my dead gay son

2010-08-11T01:20:00.002+08:00

holidays are hereeee! :D
thank god sem 2.1 is over!
it's like the shittiest sem ever. and if any upcoming semester is gonna outbeat this shit sem... it's gonna be like living hell i swear.

this shit sem is like... really bad. but in a way.. it pretty much shows who we really are i guess.
=/
guess the turning point was the AEL freshie camp.
aft tt.. it seems like all hell broke lose.
but then it's not that bad i guess. i got to know someone who somehow one way or the other would be a part of my life no matter how small it is.
and now whenever i see a BnJ ice cream it'll never be just a BnJ ice cream.
in a good way lahh. i guess..
i also had lots of firsts... first date. first stayover. first overnight movie with frens.
lots tt i dun think it's wise to say it here.. hahaz! :D
ANYWAY! i dunno... i guess through everything we know who our true frens are...
things happened for a reason i guess.

there were some regrets too...but then again... i dun think i shld regret it..
i mean... if i were worth fighting for... something shld happened shldn't it?
but i guess i wasn't. not for someone anyway.
there were lots of chances. but it wasn't taken.
so i guess i shldn't cry over someone who doesn't think i'm worth the fight right?
besides! if it is fated... nothing could ever stand in the way.
but seeing as how fated we are.. the chances of anything happening would be zero.
ouh well. i'm sure i'll get over it. =)
although it's taking a longer time than i thought it would.
stupid little thing creeping into my mind without me knowing.
and when i knew how much it meant it was too late.
some things i'll never forget though. but it's ok. cause i wouldn't want to wash away those awesome memories.. =)
i guess i gotta thank that someone for giving me a beautiful period of time. no matter how short it was. =)
thank you. and i'll nv forget you. well.. i hope i can forget those not so great moments.. but thanks for giving me those awesome memories.. =)
not that you'll see this but it's for my benefit! who cares bout you... :D

anyway...through it all i grew up. and i was that girl who doesn't give a shit to anything but me and as long as i'm having fun i wun give anymore shit.
but now.. i'm pretty sure that i've become someone who gave a shit. and think bout things wayyyyy too much. =/ which in a way i guess it's good... and it made me grow up. ALOT.
as much as i would like to go back to that carefree not giving a shit life... i dun think it'll happen.
too much things have happened. i've heard way too much stuff to not give a shit.
i've been through way too much shit to not give any more shit.
and not giving any more shit makes me realise some things..
and realising some things makes me know what matters and what doesn't matters.
and i'm a different person now.
not much. but still different. in a good way i hope.
=)
ohoh! and one last thing...
i'm proud to say that even though there's a bunch of things tt happened.. my believe in fate and "if he is the one he'll be the one" is still intact! :D
and yes. i'm proud of it.

SO! i'm gonna kill this blog.
aft 4 years and 7/8 mnths.
there's not much link. but there's lots of link to me.
but anyway...till never! :D

you know you love me. :D

those who matter doesn't care.
and those who care, doesn't matter.

2010-08-04T00:35:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHA!
ok.. i'm like really bored.
but everyone seems to be busy with something or something...
zzz.
and yes. i'm supposed to be busy too.
but i dun really care
cuz i'm in a holiday mood alr.
lalalalalalalalala.
just give my thursday.
i wan my thursday!
GIMME THURSDAYYYYYYYYY!

anyway!
been online shopping! which is baddddd.
and i can feel my purple streaks coming to meeeeee!
hahahahaha! i think i'm really going to do it.
either tt or chicken out in the last minute.
but i hope not. LALALALALALA!
I WAN MY FREAKING PURPLE STREAKS!

heehee! i'm so bored right now.
and these few days i feel like i'm living inside a bubble.
i'm like... in my own world.
it feels... pretty awesome. hahaz!
but detatched to the world.
although i'm like THERE but not THERE.
hehehehe! i'm not making sense.

hahaz! totally man.

and i love orange and blue m&ms!
and knowing that you're able to finish one huge packet of m&ms is NOT a good thing.

