Jolin Tsai - Dao Dai.

probably the only song i like from her... =/
and yes... i shld be freaking slping...
freaking presentation tmr. or maybe not.
and i think my body clock is getting screwed up.
ouh well.
not the first time.
AND MY FREAKING PIMPLES ARE POPPING OUT ON MY FOREHEAD LIKE IT'S FREAKING FREE!
ok.. it is free BUT STILL!
walauuuuu! =/

ANYWAY! hahaha! THANKS PIG! for everything! :D
thanks for not judging me. =)
AND I GEDDIT! VINDICATED ROCKS!
LOL! i'm pretty sure you're gonna continue singing it later when i meet you again but ouh well...
TT'S WHY I LOVE YOU!
HAHAHAHAHA!
and YOUM! i like telling you stuff! HAHA!
cuz you'll tell me the logical side that i always not see.
:D and i love you for tt!
THANK YOUUU!
YIIIII! hahaha! I MISS YOU LIKE NUTS OK?!
dun wan disturb you only!
and i love you becuz you dun say i love you often!
which is a good thing cause when you say i love you or i miss you i know you mean it!
MUACKZ!
YOU GUYS ARE WAYYYYYYY AWESOME THAN STICKY CHEWY CHOCOLATE! :D

oh damn. i really need WWY on a daily basis.
a frequent basis is not even enough.
ouh well...
I CAN'T FREAKING WAIT FOR HOLIDAY! OH MY GOD!
it's coming way too slowly!
but before tt there's still freaking accounts test to get over.. PIG! NEED HELP!
ok.. i better go before i become some cranky bitch later.

NO AMOUNT OF WORDS CAN SHOW HOW MUCH I LOVE WWY RIGHT NOW.
but it's ok. i dun need anymore words. they know it alr.. heehee! :D

maybe the happy ending is...just...
moving on.

3:17 AM

okok.. 12 more freaking god damn days.
then plus another 3 more days of work and i'm gonna sleep till the sun burns my ass everyday!

shit. and i'm procrastinating.
this is baddddddd...
considering the fact that there's this shitass reprot which i have not even started and it's a hell lot of stuff to report on.

so things have been pretty shitty for the last week.
or the week before? or something like tt.
now i can't be bothered cuz shit is practically flying everywhere and it's hard to keep up with the mess.

anyway. i slept at 6am yestnight/thismorn. and woke up at 9.
how nice. i swear the whole day my vision could not focus and even when i'm texting all the keypad is blur and i'm texting subconsciously.
quite cool in a way. hahaz!
was re-reading The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants. =)
for the..... idunnohowmanytimes.
it's like no matter how many times i read it.. i'll just realise something new.

and reading it makes me miss Wanyi Pig and Youm. =(
and the four frens in tt book reminded me of our friendship.
and somehow i realised tt Pig is something like Lena (in a way), Wanyi is like Tibby, Youm is like Carmen and i'm kinda like Bridget.
hahaz! you gotta read the book to know wad i mean.. :D

i dunno but Tibby reminds me of Wanyi.
the way Tibby loves her frens is something like how Wanyi loves us. i guess.
she doesn't show it often. and she's pretty much always sarcastic. hahaz!

Lena like Pig cause of the beauty i guess.
and the way she love that one person only.
i dunno... it doesn't make sense but somehow it makes sense too.

Carmen like Youm... hahaz! i dun really know why.
but i guess it's the way Carmen like to looks for signs. and she likes to overthink and feel things?
LOL! not in a bad way! in a good way i mean.. :D
i dunno.. i can't explain it!

and me like Bridget. i guess the thing i see me in her is that one moment Bee can be wayyyyy high and full of energy and the next moment she could be so lack of energy she dun even know what she's doing.
ouh well...

I REALLY REALLY MISS THEM SUPER DAMN MUCH.
and no matter how often i see them it'll nv be enough.
it's like they're the only reason why i'm still sane despite all those shit.
and yes we argue and throw temper at each other (for my case) but underneath all that we know that we can't live without each other. (well for me it felt tt way but i'm pretty sure it's the same for them unless i'm wrong which i dun think i'm wrong...)
it's like even when i hate myself for doing some stuff they'll still love me.
and i dunno.. it's like plus my flaws and bitchiness, they love me even more.
and yes i think i'm openly confessing my love for them right here.
but wtheck... you can't blame me with just 3 hours of slp in my screwed up system.
heehee!

and i better stop before Wanyi puke with all that mushiness and stops coming here just when she's getting the habit to. :D
:D
I KNOW YOU GUYS LOVE ME AND I KNOW YOU GUYS KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU GUYS!
♥!

cause some, who had lost everything, were still open to love.
while she, who had lost nothing,was not.

