stupid blogger dun wan to upload the photos for me....
shall post pics later or someday...

i soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo wan tt click five's album...but i'm damn damn broke i can't even buy tao gay.
but tao gay is only like 30cents wad?
YES!! precisely!! i dun even hav 30 cents...=/
okok..not tt exaggerating(?) lahz..but still...
i'm brokeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i dun care...i gonna rob steal snatch or wadever to get tt album...damn.
i realli wan it... =/

i'm thinkin a super evil thought now.
bad girl! tsk..shall get rid of this thought.
byeeeeeeeeeee!

9:23 PM

omg.
i'm growing fatter!
shit!
i shld get my ass out of the chair and go running one day..damnit.

phat!

old habits die hard.
random.

12:36 AM

heehee...i forgot..pictures..hahaz...
emaths was crazy...i went under the window thingy there..hahaz...
cuz husband told me to go hide myself there..hahaz...was fun..new hidin place...
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....pictures!


heehee...GREEN!!

7:05 PM

ok...it's been a pretty good start of everything...
hahaz...i guess...feel pretty carefree...and everything..((:
ok since i declared my love for boys like girls and the click five...i shall do a short one for my beloveds...((:
a short one becuz i'm lazy...heehee...

WanTing!
ok..i hav lots of stuff to say but i'm too shy so i'm not goin to sae...sae too much sweet stuff to u alr...can't stand it..
anw...thx for everything and everything...i'm still too shy to sae the rest so yea...next!

Husband!
yea...funny tt jus a mnth or two ago we're not even tt close..or izzit longer? nvm..u get wad i mean..((:
anw..thx for everything and thx for hearing me whine and bitch and everything else...
and i nv regret bein married to you!!!!! heeheee!!
thx and i love you! *muackz! =D!

You Ming!
omg!!! thinking back i still find how we noe each other funny..hahaz...i dunno why..lolx..
anw...thx for being there thru tt period of time...thx alot! i dunno wad i'll do if you're not there!
but i feel such a failure cuz i wasn't there when u're down...sorry...and cheer up ok?
love you lots too!!! i'm just a phone call away if you need me!! ((: *muackz!

Wan Yi!
yepp yepp!it's youuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!! ((: things hav been pretty crazy but anw...i love you and scream my name if you need my help!! =D! yea...not much to sae cuz i dunno wad to sae but just noe tt i love you and i'll be there for you..((:

Jing Zhi!
din expect to see your name here right?! hahaz...but anw...just wanna sae i love you! and funny tt we've been classmates for 2 and 8 mnths alr and we're only close for 8 mnths...zzz anw...go crazy bout ur DBSK...heehee...muackz!! ((: and i dunno wad colour you like but i thot of u sayin eutopia or sumthin and sae it's red so..yea..it's red..heehee..jiayou arhz!

yea...and now...
I HEREBY DECLARE MY LOVE FOR WANTING HUSBAND YOUMING WANYI AND JINGZHI!!!!!!! =D!

YAY!!!

so anw...got back report book todae...was quite surprised lahz..din expect to hav tt kind of results...in a good way...hahaz
i still think tt i'm crazy....i can go frm F9 to A1 in 10 weeks? and it's a-maths i'm tokin bout...OMG!!!
i'm crazy! tt's yi1 bu4 deng1 tian1!!
omg...hopefully still can maintain..later drop then....-.-
blah...lazy blog alr..buhbye!
i've still yet to buy click five's album...brokeeeeeeeeeeeee!

When you dream there's a chance you'll find
A little laughter or a happy ever after
LOVE.

6:18 PM

i din noe man...
i din noe tt i was referring to anybody in my prev post bout the bitch thing..
but now i noe...gee...i din noe there's a hidden meaning...ok then...if you think it is...sure...let your imagiination run wild...
just this mnth youming had said tt she bet i brought joy to WWE...
well..apparently i didn't...and i'm the root of the problems...now i noe...i shldn't even hav went into the group huh?...ok...
and if u think tt i din regard you as a fren for the past 8 mnths or so...ok then...believe wad u think it is...
if you think tt you're a stepping stone or wadever for i dunno wad ( i dun even noe wth it means)...ok...i'm fine with it...
and if you think tt i hav nv trust you...ok...anything...it's part true anw...(think bout the first two mnths or so of our so called friendship...)
and if you think tt i'm sucking up to Wt...ok then...for all i care...
and wow..i din noe tt you actually care bout other ppl's feelings...but anw...if you think tt i'm the only reason of the conflict in my CCA...go ahead...
and i dunno how you noe this..but if you sae tt i haven lost someone dear in my life..ok then..
if you think tt i have not been treating you as a true fren...ok..sure...(again..think bout the first two mnths)
and obviously from wad u hav said i din noe bout tt theory or wadever...gee..am i stupid?apparently i am to you...
and ok..if you think tt wad i said bout getting back together again is all lies...ok then...anythin u wish to think...
(think bout it..wad's the most imp thing in a friendship?i would say trust.since u can't give trust to us...wad's the use of maintaing the friendship?)
and if you think tt all those things i said bout getting back again is an act to show Wt tt i'm an angelic person...ok then...believe anything you wan...
you noe why? cuz i'm seriously out of your life...
believe in wadever you wan as long as my conscience is clear...
screw you...nice to noe tt you think of me tt way...
to think that i thot tt i've went overboard...
bye.

