i'm tired. woke up at 8+ in the morning not knowing tt my life is pretty much going to change somehow.
i'm scared. like scared shitless.
ok...so not really shitless. cuz aft hearing the news i was so scared my stomach hurt tt i went to shit.
but still. you get wad i mean.
i'm really not going to ask for much.
just hope tt everything's going to be fine and that there's still a long way ahead for him.
ok..so it may be sort of a little too much. but isn't tt wad we all hope for anyway?
i'm gonna think freaking positive and not cry anymore.
or i'll try not to anyway.
somehow the tears came happily like no one's buisness.
it's been a long tym tt it have been so out of control and a long tym since i cried in front of him.
i just want everything to be ok.

anyway. on a lighter note...
i finally watched the proposal!
hehehe! like finally! and it's AWESOME!
okok... rewind abit.
first went to meet karen at orchard..was like horribly late...guilty.
aft tt we went shopping at fareast!
hahaz! orchard sort of changed thanks to ion. and i was abit lost aft coming out of the mrt...
zzz. anyway. we didn't really had much shopping mood so before we head to ion we went into this shop selling tank top and everything.
then we were buying like 4 tops at once and then the sales girl there was like super nice and i think the boss(another woman) is quite a bitch and the sales girl actually helped us bluff her boss and we only paid like 20 bucks for tt 4 tops which is actually supposed to cost like 47bucks.
i'm not kidding.
LIKE SERIOUSLY! hahahaha! then me and karen was like so shock tt aft paying tt 20 bucks we went out of the shop and walked super fast towards ion.
HEHEHEHEHE! =D!
AND AND AND OMG! ion have freaking lots of good FOOD!
ahhhhhhhhhhhh! it's like a torture..you walk arnd the basement and all tt food looking at you but you just can't buy it cause it's freaking ex. =(
i hate you food! i hate you!
make me hungry! =(

anyway...ion is apparently so big tt you can't find a toilet.
they can have all the damn brands but you just can't the damn toilet.
zzz. aft tt trained down to tampines to find HUSBAND! =D!
hehehe! i was even early lahz! then mos burger-ed.
and THE PROPOSAL! =D!
and guys wonder why girls have all those fantasy when all these chick flicks just pretty much plant the idea into our heads.
hahaz! aft the movie we din feel like going home so early so went to fish & co. to chill...
MY CHOCKIE JUNKIE! =D!!!! and and the chocolate fudge ice cream.
omg. it's freaking sinful but damn good anyway.
hahahz! I LIKEY!
sort of cam-whored then went off alr.
OH YA! and husband gave me part of my birthday present. which is a laminated photocopy of our marriage cert.
it's like seriously dumb but wth. when were we ever intelligent in the first place.
hahahaz!
had fun though. been a long tym since we meet up and had fun.. WEEEEEEEEEE! =D!


husband complained why the century is bigger than the movie name.
quite dumb actually.

12:21 AM

hehehehe!
i'm not supposed to be even online...
LOL! i'm supposed to be like practising maths now...
but i'm not..and i havent seen a single maths question in 24 hours..
and i dun think i would for another 12 hours...
it can't be 24 hours cause i'm gonna have a maths exam in less than 24 hours...
AHHAHAHAHA.
i'm so dead..
fasc took all my energy away. and i have no more energy left to study other subjects...
funny since fasc is only 3 credit units(CU) and other subject is like 5 or 6 CUs.
nice one lahz alison... =/
i still have no idea if i'm gonna fail tt subject...
i hope as well not.. =/
don't think i will...but still you never noe... shall not jinx it...
shall keep hoping.. and praying.. =/

i'm not studyiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing...
i better noe how to do the maths paper tmr..
or i shall kick myself in the butt for being so lazy...
lalalala...
it feels as if i'm having holiday alr... damnit.
jiayou alison! 3 more days! =D!
i haven been talking to alot of ppl these days and i miss them so much...
been so busy pia-ing for exam tt i just din hav tym to stop and say hello..
but it's ok..i have the holi for me to rot and catch up with peoplee!
=D! i miss lovelovelovelove. =( and jing. and husband! and weird...anton too... and syafiq...
all tt football talk... hehehe... now epl season is here!! =D!
oh yea! =)

okok...still got 3 more days! FOCUS alison! FOCUS!
the f word rmb...
gosh..i hate tt word. screw it. i go watch tv.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEE! =D!
LIVERPOOL!! YOU BETTER WIN! RAHHHHHHHH!