7:12 PM

it's totally reminds me of AWWY.
=(
it's like all the bad shit blew up right in front of my face.
i've been really short tempered lately.. blowing off my top easily.. must be the pms..
and now's the chiong project season which adds into the already tensed situation.
how nice.
and as much as i love the rain... FK YOU RAIN! FK YOU!
it's like heaven is playing some sick games.
tt's fking twice damn it.
do you really have to?! SERIOUSLY?
oh c'mon! all we want is the fun, sun and bitch`.
IS TT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?!

argh..
and wow! it's just one more mnth!
till i'll jet off to US of A! :D
i'm looking forward to it so at least i can get out of this shithole for awhile.
i have no idea wad to expect there.. and i hope as hell tt it's something pleasant...

World Cup is over. and it doesn't feel like it's less than a week since it's over..
it felt like eons ago.. =/
i kinda missed the screwed up feeling when you wake up aft just 3 hours of slp.
and those sneaking out.
apparently my parents know tt i sneaked out.
just tt they're too nice to say so... :D
hahaz! at least i din get grounded or anything..
ouh well...



and damn.... i'd like one kiss from you too please? :D
hahaz! oh damn... they're too hot for tt football pitch...
hey! i think you'll look good in my bed... how bout tt?! :D
LOL!

anyway. i think there's enough bad shit for this sem to last a whole lifetime...
and next sem is a really important and i'm gonna pray everyday tt it's not gonna be a screw up.. =/
i think i'll need to start investing in three alarm clocks.
and tune my body clock to slp at 10:30pm everyday.
hahaz!
i wonder if tt will ever happen.

kinda looking forward to next week actually.. =)
yes.. presentations and quizzes coming up.. but i'll handle it..whether i like it or not..
but we gotta get through the shit to get to the awesome stuff right? :D
JIAYOU PPL!

you sweep all the bad stuff under your bed where you can't see it.
and you accumulate all those bad shit under your bed till you can't shove any more bad stuff in there.
and that's when you have no choice but to get all that bad shit out
but by that time, it'll just be unrepairable.

oh honey, don't look at me that way.
i'm just doing what you always to do.

oh! AND I FKING FINALLY FOUND MY ROYAL PURPLE NAIL POLISH! HAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAPPY! :D

1:51 AM

hahaz! the video.. :D
youm! HOT EH?! :D he so cuteeeeee!
LOL! and he JUST JUST JUST have to sing half naked!
OH MY GOD.
and not to mention Dara... SUPER PRETTY CAN?!
heehee!

anyway...went out with Kent Wenliang and Karen yest! :D
heehee! watched Despicable Me! :D
"it's so fluffy! i'm gonna die!"
hahahahahahaha! FREAK! she's damn cuteeeeeeee!
aft tt went to Parkway to get our PAYYYYYYY! :D
heehee! at least now my bank isn't looking too pathetic.. =)
waited for Wenliang for SUPER DUPER LOOOOOOOONG..
managed to not faint due to hunger while waiting for him...
heehee! then walked ALL THE WAY from Parkway to Lagoon!
farrrrrr... but still awesome if you're walking with a bunch of awesome ppl.. heehee!
reached there and the bloody wan ton mee stall nv opennnnn!! =(
me and kent was damn sad lahz!
then have to eat hokkien mee in the end.. =(
but it's ok! at least there's still chicken wing and satay and STINGRAYYYYY! muahahahahahahahaha!
AWESOMEEE!

heehee! then went to find a place to play Monopoly DEAL! :D
hahaz! happily won them... WHEEEEEE!
then camwhored a wee bit and walked back to Parkway..
AND BLOODY KENT SCARED ME AND KAREN ON THE BUS!
bloody hell! karen screamed and the whole bus was looking at us..
hahahaha!
scary shit.
lalalalalalala..
was one hell of an awesome day.. =)

and becuz of them... i'm feeling fine..
heehee! let's just hope the feeling doesn't come back again..
=)
SPAIN vs Holland tmr! :D
can't waitttt!
although i'm gonna watch it alone...
=(
poor me... dad doesn't wanna acc me watch! =(
ouh well...
GO SPAIN! JIAYOU JIAYOU!
got a bad feeling Holland will win though..
maybe i shld put 5 bucks on Holland.. hmmmm...
shall think bout it...

TILL WHENEVER!
byeeeeeeeeee! :D

11:49 PM

so Spain won! :D
was so happy! didn't even mind tt i lost 10bucks just like tt.
and i've come to a conclusion tt i can never bet soccer cuz whoever i bet on would freaking loses.
but come to think of it... maybe i shld start betting on manure so they would lose!
hahaz! not a bad idea huh?
lolx!

anyway! was like this dead zombie walking around in school today.
it felt like i was sleep walking and everything feels surreal... =/
slept in lectures and even when i'm not sleeping i'm not listening either.
this is bad... real bad.. =/
but ouh well.. it's once every four years!
so it's ok! hahaz! :D
looking forward to the finals!
although i have a very bad feeling.. =/
ouh well... shall see bout it!