end of something.
start of Everything.

7:26 PM

i sure can be a bitch when i wan to...
and think bout it...in some way or the other everyone is bitchy...
c'mon man...dun deny...at some point of ur life u would hav bitch bout ppl...being a bitch to someone...or wadever not...
so everyone is a bitch...just whether u bitch frequently or you dun...
but seriously...everyone is a bitch...but if u wan to deny...ok then...none of my buisness...
just thot bout this thingy when i was goin to slp...and i was thinkin...tt's true man!
if u dun see it my way..then ok fine..wadever..u hav ur own opinions...

anyway...

I HEREBY OFFICIALLY DECLARE MY LOVE FOR BOYSLIKEGIRLS & THE CLICK FIVE!!!
ok..random...bloggin in the morning is so not me...and i'm a little crazy...
anyway..this is a super random post and bye..i'm goin back to slp...

10:57 AM

yea..ignore the dear diary part in the prev post...just felt like puttin it...

this week has been bad and good...i dunno...
not much to post...so yea...bye.

you want it. you get it.
i'm outta your life.
thankgod!

and thx youming! for helping me...i love you! ((:
cheer up and dun let the bad stuff get into you ok? love ya! <3

and sorry Wanting...for everything...

you're one hell of a scandal.
LOVE.

4:43 PM

Dear Diary,

today has been a pretty bad day..
but not the worst day ever...

got back chem...
was sucky...all those tuitions...all those lessons i forced myself to be awake...all those time i spent tryin to get wtf Mole Concept is is wasted...
fuck.
wad's the use of tryin so hard but the results is still shitty?
haiz...thot i'll at least pass or sumthin...wadever lahz...
things have been pretty screwed up these few days...
gettin pretty emo these few days too...
and those emo stuff make me sae things tt i dun usually have never say before...
wad's happening to me man?
zzz...so rubbish...
managed to get pass grooming check wif my non-NAS socks..muahahahahahahahaz...
went home and i slept for four hours plus...when i woke up it's alr goin to nine...and i'm still yawning as i type this post...
something's wrong wif my clock...zzz

i'm damn tired...there's so much problems but i can't realli be bothered to tackle it...
call me lazy or whatever u wan..but i think tt it's best if it's left untouched....
too tired to care alr...

and well..wanyi wanted me to tell her how i make the cookies...
told her it's secret recipe..lolx..wonder wad her reaction will be if i tell her how to make it..lolx!

husband have been very sweet and well...i feel loved..hahaz...
guess tt's how wives is supposed to feel huh?hahaz..

there's a test this friday and i'm supposed to be studyin cuz apparently it's very important to cher..
give us pressure only...zzz..
yea...wadever...
tired..go slp alr..bye Diary...

i hate it when u can crush me so easily...
and i hate it when you can make me forget all the bad things so easily...
i hate you! =/

go away. go away. go away. go away. go away!

10:11 PM

stop ruining it...
you get nothing out of it...
yes..i may have been brainwashed..but frm wad i see it's you who have been brainwashing me all the time..
don't push the blame to her just because you're not happy...
don't use wad you think to tell us wad has happen...
don't ruin our friendship...
change your attitude before finding a true friend...
change your perspective before telling ppl wad has happen...
i'm giving you permission to go away and stay out of my life cuz i noe you want to...
stop coming in between us...stop ruining everythin tt we have to suit wad you don't have..
from now on..i'm not goin to care more bout you...
you're out of my life and i'm not goin to believe anything tt you sae...
cuz you and i noe tt it's a lie...
just stay away frm us and let us free from all ur pretendings...
say those words tt you use it to her to youself...
cuz u're the one who deserve it..not her...
bye my friend...
you don't deserve anything tt you have now...

seen ur true ugly colours...
stop hiding it...