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! :D

2010-07-28T03:17:00.001+08:00

Jolin Tsai - Dao Dai.

probably the only song i like from her... =/
and yes... i shld be freaking slping...
freaking presentation tmr. or maybe not.
and i think my body clock is getting screwed up.
ouh well.
not the first time.
AND MY FREAKING PIMPLES ARE POPPING OUT ON MY FOREHEAD LIKE IT'S FREAKING FREE!
ok.. it is free BUT STILL!
walauuuuu! =/

ANYWAY! hahaha! THANKS PIG! for everything! :D
thanks for not judging me. =)
AND I GEDDIT! VINDICATED ROCKS!
LOL! i'm pretty sure you're gonna continue singing it later when i meet you again but ouh well...
TT'S WHY I LOVE YOU!
HAHAHAHAHA!
and YOUM! i like telling you stuff! HAHA!
cuz you'll tell me the logical side that i always not see.
:D and i love you for tt!
THANK YOUUU!
YIIIII! hahaha! I MISS YOU LIKE NUTS OK?!
dun wan disturb you only!
and i love you becuz you dun say i love you often!
which is a good thing cause when you say i love you or i miss you i know you mean it!
MUACKZ!
YOU GUYS ARE WAYYYYYYY AWESOME THAN STICKY CHEWY CHOCOLATE! :D

oh damn. i really need WWY on a daily basis.
a frequent basis is not even enough.
ouh well...
I CAN'T FREAKING WAIT FOR HOLIDAY! OH MY GOD!
it's coming way too slowly!
but before tt there's still freaking accounts test to get over.. PIG! NEED HELP!
ok.. i better go before i become some cranky bitch later.

NO AMOUNT OF WORDS CAN SHOW HOW MUCH I LOVE WWY RIGHT NOW.
but it's ok. i dun need anymore words. they know it alr.. heehee! :D

maybe the happy ending is...just...
moving on.

2010-07-25T19:12:00.003+08:00

okok.. 12 more freaking god damn days.
then plus another 3 more days of work and i'm gonna sleep till the sun burns my ass everyday!

shit. and i'm procrastinating.
this is baddddddd...
considering the fact that there's this shitass reprot which i have not even started and it's a hell lot of stuff to report on.

so things have been pretty shitty for the last week.
or the week before? or something like tt.
now i can't be bothered cuz shit is practically flying everywhere and it's hard to keep up with the mess.

anyway. i slept at 6am yestnight/thismorn. and woke up at 9.
how nice. i swear the whole day my vision could not focus and even when i'm texting all the keypad is blur and i'm texting subconsciously.
quite cool in a way. hahaz!
was re-reading The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants. =)
for the..... idunnohowmanytimes.
it's like no matter how many times i read it.. i'll just realise something new.

and reading it makes me miss Wanyi Pig and Youm. =(
and the four frens in tt book reminded me of our friendship.
and somehow i realised tt Pig is something like Lena (in a way), Wanyi is like Tibby, Youm is like Carmen and i'm kinda like Bridget.
hahaz! you gotta read the book to know wad i mean.. :D

i dunno but Tibby reminds me of Wanyi.
the way Tibby loves her frens is something like how Wanyi loves us. i guess.
she doesn't show it often. and she's pretty much always sarcastic. hahaz!

Lena like Pig cause of the beauty i guess.
and the way she love that one person only.
i dunno... it doesn't make sense but somehow it makes sense too.

Carmen like Youm... hahaz! i dun really know why.
but i guess it's the way Carmen like to looks for signs. and she likes to overthink and feel things?
LOL! not in a bad way! in a good way i mean.. :D
i dunno.. i can't explain it!

and me like Bridget. i guess the thing i see me in her is that one moment Bee can be wayyyyy high and full of energy and the next moment she could be so lack of energy she dun even know what she's doing.
ouh well...

