONG..
managed to not faint due to hunger while waiting for him...
heehee! then walked ALL THE WAY from Parkway to Lagoon!
farrrrrr... but still awesome if you're walking with a bunch of awesome ppl.. heehee!
reached there and the bloody wan ton mee stall nv opennnnn!! =(
me and kent was damn sad lahz!
then have to eat hokkien mee in the end.. =(
but it's ok! at least there's still chicken wing and satay and STINGRAYYYYY! muahahahahahahahaha!
AWESOMEEE!

heehee! then went to find a place to play Monopoly DEAL! :D
hahaz! happily won them... WHEEEEEE!
then camwhored a wee bit and walked back to Parkway..
AND BLOODY KENT SCARED ME AND KAREN ON THE BUS!
bloody hell! karen screamed and the whole bus was looking at us..
hahahaha!
scary shit.
lalalalalalala..
was one hell of an awesome day.. =)

and becuz of them... i'm feeling fine..
heehee! let's just hope the feeling doesn't come back again..
=)
SPAIN vs Holland tmr! :D
can't waitttt!
although i'm gonna watch it alone...
=(
poor me... dad doesn't wanna acc me watch! =(
ouh well...
GO SPAIN! JIAYOU JIAYOU!
got a bad feeling Holland will win though..
maybe i shld put 5 bucks on Holland.. hmmmm...
shall think bout it...

TILL WHENEVER!
byeeeeeeeeee! :D

11:49 PM

so Spain won! :D
was so happy! didn't even mind tt i lost 10bucks just like tt.
and i've come to a conclusion tt i can never bet soccer cuz whoever i bet on would freaking loses.
but come to think of it... maybe i shld start betting on manure so they would lose!
hahaz! not a bad idea huh?
lolx!

anyway! was like this dead zombie walking around in school today.
it felt like i was sleep walking and everything feels surreal... =/
slept in lectures and even when i'm not sleeping i'm not listening either.
this is bad... real bad.. =/
but ouh well.. it's once every four years!
so it's ok! hahaz! :D
looking forward to the finals!
although i have a very bad feeling.. =/
ouh well... shall see bout it!

and i'm really really seriously starting to regret the decision i made.
and it doesn't really help when my heart doesn't know what it wants.
it's in a huge ass dilemma right now..
shld i just screw wad i'm feeling and let time do it's work or shld i do something bout it so i would at least fill the emptiness tt i've been feeling for quite some time?
but then again... doing something bout it isn't as easy as it seems...
and i dun even know if it's worth it.
it feels so screwed up.
but at least from this i more or less realised some stuff... =/
even though it's not wad i want to realise but ouh well..
it's better than not knowing.
okok.. this is getting kinda confusing.

snap out of it alison!
you got lots more stuff to do!
ARGHHH! bad bad bad....

oh! and i just gotta mention this..
but Elvin Ng looks damn hot in the new 9 o'clock show...
hahahaha! and he just sets my tv on fire whenever there's a commercial break...
cuz he'll be bathing half naked and soaping his oh-so-awesome abs in front of me.
HEEHEEHEEHEE! he's cute ok?!
LOL!
and i like it when he and felicia chin are tgt.. SO SWEEEEET! :D
hahaz! fine... i'll stop it. :D

ahhhhh... zombiefied ttm. =/
bye! :D

12:28 AM