9:39 PM

i need someone to hear me whine now..but nobody's there...
there's so much things i wan to sae it out but i dun hav the courage to sae it out..
i'm feeling super emo now and super sad and scared..
but nobody's there...
help?? =(

you weren't there when i prayed for you...
but i'll keep on prayin...

5:17 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US! =D!

omg...i'm super super super tired now...
=/
days of late night plus one super late night almost killed me...
todae has been...bad...
everythin sumhow went wrong when ur mind is half slpin...


gave out my thing todae..((:
feel happy to see all the surprised faces...all those happy faces...
make me feel tt my work had been accomplished(?)...
rushed home yest to make cookies...
rushed back home frm tuition to write the letters...
kena scolded by mum cuz i used her tupperware to keep the cookies frm lou feng-ing...
slept at 12+ 1 cuz felt very sad...
woke up still feel damn sad and emo-ed the whole journey to sch...
but i got over it alr...
apparently getting over sadness is pretty easy...
just watch two hours of super sweet romantic tv shows and delete everythin tt cuz the unhappiness...
funny...sweet romantic tv shows realli realli do the trick...
2 hours before wad i wanted to post is totally diff frm wad i post now..hahaz..

and it's been a long time since pri 1 tt i cried in school...
everythin just piled up and then aft i see my horrible chi marks...i couldn't take it anymore...
so i cried...and i cried again durin cme...was sittin there..stoning...then tink tink tink..then tears just started to fall..
spent my half of the trng torturin my juniors..hahaz..
felt a little better?
hahaz..feel damn evil..
made them do jumping jacks..wahahahahahahahahahahaz!
now i noe how my coaches feel when they're torturin us..lolx!
muahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaz...
i bet they are cursing me and bitchin bout me behind my back..ouh well..it was pretty worth it
lolx!!was super tired so din talk much aftr trng...

now i'm tryin to tink wad makes me so sad and hurt..
ouh well..i forgot..tt's a good thing..((:
and to those who ate my cookies..pls! drink lots of water!! tt freaking thin is freakin sweet so drink lots of water k?
dun fall sick..((:
and did u feel the love inside? hahaz...
love you guys..((:
oh!and one more thing..i wanna thank my husband for tryin to cheer me up todae...thx lots!!
it meant alot to me...love ya!! =D!!!!

and i love my dad more and more =D!
he's freaking cute lahz..hahaz..kk..
better go slp soon or i'll stone durin maths tuition tmr...
bye!

would you be there for me?
cuz i noe i'll be there for you...
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet! =)

11:42 PM

i have been stoning a lot for the whole day...
i dunno wad the hell happen to me..but i just sit there having a little conversation wif sumone and then i stone....
and stone...and stone....
i feel damn tired now...
aft three crazy days of test..i'm exhuasted...
no energy alr!
i stoned for half of the maths tuition...
din get a single thing cher sae...
nth went to my head..i feel like i'm operating on autopilot...
zzz...

my thing went wierd and everythin is ruined...*piang!
haiz..so sad...*money flyin away....*
nvm...hav to use wad's left then...
things b/w me and my sis was back to normal alr..
looks like we can't stay mad at one another for too long...
but she get all emo and hug me and everythin...
zzz...too mushy...not used to it...

i'm feeling a mixture of scared...freaked out...sweet...romantic feeling...
does tt make sense?
izzit possible for sumone to feel like tt all at once??
nvm..shall continue doin my thing and hopefully i wun fall aslp while doin it...
go see my wenzhong alr...
buhbye!

Gerrard is sexy as hell....as usual...((:
poor Gerrard fractured his foot...*heartpain...
=/

you turn me towards the light..
and stay with me... =)
LOVE.SWEET.

8:52 PM

hahaz!yay!!!
it's over! finally over!!!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
tv! tv! tv! tv! tv!
comp! comp! comp! comp! comp!
muahahahhahahahahahahhahaaz...

freaking damn thing is damn sweeeeeeeeeeeeet!
*faints!
heehee...i change my skin...again...
hahaz..too pink..too irritating...too red...
laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...
feeling damn hyper...can you feel my hyper-ness?
hahaz!
this freaking year pass damn freaking fast...
can you believe it?!
IT'S FREAKING AUGUST!!!!
omg..it feels just only a mnth or two tt i started sec 3...
i'm old!!!!! =/

anw..todae was...fun? hahaz
managed to skip one hour of trng..wahahahahahahahahahz...
met wt to cut hair..
still looks the same..wy seems more excited than me..lolx!
was walking to the bus stop wif wt and suddenly i asked her whether she wanna play badminton..
hahaz..damn random sia...
an hour later we're laughin our ass off...playin badminton
hahaz..suddenly thot of kenneth...joined us abt half an hour later..hahaz

okie...too lazy to blog..shall worry bout results later...
now i'm gonna enjoy comp..tv...story books...romance..((:

boy, you're my sugar rush. =)

sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet!!