I REALLY REALLY MISS THEM SUPER DAMN MUCH.
and no matter how often i see them it'll nv be enough.
it's like they're the only reason why i'm still sane despite all those shit.
and yes we argue and throw temper at each other (for my case) but underneath all that we know that we can't live without each other. (well for me it felt tt way but i'm pretty sure it's the same for them unless i'm wrong which i dun think i'm wrong...)
it's like even when i hate myself for doing some stuff they'll still love me.
and i dunno.. it's like plus my flaws and bitchiness, they love me even more.
and yes i think i'm openly confessing my love for them right here.
but wtheck... you can't blame me with just 3 hours of slp in my screwed up system.
heehee!

and i better stop before Wanyi puke with all that mushiness and stops coming here just when she's getting the habit to. :D
:D
I KNOW YOU GUYS LOVE ME AND I KNOW YOU GUYS KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU GUYS!
♥!

cause some, who had lost everything, were still open to love.
while she, who had lost nothing,was not.

2010-07-18T01:51:00.003+08:00

it's totally reminds me of AWWY.
=(
it's like all the bad shit blew up right in front of my face.
i've been really short tempered lately.. blowing off my top easily.. must be the pms..
and now's the chiong project season which adds into the already tensed situation.
how nice.
and as much as i love the rain... FK YOU RAIN! FK YOU!
it's like heaven is playing some sick games.
tt's fking twice damn it.
do you really have to?! SERIOUSLY?
oh c'mon! all we want is the fun, sun and bitch`.
IS TT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?!

argh..
and wow! it's just one more mnth!
till i'll jet off to US of A! :D
i'm looking forward to it so at least i can get out of this shithole for awhile.
i have no idea wad to expect there.. and i hope as hell tt it's something pleasant...

World Cup is over. and it doesn't feel like it's less than a week since it's over..
it felt like eons ago.. =/
i kinda missed the screwed up feeling when you wake up aft just 3 hours of slp.
and those sneaking out.
apparently my parents know tt i sneaked out.
just tt they're too nice to say so... :D
hahaz! at least i din get grounded or anything..
ouh well...

and damn.... i'd like one kiss from you too please? :D
hahaz! oh damn... they're too hot for tt football pitch...
hey! i think you'll look good in my bed... how bout tt?! :D
LOL!

anyway. i think there's enough bad shit for this sem to last a whole lifetime...
and next sem is a really important and i'm gonna pray everyday tt it's not gonna be a screw up.. =/
i think i'll need to start investing in three alarm clocks.
and tune my body clock to slp at 10:30pm everyday.
hahaz!
i wonder if tt will ever happen.

kinda looking forward to next week actually.. =)
yes.. presentations and quizzes coming up.. but i'll handle it..whether i like it or not..
but we gotta get through the shit to get to the awesome stuff right? :D
JIAYOU PPL!

you sweep all the bad stuff under your bed where you can't see it.
and you accumulate all those bad shit under your bed till you can't shove any more bad stuff in there.
and that's when you have no choice but to get all that bad shit out
but by that time, it'll just be unrepairable.

oh honey, don't look at me that way.
i'm just doing what you always to do.

oh! AND I FKING FINALLY FOUND MY ROYAL PURPLE NAIL POLISH! HAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAPPY! :D

2010-07-10T23:49:00.002+08:00

hahaz! the video.. :D
youm! HOT EH?! :D he so cuteeeeee!
LOL! and he JUST JUST JUST have to sing half naked!
OH MY GOD.
and not to mention Dara... SUPER PRETTY CAN?!
heehee!

anyway...went out with Kent Wenliang and Karen yest! :D
heehee! watched Despicable Me! :D
"it's so fluffy! i'm gonna die!"
hahahahahahaha! FREAK! she's damn cuteeeeeeee!
aft tt went to Parkway to get our PAYYYYYYY! :D
heehee! at least now my bank isn't looking too pathetic.. =)
waited for Wenliang for SUPER DUPER LOOOOOOOONG..
managed to not faint due to hunger while waiting for him...
heehee! then walked ALL THE WAY from Parkway to Lagoon!
farrrrrr... but still awesome if you're walking with a bunch of awesome ppl.. heehee!
reached there and the bloody wan ton mee stall nv opennnnn!! =(
me and kent was damn sad lahz!
then have to eat hokkien mee in the end.. =(
but it's ok! at least there's still chicken wing and satay and STINGRAYYYYY! muahahahahahahahaha!
AWESOMEEE!