9:15 PM

1 more day! to my FASC exam.
i'm seriously seriously going to pray like hell that i'm passing this exam man.. =(
if not i'm going to have to take the supp paper which means having to go through all this whole studying fasc process again.. =(
and one of these studying process is torturous enough and i'm NOT going to go through it again twice man!
NEVER! i've been studying fasc for the last 3 days and my brain is almost fried... =/
hope everything's still there when friday comes.. =(
JIAYOU ALISON!
don't let FASC kill you!!
RAHHHHHHHH!
haiz...damn tired... my energy is gonna burn out soon..
been drifting in and out of conversations... =/
ahhhhhhhhhhh... gonna slp now then wake up later to study...
=( bye.
wish me luck ppl.. i hope i dun die.
PLEASE!! JUST GIVE ME A PASS!! PLEASEEEEEEE!!!!

10:15 PM

Colbie Caillat - Fallin' For You.
=)

it's such a sweet song.
and totally what i'm feeling.
ahhhh... i'm tired... and i'm nuts to be bloggin at 2am in the monrning.
but i have nth to do cuz i'm waiting for my group mate to send me the damn report.
zzz...I WANT TO SLEEP! =(

ahhhhh finally... report done.
i'm going!
GONE! POOFED! DISAPPEAR!
=D!

1:56 AM

it's feeling weird.
something's changing and somehow everything feels like it's spinning out of control and i have no idea where to start from.
it's scary.
been a long tym since i felt this way.
it's like change is coming again and i have to adapt to everything all over again.
i hate it when i feel this way. it's like i'm there but feeling as if i'm a million miles away.
maybe it's all that mugging that's muddling up my brain.
just hoped that everything will go back to how it was and i will stop feeling this way.
predicting some depressing days ahead. =/
guess everyone's just so busy with their own lives right now it's hard to stop them to tell them exactly wad's on ur mind.
cuz every single moment with them is just so precious that you only wan to tell them the good stuff and you'll hide all tt bad stuff to urself until it just piles right up and pretty much explodes in ur face.
scary. =(
someone please just guide me back to where i came from.
this whole new place is just too new for me.
looking forward to 4th Sept.
i miss my secondary school friends. =(

10:25 PM

the week has finally came to and end.
thursday was kinda not bad i guess.
cuz i was super tired that i pretty much slept the whole day away.
slept during lectures and the only time i was really awake was when doing my labtest(which i managed not to electrocute myself) and during the presentation.
ok..so during the presentation i wasn't REALLY awake..but kinda awake during my turn.
THANK GOD i did ok... needed this presentation ALOT to pull up my failing grades.. =/
and i think i look pretty good in formal.
HEHEHE! i think it's the heels... WEEEEEEEEEE! =D!
but sadly wearing those heels doesn't make me any much taller... :'(
got teased like crazy by my classmates.
ouh well...
at least it's over and done with.
now...all i need is to tackle tt damn report. =/
die.

ANYWAY. went to watch G.I.Joe today.
hahaha! it's nice... kinda hate the ending though.
hate it when there's like a follow up of the movie..
and it would have been better if we're not sitting in the first two row.
haiz...damn sian...
i've forgotten wad i wanna blog bout alr.
my memory is failing me..shit.
and i think aft doing tt project on the damn airplane...
i'm NEVER ever going to look at an airplane and NOT think of ailerons flaps slats or wadever shit.
it's like stucked in my mind...horrible...
oh! and i'm broke now...
cuz i bought dark choc ferrero for my group mates... =/
it's like 7 bucks for 12 lah!!!!
=( but ouh well...at least they're happy.. =)
and damnnnnn... it's nice...
anyone wants to buy for meeee? =D!

hahaz! oh! and today my lecture ended early.
cuz my lecturer was damn pissed by us. =/
the whole lecture was super noisy lahz...then my lecturer just scolded us and then ended it with...lecture today is over.
wah..scary sia...
but can't blame him lahz.. =/ he's not the first lecturer to scold us for being noisy anyway...
lemme see... in the four subjects tt i'm taking...three has alr scolded us... and tt only onewas maths.
but then maths is not really the whole course and there's like not much ppl go for the lectures...sooooooooo... guess we're really noisy.. =/

ahhhhhhhh...i'm damn bored...
byeeeeeeeeeeeee!
needs MORE sleep. =(

sorry, didn't know what to do.
and staying silent was all i could ever do.
but thanks. for everything.
it meant everything to me and i'm sorry.