10:05 PM

yepp.
i've finally change my skin!
it's freaking red...
i swear it's wanting's fault..
influence me...
ouh well...
i'm supposed to be studyin now...
make use of the time when they're not around...
but i still dun get tt studyin mood...
i guess i found my mind alr..
apparently it's just for a day..
haiz...can't wait till EPL kick off! ((:
or izzit BPL? wadever...
finally!!
TGIF!!! ((:
no..it's not friday..figure it out urself..=)...
buhbye..i'm goin to TRY and study..tata!! ((:

You're the hope that my heart is holding on to.<3
SWEET. ((:

7:58 PM

and i just realised tt even though u click the picture it's still tiny...
sorry...
and sorry again if u're seeing LOTS of horizontal lines now..heehee...
bye! ((:

12:35 AM

why is it so hard to be a good person?
a few hours before i was just feeling super guilty and feel tt i'm such a selfish bitch..
but now...i dunno man...it's like i'm super irritated at them...
feck..i dun even noe wtf i'm talking abt...
it's just so hard to be a good person...
my cousins are back...again..
they went home just today morning and i was feeling super guilty and think tt i'm such a bitch when they went home todae...
but now..when i see them walking into the house and stinking the whole freaking house wif stinky feet...
it's like i feel so damn irritated and pissed and everythin..
feck.
ARGH!
plus they hog the comp..they seriously do nth here!
either they use the comp or watch tv...
i'm forced to use the other older comp becuz they were using the new comp..
but the old comp was shit and it's not even goin into websites...
and i even hav to be questioned abt wad i'm goin to do wif the comp when i asked them whether i can use it...
wad the?!
hello?!
i wonder whose house is this..
seems to me like i dun live here anymore...
there's fucking common test nxt week!
can't they just stay at home for the fucking weekends?!
fuck.now i sound like a bitch...and i'm being one now...
damn shit...
feck lahz! i'm feeling so pissed now...damn it.

anyway..today has been okay..i guess..
tuition at 12..went to meet wanyi at 2 went to tuition again at 6.
dropped my phone twice.wonder whether my phone is half dead.
funny.kind of heartpain for my phone...guess i'm not changing my phone soon...
felt like a bond b/w me and my phone.although it's antique..
i dunno wth i'm talking abt.so ignore wad i just say.
ate dinner wif erjie.
was ok...been a long time since we ate dinner together.
chatted bout LOTS of things...
i'm surprised tt i even said so much...
i actually tell her more things than i tell my dajie...
wierd. funny how we can fight like there's no tmr and how we can still be so close.
she said some stuff...got me thinkin...
she said tt when a clique hav friendship problems it shows tt ppl hu brought up the problem cares alot bout the friendship..
i guess it's true...
kinda got to know her other side... kinda cool.. (:

and i just noticed...
boys like girls frontman, Martin Johnson, is pretty cute..
hahaz!here's picture...((:
can't get it into bigger size..something happen to the size thingy..click the picture for better view! ((:

cute?! no?
ouh well..i think he's cute..hahaz..
think i'm goin to buy their album...((:
save save save...better start saving now..
or i wun hav money to make secret. ((:

and i'm still feeling tt sweet touching romantic feeling..
hee...wonder when it'll wear off...
hopefully not so soon...=)
and well..watched ghost whisperer...and there's one line tt realli got me thinkin and tt sweet romantic feeling came up to me again... forget wad's the line but it's sweet...((:

and i hav the urge for lots of confession and telling of my secret these days...
i wonder what cause it...
hmmmm...
but tt time nv comes...
either the person is not there or there wasn't the right time...
all those words just at the tip of my tongue...bursting to come out...
ouh well...
pretty long post...more for nxt tym then...

one more little thing...
for those hu's fighting with their siblings now...
remember what makes you hate/fight/argue/quarell with ur sister/brother...
cuz aftr some time/a long period of time..you'll feel damn stupid and wonder why you even hate/fight/argue/quarell with them... ((:
i'm not the best person to tell you wad to do..but..thot i'd sae this.. ((:
enough for now...
till nxt tym ppl..
less than 24 hours till EPL!! =D!

go on...leave me breathless... (=
LOVE.