heehee! then went to find a place to play Monopoly DEAL! :D
hahaz! happily won them... WHEEEEEE!
then camwhored a wee bit and walked back to Parkway..
AND BLOODY KENT SCARED ME AND KAREN ON THE BUS!
bloody hell! karen screamed and the whole bus was looking at us..
hahahaha!
scary shit.
lalalalalalala..
was one hell of an awesome day.. =)

and becuz of them... i'm feeling fine..
heehee! let's just hope the feeling doesn't come back again..
=)
SPAIN vs Holland tmr! :D
can't waitttt!
although i'm gonna watch it alone...
=(
poor me... dad doesn't wanna acc me watch! =(
ouh well...
GO SPAIN! JIAYOU JIAYOU!
got a bad feeling Holland will win though..
maybe i shld put 5 bucks on Holland.. hmmmm...
shall think bout it...

TILL WHENEVER!
byeeeeeeeeee! :D

2010-07-09T00:28:00.003+08:00

so Spain won! :D
was so happy! didn't even mind tt i lost 10bucks just like tt.
and i've come to a conclusion tt i can never bet soccer cuz whoever i bet on would freaking loses.
but come to think of it... maybe i shld start betting on manure so they would lose!
hahaz! not a bad idea huh?
lolx!

anyway! was like this dead zombie walking around in school today.
it felt like i was sleep walking and everything feels surreal... =/
slept in lectures and even when i'm not sleeping i'm not listening either.
this is bad... real bad.. =/
but ouh well.. it's once every four years!
so it's ok! hahaz! :D
looking forward to the finals!
although i have a very bad feeling.. =/
ouh well... shall see bout it!

and i'm really really seriously starting to regret the decision i made.
and it doesn't really help when my heart doesn't know what it wants.
it's in a huge ass dilemma right now..
shld i just screw wad i'm feeling and let time do it's work or shld i do something bout it so i would at least fill the emptiness tt i've been feeling for quite some time?
but then again... doing something bout it isn't as easy as it seems...
and i dun even know if it's worth it.
it feels so screwed up.
but at least from this i more or less realised some stuff... =/
even though it's not wad i want to realise but ouh well..
it's better than not knowing.
okok.. this is getting kinda confusing.

snap out of it alison!
you got lots more stuff to do!
ARGHHH! bad bad bad....

oh! and i just gotta mention this..
but Elvin Ng looks damn hot in the new 9 o'clock show...
hahahaha! and he just sets my tv on fire whenever there's a commercial break...
cuz he'll be bathing half naked and soaping his oh-so-awesome abs in front of me.
HEEHEEHEEHEE! he's cute ok?!
LOL!
and i like it when he and felicia chin are tgt.. SO SWEEEEET! :D
hahaz! fine... i'll stop it. :D

ahhhhh... zombiefied ttm. =/
bye! :D

2010-07-08T01:00:00.003+08:00

Germany vs Spain later! :D
freaking excited!! heehee!
it feels like it's the finals instead of the semi-finals!
either team wins i'll be a happy girl! hahaz!
can't waitttttttttt! it's only one and a half hour more! :D
i'm gonna screw those projects and not do anything but wait for the match to start!
hahaz! can't concentrate anyway!

