10:52 PM

it's startin to be a horrible week..
it's only freakin monday...
craaaaaaaaaaaap..
haiz...everythin has either been as horrible as before or it became much worse..
tt feelin i felt 2 yrs ago is back..
but i will continue to believe tt it will be better...
someday somehow everythin will be back to normal juz like 2 yrs ago...
hopefully..

family problems are back again..
partly becuz my attitude pretty much changed for the worse/better
and partly becuz i'm goin thru freakin puberty and having pms pretty frequent...
and a small part becuz i 看不爽 my erjie...
ouh well..
she's better off living at her freakin hostel..
i wan my bed back..
it's no fair u get to have the better bed juz becuz u're older than me..
now i'm havin backaches thx to you...
and i admit my attitude towards her has been pretty sucky...
but u dun hav to tell ur "best fren" abt it and how my attitude suck in my face..
like i'm invisible or something...
i look like i couldn't care less wad u sae...
but do u noe tt i'm hurtin deep inside my heart...
i realli dun feel like i'm ur sister anymore..
more like a stranger living under the same roof...
u treat ur frenz much more beta than me...
fine..so my attitude towards u suck like shit..
but hav u ever thot y i treat u like tt?
nvm...like u ever care..
juz continue to treat me like i'm invisible...
tt's wad u do best..

and the friendship between us four is crashing down juz like tt...
pretty quick and fast...
but i'm sure everythin will be better...
dun ask me y i tink like tt..but i'm sure it will be...
now..i dun care wad * tink of me..
if she thinks badly of me..
i'm fine with it..
cuz i noe time will change her concept bout me...
i'll proof to her tt i'm not wad she tinks...
and hopefully our friendship will change for the better...
((=

i'm gonna stick to motto and tt is
EVERYTHING WILL BE MUCH BETTER TMR!! ((:
okie...明天会更好!!
bye! ((:
GO LIVERPOOL!! <3
love you forever and KILL KILL KILL on WEDNESDAY!! ((:
*muackz!!

12:07 AM

shld i blog??
but i'm too lazy to blog..
but i feel like i shld blog..
but i dun wan to blog..
but i shall blog anw...
too much stuff happening this week..
dunno where to start..
shall not blog bout it though..
too lazy liaoz...
so let's start frm TODAY!

er...right...i forgot bout everythin...

sch was crap?
(when was it NOT crap?)
and to ah loi:
IF u even happen to come to tis stupid dead gay blog...
i wan to sae i'm sorry for being rude..
SORRY..
pms...if u dunno wad's pms..dun ask..u dun wanna noe..

had class photo taking today...
3 formal shots and 1 candid shot...
wonder y they take 3 formal and 1 informal...
dun all formal shots look the same??
wierd...
was taken aback by * attitude...
wonder wad i did to deserve such treatment...
wadeva...
trng wad slack (for me)
read story book thru the whole trng...
sexy seniors came back to see us!! ((:
seriously...i slacked like fuck now..zZz
went home and slept till 9.30...
and i'm still tired...
miss my bed...
miss my parents...
miss the good times we had...
craaaaaaaaaap...
gettin emo...
okie then!! gonna slp...NOT..
shall savour the freedom if not i wun feel anythin like tis aft tmr...
parents are comin back sooooooooooooooooooooooooooon....
laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

11:50 PM

craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap..
haiz...no use...
the whole talkin thin is shit...
i dun get a freakin thin u sae..
i dun get y u sae we din try to include u in when i tried very hard to include u in..
and yes..u mean tt word even though u sae u dun mean it...
i guess i am one from wad u think..
if tt's wad u tink then fine...u hav ur own opinion..
but i dun get y u can't forget abt everythin and juz start all over..
is it realli tt hard?? y?
is our friendship not worth startin over?
i still dun get it..
i guess i'll nv will..
but if u wan to start over i dun mind..
i would b more than happy to..
but it takes two hands to clap...
so i guess it will be hard..

haiz..everythin sucks right now..
it juz isn't the same..
i feel lost..
i dunno wad i'm doin..
everythin is crap now...
laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
dun tink will blog soon...
blogger is crazy...everythin is crazy...
dun hav the mood to blog...blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
bye.

4:44 PM

crap...blogger is goin crazy again...
finished exam today...
not realli...left chi listenin..but seriously...hu cares?
guess i screwed up every single paper i did..
haiz...wonder if i'm gonna pass at least one subject..
crappppppppppppppppppppp

went to watch 200 pounds of beauty wif elaine wanting and wanyi..
it's freakin nice and touchin!!
hahaz...
cried in the movie..lolx..
she's SEXY man...seriously!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
the guy is kinda hot too..lolx..
aftr tt walked arnd tamp mall and century square..
and i'm goin to add more stuff to my wanted list..hahaz..
wanted to go to the beach..but it was rainin...
ended up goin to eastpoint to eat LJS..hahaz
window shopped for awhile..
aftr tt went to pet safari to see animals!!
so cute?!
the dogs are so freakin cute and it makes u wan to cuddle them and touch them...
awwwwwwwwwwwww...
and i'm soooo freakin goin to buy hamsters man!!
took pictures...but blogger is crazy now...blah...
so lazy to blog now a days..
well..now tt exams are over..i'm gonna drown myself in lots of drama series and movies...
heehee...

am i thinking too much?
or izzit true tt we're drifting away?
i find myself not realli able to communicate with you these days...
those days where i can tell you whatever stuff seems so far away...
now..whenever i have stuff to talk bout or someone to pour my feelings to..i find myself tellin other ppl but you...
guess too much stuff have happen over the weeks...
really saddens me to feel this way...
how i wish we can go back to the way it was...
and now..i feel so tired tryin to get closer to you...
whenever i want to get close to you you seem to be retreating..
hopefully one day we can talk it out...
it's a real pity to end a friendship just like that...
pls dun drift away from me again...
let's save our friendship..
it won't be the same without you...

11:35 PM