11:17 PM

just chiong finished my presentation speech .
my eyes are getting blurry... =/
need slp soon...
tmr still need wake up DAMN early to go for dental.. =( DAMNIT.
i have to go myself somemore!! NOOOOOOOOOOOO!
haiz...have to wake up even before the sun rises...
and tmr is going to be a looooooooong day...
wake up early for dental. then chiong to sch. then endure 8 hours of sch.
then go through one hour of horrible presentation.
and chiong to trng. feck.
i'm gonna be so dead tmr.
but at least i'm done with the presentation and get slaughtered by tt shitass cher.
JIAYOU ALISON! you can survive THURSDAY!
GOGO!

anyway...i was thinking...
doing projects with a group can see their true colours.
like if the person is really responsible or just some shitass irresponsible guy who just wait there and wait for ppl to do the shitwork for them.
ouh well...
tired... go off alr! =) byeeeeeee!

1:24 AM

this post is dedicated to PIGSIE.
cause she asked me to blog...saying that she is practising self discipline by not opening her mail, fb, and blogger...
LOL! poor thing.
JIAYOU PIGSIE!

DELETED. too depressing.

oh! anyway...on a not so brighter note...but still better than the rescheduling one...
karen wore heels today! haha!! and she's like tall lah!
making me the short one... like seriously damn short lorhz!!
i look like some ungrown kid besides them man...
somemore all the guys in my class are like tall... =/
but it was quite cool...hahaha!
ok..i tink i better slp soon..if not i'm going to be late tmr... =/
although i AM going to be late tmr...ahhh wadever. byeeee! =D!

12:42 AM

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! ok.. SORT OF finished my slides...
still need abit of touching up to do..
cause it looks plain and weird... =/
haiz...i'm going crazy alr... FASC is seriously damn shitty...
wtf.
but anyway... i think my group members are not bad.. LOL
they noe that i like orange and two of them purposely make it pretty orange... HAHA!
kinda sweet actually... hehehe...
but then there's this one where he keep on giving me the slides and reports wayyyy past the dateline.
damn shit lahz... and he's like super...ARGH!
nvm...it's ok...
and i forgot wad i wan to blog alr...
damn.
nvm..till....the next post!
=)

I’m gonna break down these walls

I've built around myself I wanna fall so in love

With you and no one else

12:33 AM

hehe! finally. after like YEARS of sticking to the same blogskin...i've CHANGED!
=D!
THANKIE PIGGIEEEEEE! =D!
so to honour her for helping me make this blogskin..i shall leave that poksie up there.. =(
i made such a big sacrifice man... hahaha! THANKS ANW! LOVE YA! =D!

hahaz! and i found out that i'm loving my hamster more and more..
i esp like the fat one...he's like super fat and seriously need to go on a diet..but still..hahaha! he's damn cute lahz... and i name him Fatty.
hehehe. suits him wad! i even have one hamster named BigBalls.
cause he like to climb onto the metal cage and go biting the cage like some crazy hamster..and exposing his huge balls at the same time...
LOL!

ANYWAY! i've finally quitted my job... =/
was like super guilty and sad at the same time while i told my boss that i wan to quit...
but aft tt i felt gooooooood... hehehe!
finally man...i'm super fed up with how my fucking manager treats us...
she's super dumb can?!
not to mention a total bitch.... it's ok...i'm out of that shithole. =D!
shall not let her spoil my first post on this new skin! hehehehe

do you guys like the clavin and hobbes? hahaha
i love calvin... he's just...damn cute and too clever for his own good... LOL!
and i like how the purple contrast with the orange backgroung.. hehehe!
in short... I LIKEYYYYYYY! =D!

Boys Like Girls is going to have a new album out soon!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i forgot how cute Martin Johnson is...
hehehe. ouh well... pig thinks i'm overly obsessed...
though she din sae it...but i bet she thinks so...right pig?!
hahaha! i secretly think that she's jealous that i'm not overly obsessed over her...
LOL! kidding PIGSIE! =D!

okie then... till whenever... =D!
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i'm thinking of changing my name to Alison Gerrard Toma Johnson...
HAHAHAHA! not bad eh.... =D!!!

1:01 AM