am happily driving ppl away thanks to my crankiness.
and it's all becuz of dfund.
it's so irritating and frustrating.
dfund is the shit!
i shall kill it and smash it into bits and bury it to the core of the earth!
nice. i'm cranky and bitchy.
fudge.

12:24 AM

in serious thot of letting my cafe world rot...
so sick of it alr..but i can't seem to let it rot...
zzz. =/

anyway! woke up at some ungodly hour today...
went to sent off my god granny who passed away on the third day of cny...
considering the fact that she has stopped any intake of food or water since the eve of cny..it's amazing how she could last till the third day...she's awesome...
rest in peace granny!
it's the first tym i went for a sea burial... :D
it's very very cool and peaceful...
totally different from the normal cremation and burial..
probably it's also becuz they only allow a limit of up to 12 ppl on the boat only...
so it's pretty much strictly family members only... it's quite a closed knit affair... =)

aft tt went to meet Pig Yi and Youm! =D!
zomg...feels like a long tym.. =/
everyone's just so busy...
studied for a while and was too tired and couldn't continue any longer so went home aft tt...
I WAS UP SINCE 6:45am in the FREAKING MORNING ok?!?!
crazy! it's ungodly lah!
realised that if i woke up and the sun is still not up yet i'll be very cranky and bitchy.. =/
ouh well...just dun pissed me off...you wouldn't like it.
went home and slept like some dead pig...totally din hear my alarm ring...
woke up in the end! WHOHOOO!
gonna study! =D! i can do itttttt!

hmmmm and i realised that it's really really scary to like/love someone...
when you fall hard for someone it's like all your real sense and wadever doesn't matter at all...
and when the person you like/love does something that totally crushes your heart..he/she wouldn't know cuz the person is totally oblivious to the love you've given...
and it's really really very scary at the thought of how someone could control your own emotions without them even trying.
i guess maybe that's the power of love...
but if it really is..i'd rather not have that power...
cause it's just too scary alr.
seriously! why can't things be simple? zzz...
life's too complicated and i don't like it...
maybe it's still best to be ignorant.
it's still better to not know anything than to know everything.
curiosity kills the cat... shall rmb tt..

and i really hate the fact that the bloody school put our main fucking exams right smack in the middle of chinese new year.
asshole...
it's like they deliberately torture us you noe?!
middle fingers...
shall go study now! :D
jiayou alison!

11:59 PM

played blackjack for the whole day...
my capital of 10bucks went from 10 to 2 and then back to 10 and back to 2 and back to 10 and went 20bucks!!
lolx! but i lost everything...=/ cuz aft tt i played daidi and keep on losing... 10cents a card is alot than it looks...
so at the end of the day i lost $11.40. not bad lahz...
hahaz! so tired..and i haven even started studying for my main exam yet...
and when i said i haven started studying it really means haven started studying... my books are not even out... it's stashed somewhere so that it wun clutter my newly tidied up table.
i'm so screwed so even thought there's a big probability that we will continue our blackjack session tmr i shall resist it and go and study with my beloved wanyi!
if not my gpa shall be so sucky that it cannot be revived.. =/

anyway.. one of my hamster died.. =(
his neighbour climbed over the barrier and attacked him...
he was so sick that even when we(me and my sis) put medication on it it still didn't survived...
it was so freaking skinny you noe?!
there's even this freaking huge tumour thingy underneath it's chin! it's so ke lian can?!
see alr heart pain lorh!
omg... cried when i went to bury it...
since this hammie suffered so much...i searched for a box to keep him in.
i dun tink i did that for other hammies...
or maybe one only..
haiz... so sad lorhz...
just hope that he will rest in peace...
now i'm left with 6 hamsters...
and it wun be reproducing anymore cuz i seperated them... =(
and then it would be last descendants of nata de coco... =(
i'll miss you hammie... rest in peace ok?

gotta go! there's still a long day tmr... haiz...
byeeeeee! love you guys! :D

1:19 AM

ok!! the pictures as i promised! =DD!
hehe! had lots of fun at the airshow...
going round looking at aircrafts and queuing up to go inside the private jets...
the sun was crazy that day... and now i have a flats line on my feet...
okok... the pictures! :D

hehehe! i went inside with my whole class at first...then the idea of this suddenly came to me on my way out of the aircraft...so i made karen wait for me at the exit there and i queued AGAIN...the queue is long ok?!?! and then TA-DAHHHH!! :D

MASTER PIECE! =DDD!
eh! got army guy stand there to wait for me land ok?! hahaz!

class photo! :D



hahaz! Guan Rui and Samuel trying to hijack the plane.


ahhhhhhhhhh!! hahaha!! the guy
looks damn cool sitting under the aircraft wing.. LOL!
i took a few of it... there's even one where i'm kissing the guy who's squatting the butt...
but someone haven upload it yet...
hahaz!! COOL RIGHT?! :D



the butt of the plane isn't tt far off the ground actually.. i'm just really really short and couldn't touch it.. damn it.