and i'm really really seriously starting to regret the decision i made.
and it doesn't really help when my heart doesn't know what it wants.
it's in a huge ass dilemma right now..
shld i just screw wad i'm feeling and let time do it's work or shld i do something bout it so i would at least fill the emptiness tt i've been feeling for quite some time?
but then again... doing something bout it isn't as easy as it seems...
and i dun even know if it's worth it.
it feels so screwed up.
but at least from this i more or less realised some stuff... =/
even though it's not wad i want to realise but ouh well..
it's better than not knowing.
okok.. this is getting kinda confusing.

snap out of it alison!
you got lots more stuff to do!
ARGHHH! bad bad bad....

oh! and i just gotta mention this..
but Elvin Ng looks damn hot in the new 9 o'clock show...
hahahaha! and he just sets my tv on fire whenever there's a commercial break...
cuz he'll be bathing half naked and soaping his oh-so-awesome abs in front of me.
HEEHEEHEEHEE! he's cute ok?!
LOL!
and i like it when he and felicia chin are tgt.. SO SWEEEEET! :D
hahaz! fine... i'll stop it. :D

ahhhhh... zombiefied ttm. =/
bye! :D

12:28 AM

Germany vs Spain later! :D
freaking excited!! heehee!
it feels like it's the finals instead of the semi-finals!
either team wins i'll be a happy girl! hahaz!
can't waitttttttttt! it's only one and a half hour more! :D
i'm gonna screw those projects and not do anything but wait for the match to start!
hahaz! can't concentrate anyway!

LOL! every conversation tt we had today was linked to soccer and betting and everything.
hahaz! even when conversations had nth to do with it it'll still be linked back to soccer and betting.
LOL! it's amazing how we can be so focused on one thing and one thing only. :D

i'm kinda tired right now.. but it's ok! i shall survive on tt 3 hours of sleep!
i'm gonna do it then be zombiefied tmr! =)
jiayou alison! :D

anyway! Yueming kor's wedding on saturday!
it was ok i guess... wasn't as awesome as i thot it would be..
maybe becuz erjie and gladwin weren't there tgt with us.
and it was kinda spoilt by one of the uncle.. =/
BUT nevertheless! it's still pretty awesome considering the fact tt everything was in a rush!

went over the night before... to "help out" and everything.
hahaz! slept at 2plus and woke up at 4plus am to see kor prepare to go out and fetch the bride over.. :D
he looks damn good in tt white tux man! :D
aft seeing him go off to fetch his soon to be bride i went back to sleep again!
WAH! TIRED YOU KNOW?!
slept like a dead pig aft tt.. then woke up two hours later cuz kor fetched his bride over le!
so prettyyyyy! heehee!
and i din know tt family members have to stay in the room when the bride enters the house!
and have to stay in the room until the bride goes into the room ... only then can they come out of the room and start the ceremony.
LOL! cool eh! they say like tt so tt there wun be any conflicts aft tt when they live tgt..
hmmm... ouh well! :D

then the tea ceremony! hahaz!
me and dajie helped out by bringing the teas over.. coooool! :D
heehee! hmmm.. then not much le lahz... aft tt the bride and groom went back to the bride's home for another tea ceremony and i slept abit more.. =)
PEEEEEEEEEKTURES! :D


handsome huh?! :D


hahaz! my cute niece and nephew!


LOL! ♥

till whenever! :D
SPAIN FTW! gogo!!

damn, i wish i would've seen it coming.
cause i blinked for a second and you caught me slipping.
now we're done before we even started.
didn't know how i much i miss you...
UNTIL YOU WERE GONE.

1:00 AM

And it’s hard to watch things change, when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and you want to move on, but you’re stuck right where you started. When feeling’s come and go and you can’t decide what you want.When you have so many things to say, but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them further and further away.

It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be, and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same again. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.

yepp! pretty much wad i'm feeling right now.
there's like a bunch of things i would like to say but a it's a bunch of things that i can't say it out.
i have no idea exactly wad i want right now.
and it's getting pretty bad.
i'm like on an emotional rollercoaster.
one minute i'm fine with everything.. the next i'll go and start thinking and screw myself up.
i'm weird.
like really.. =/

ANYWAY! can't wait for tmr! :D
hahaz! gonna meet the girlsssssss!
and oh my god i just realised tt tmr it's the first tym tt we're going to a beach tgt! like for real! :D :D
awesomeeee!
LOL!
oh oh! then Yueming kor kor's wedding is on saturdayyyyy!
i can't wait too!
hahaz! it's gonna be awesome man! :D :D
i'm gonna be a calefare THE WHOLE DAY!
tea ceremony...ROM...wedding dinner..
heehee! gonna camwhoreeeeeeeee!
LALALALALALA!
loveeeeeeeeee!
byeeeee! :D :D

i shall get over wad i'm feeling soon...
i have to. =/
SPAINNNNNNN! YOU MUST JIAYOU!
you're my only hope left!

12:03 AM