11:51 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE! =D!
you're freaking 42 years old!
pretty young actually...
but still as sexy...
love ya! ((:
i'm not in my right mind now..=/

hahaz!
everything feels so sweet now..
everything means movies..people..characters...life...friends...family...tv shows...
EVERYTHING!
it's like everything seems so sweet and so touching..
it's just damn sweet lahz...
hahaz..

and it feels damn good to just stay home and not go out on a thursday..((:
only bad thing is my cousin coming over...
i noe i'm being a bitch..but..i just can't help feeling so irritated at them..
i dunno lahz...i feel like a selfish bitch...but i still can't help myself to stop hating them whenever they come...
haiz...i have freaking common test in 3 days?and they come here?!
why can't mum take the hint?
all they ever do here is use the computer...givin us more clothes to wash wasting LOTS of electricity...
it's not like we're rich...we're actually kind of havin a financial crisis here...
PLUS! they dun even help us with housework or wadever!
they only do stuff whenever mum calls them to...
they give attitude when we three ask them to do stuff...
wad the fuck?
haiz...stupid shit...wad's the use of mummy askin us whether they can come over when you invited them over anyway...
damn shit...
fuck..i sure am a selfish bitch...

better start muggin now...
if i wan to show some good results to dad...buhbye...
just 1 more day to EPL! ((: weeeeeee!
back to my sweet loving world...
((:

you're my sugar rush..=D!

4:05 PM

crap..tt feeling is back....
i hate tt feeling man..
makes me so obsessed and in love and yea...
wth...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
someone help me?
nvm...shan't ask for too many ppl's help...
bet everyone's busy lookin for my brain...
man...now i'm tryin to find ways to get over this feeling..
havin this feeling is bad...
make me feel so....RAH!
in a nice sweet way though..heehee...
random post...
bye ppl...
keep lookin for my brain pls? thank you!

I'll just take it day by day
And wait for the day you see me.

LOVE.

10:16 PM

holy crap.
i just realised sumthin...
i'm becomin more and more like wanyi!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
shit..tt's a bad thing right? no?
ok..mayb it's a good thing since i'm studyin pretty frequently..
crap..
wad happen to me?!
i actually DO MY HOMEWORK nowadays!
holy shit!
did someone took my mind away?
can you kindly give it back to me?
please? cause this hardworking studying alison is SOOOOOO NOT like me...
and it kinda freaks me out...
crap...
i actually came home directly after school on a MONDAY.
usually i would go out and eat lunch or wadever...but i actually came back home!
TO STUDY!
crap...somebody please return me my brain if you find it...
thanks...
okie..i'm goin back to study alr!
did i just say that? shit..
bye.

looking at you holding my breath.
for once in my life i'm scared to death.
i'm taking a chance..letting you inside...

LOVE.

6:30 PM

wow...common test is startin in like..a week?
omg...dad say i hav to show him better results this time...
crap..i hope i can...i better start muggin now..
lock myself up in the study room...
control myself not to touch the computer 'ON' button...
listen to the radio..
and study for the freaking tests..
pls...let my hard work pay off...

this week was not bad...
i'm sick!
yay!..can u believe it? i'm sick! ((:
it's been super looooooooooooooong time since i got a MC..hahaz..
ok..the feeling of bein sick sucks..but bein sick is fun..
hahaz...nvm..i'm tokin crap here...
the bloody medicine makes me super drowsy and makes me feel like i'm floating in the air..
serious...i swear i feel like i'm on top of the world...
no..i'm not on drugs..zzz
these few days were happy days..hahaz...
and i tink wantings's sweet sweet is influencing me...
i'm feeling love...
i'm feeling tt sweet...out of my mind..over the moon feeling...
nope..i'm not telling who...
it's my fantasy.. *secret! ((:
i guess i have lots of fantasy huh...nvm..
i would rather live in my own fantasy than live in the real world...
school has been ok...gettin all the maths and chem and bio and whatever shit..
hopefully my results will be ok...
and well..things have been realli nice and happy..and i'm not askin for anythin more..
so i'm goin to just take in everythin and feel everythin while it last...((:

Your love makes me feel alive
As deep as a scar under my skin
Like being in love for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Whenever I'm alone with you tonight
Like being in love with you for the first time

go listen to Lifehouse - First Time...
it's damn nice...((:

LOVE.

11:17 PM

this song suits me now..hahaz..
and mayb WanTing too..hahaz...

too out of my mind..
too drowsy to blog much..
bye.. ((:

that love you gave me wasn't so tainted anymore.

12:07 AM