disclaimer: there will be lots of vulgarities...so read at ur own risk...

i'm feeling lyk i'm not wif them anymore...
it's not the fact that they hav boyfrenz and i dun...
it's juz that wad we're thinking is not the same anymore...
in the past...when i'm tired or sad..
they can easily tell...but now..when i'm feeling down and low..
all u did was juz ask y my face is so black..
and all i could do was juz reply nothing and put on my happy and hyper face back..
i realli feel very tired...mentally and physically...
all those emotions is causing me to go crazy...
i don't know how long i can take it anymore..
and now...when * is quarelling with me...you juz take his side...
you din even noe wad happen...he is a fuckin outsider damnit..
and tis is my fuckin home...y can't i use the comp...
and i dun tink i nid to tell you the fuckin reason when i wan to use comp rite?!
FINE...if u wan to use..i'll let u use it..
but all i ask for is juz to listen to my songs...
i understand that different ppl hav different taste in songs..
but u can at least juz shut the fuck up and juz listen to the song rite?!
nobody fuckingly asked for ur stupid fuckin opinion...
arsehole!
and u bloody changed the song when i'm listening....
and u fuckingly said that you dun fuckin noe...
MY ARSE!
u dunno...then wad?!
the fuckin comp juz change by it's fuckin self?!
i dun bloody fuckin care whether u see tis post...
it's best that u see it...
sure...u can be fun sumtyms..but only when u felt lyk it...
it's so fuckin unfair...

and to everybody... dun give other ppl the fuckin attitude juz becuz u are feeling pissed or irritated...
we are NOT the fuckin ones tt pissed u off..and you dun hav the fuckin right to give us an attitude...
if u wan...giv ur stupid attitude to those hu are responsible for pissin u off...
stupid shit...and that bloody includes u, JANE!
and if u feel guilty when readin this..then u shld noe tt it means u...
if u dun feel anithin...either u are juz too thick-headed to understand or u are realli not one of them...

and i seriously think tt they dun give a fuckin damn bout me...
if they thot of me...they wouldn't buy another memory card for dajie when me and erjie juz bought her one...
they knew that i longed for a new handphone...they knew it all along...
but they juz ignored me and used that money and buy sum other stuff...
call that jealous or wadeva..i couldn't care less...
but it realli hurts...
and i'm too tired to look frm another perspective...
i'm juz so sick of everythin...

and to #...wad goes around WILL comes around...
u juz watch it... one day when u nid help and ppl juz start ignorin you..you will noe wad's the fuckin feeling like...
especially when u practiacally fuckin begged tt person and all he did was ignore u...
son-of-a-bitch! stupid bastard!

todae is juz sooo not my dae...
and i juz realized sumthin...
water is thicker than blood...

once again...my tears fell down my cheek
i tried to control my emotions
but those emotions are just too much to handle...
here i am..back to square one...
cryin in the dark night when no one sees...
i tried everything to put that happy person i once was bac..
but it's much more harder than i thot it was...

12:45 AM