10:57 PM

hahaz! heard it on radio. old songs never dies.

realised that we can't live without each other for more than a week.
anything more and we'll be cranky and emotional.
LOL! it's nice in a way... =)
the last few weeks of end of sem is always the worst.
but it's ok! we shall survive! =D!

anyway airshow was not bad i guess..not as awesome as last year though..hahaz! not tt i went to last year's..but i heard it was more awesome.. =)
saw lots of cute ang moh's.. i'm like in my own element..hahaz!
shall post pictures if i got it! realised tt i haven been posting pictures for a long tym alr..
hehe. ok. i'm so hungry now damnit.
was a real pig in the aftnoon.
slept till 12+ then went back to slp aft lunch at 2 and snoozed my alarm for one whole hour tt my alarm was fed up and off-ed it by it's own.
LOL! i'm ah-maz-ing! =D!
ended up waking up at 5+... hence i'm till up now at this bloody hour..
zzz.
going sleep! BYEEEE! =D!

trying to make myself as small as possible to the world so that you
can't see the feelings i have for you.

3:06 AM

I'M GOING TO AIRSHOW 2010 TOMORROW!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
hahaz! i've been telling all those who are willing to listen to me go on and on bout me going to airshow but actually i'm not tt excited bout it...
LOL! i'm boredddddd.
and i need to slp soon! if not i can't wake up at the ungodly hour that i have to wake up!
lalalalalala!
i'm awesomeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D

1:01 AM

it's frustrating to see someone you care about very much making a huge mistake in his/her life.
especially if the mistake is one huge ass stupidity.

my history teacher sounds suicidal... stalin and ussr...pfft!

Let me love you, but don't love me back. Do love me and let me hate you for
a while. Let me feel like i have some control, because i know i never do.

-The Last Summer (of You and Me)

12:54 AM

AHAHAHAHA! i just typed a bunch of bullshit into my class reflection blog.
thanks to barney stinson i think i actually gave an awesome post!
LOL!
here it is!! =D!
total bullshit man!


i feel that stress management is a very meaningful topic and is very important.

it teaches us how to manage the stress. this is very practical as everyone would feel stress at some point of their life. by managing the stress that we feel, we won't inflict the frustration and irritation that we felt from the stress to the surrounding people. not only do you leave a good impression on others, the people around you will alsobe happy and willing to help you whenever you feel stress or down.

also, if you manage your stress wrongly, you would transfer all the negativeness to other people. and this would then become a chain of stress! (i made that up but read on! it sort of made a little sense! =D!) let's look at the top of the chain, you. when you feel stressed or frustrated, you vent it on others, say your friend, your friend would not be happy and then vent that negativeness on another friend or maybe his or her siblings, then the another friend or siblings would feel unfair and then passes on the negativeness to ANOTHER friend or the siblings if they managed the negativeness wrongly. and this whole chain of stress would go on and on!

at the end of the day, no one would feel happy and causing the world to be one grumpy place and we wouldn't like that would we? THEREFORE! stress management rocks! and we should apply what we learn to real life as it is very relevant! =D!

TADAHHHHH! :D

LOL! i'm a GENIUS!
tyvm!
one more post to go... damnit.

anyway! since i'm here might as well blog more...
SO! FIRST OF FEBRUARY! i just rmbed when i'm young i can't spell february too... the middle part is too complicated for a 7 year old man...seriously.
ANYWAY! it's been a mnth since the new year started!!
my resolution is screwed totally...
and i think to prove the point of my resolutions being screwed...my awesome subconscious mind made me late for school to mark the one mnth anniversary of the screwed resolutions!

lesson starts at 9am and i woke up at 9:10am.
hahaz!! and all the while i thot it was sunday.
how awesome can my mind be man?! =D!
LOL!

haiz..so sian... i really miss secondary school...
all the korean propaganda...whether i like it or not...
the crazy stuff we do to keep ourselves entertain...
MDM MUNEIRA!
lunch boxes for recess! =D!!
all that bitching.. hahaz!
oh man... i miss it... =(
JING! HUSBAND! LOVE! meet up soon! I REALLY MISS YOU GUYS!
MUACKZ!
ok..better go finish the damn post... zzz
byeeeeeeeeee!

Calvin: You can't just turn on creativity like a faucet.You have to be in the right mood

Hobbes: What mood is that?

Calvin: Last minute panic.

-Calvin and Hobbes

1:03 AM