LOL! every conversation tt we had today was linked to soccer and betting and everything.
hahaz! even when conversations had nth to do with it it'll still be linked back to soccer and betting.
LOL! it's amazing how we can be so focused on one thing and one thing only. :D

i'm kinda tired right now.. but it's ok! i shall survive on tt 3 hours of sleep!
i'm gonna do it then be zombiefied tmr! =)
jiayou alison! :D

anyway! Yueming kor's wedding on saturday!
it was ok i guess... wasn't as awesome as i thot it would be..
maybe becuz erjie and gladwin weren't there tgt with us.
and it was kinda spoilt by one of the uncle.. =/
BUT nevertheless! it's still pretty awesome considering the fact tt everything was in a rush!

went over the night before... to "help out" and everything.
hahaz! slept at 2plus and woke up at 4plus am to see kor prepare to go out and fetch the bride over.. :D
he looks damn good in tt white tux man! :D
aft seeing him go off to fetch his soon to be bride i went back to sleep again!
WAH! TIRED YOU KNOW?!
slept like a dead pig aft tt.. then woke up two hours later cuz kor fetched his bride over le!
so prettyyyyy! heehee!
and i din know tt family members have to stay in the room when the bride enters the house!
and have to stay in the room until the bride goes into the room ... only then can they come out of the room and start the ceremony.
LOL! cool eh! they say like tt so tt there wun be any conflicts aft tt when they live tgt..
hmmm... ouh well! :D

then the tea ceremony! hahaz!
me and dajie helped out by bringing the teas over.. coooool! :D
heehee! hmmm.. then not much le lahz... aft tt the bride and groom went back to the bride's home for another tea ceremony and i slept abit more.. =)
PEEEEEEEEEKTURES! :D

handsome huh?! :D

hahaz! my cute niece and nephew!

LOL! ♥

till whenever! :D
SPAIN FTW! gogo!!

damn, i wish i would've seen it coming.
cause i blinked for a second and you caught me slipping.
now we're done before we even started.
didn't know how i much i miss you...
UNTIL YOU WERE GONE.

2010-07-02T00:03:00.002+08:00

And it’s hard to watch things change, when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and you want to move on, but you’re stuck right where you started. When feeling’s come and go and you can’t decide what you want.When you have so many things to say, but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them further and further away.

It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be, and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same again. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.

yepp! pretty much wad i'm feeling right now.
there's like a bunch of things i would like to say but a it's a bunch of things that i can't say it out.
i have no idea exactly wad i want right now.
and it's getting pretty bad.
i'm like on an emotional rollercoaster.
one minute i'm fine with everything.. the next i'll go and start thinking and screw myself up.
i'm weird.
like really.. =/

ANYWAY! can't wait for tmr! :D
hahaz! gonna meet the girlsssssss!
and oh my god i just realised tt tmr it's the first tym tt we're going to a beach tgt! like for real! :D :D
awesomeeee!
LOL!
oh oh! then Yueming kor kor's wedding is on saturdayyyyy!
i can't wait too!
hahaz! it's gonna be awesome man! :D :D
i'm gonna be a calefare THE WHOLE DAY!
tea ceremony...ROM...wedding dinner..
heehee! gonna camwhoreeeeeeeee!
LALALALALALA!
loveeeeeeeeee!
byeeeee! :D :D

i shall get over wad i'm feeling soon...
i have to. =/
SPAINNNNNNN! YOU MUST JIAYOU!
you're my only hope left!

2010-06-26T00:20:00.002+08:00

SO HOTTTTT!
heehee!
i'm so freaking looking forward to it man!!
and Taeyang's album! AHHHHHH!
it's coming soon! SOOOOOOON!
thinking of buying his album.. :D
i think it's worth it lehz.... he's just AWESOME.
hehehehe.

ANYWAY! gonna give Spain vs Chile match a miss.. =/
although i really really really superbly wants to watch it.. but i'm too tired.. =/
ouh well...
let's just hope they win! :D
anyway... been sick for the pass couple of days.. =/
been a long time since i've been this sick..
fever's being a stubborn bitch and it keeps coming back.
damnit.
ouh well....

and speaking of stubborn..
i guess my heart is kinda stubborn too...
as much as i would like something to happen...it doesn't happen.
there's no butterflies in the stomach and oh-my-god-why-is-my-heart-beating-so-damn-fast feel with him.
guess it just wasn't meant to be.
knew it wouldn't be tt easy to find one.
gonna just quietly wait bahz... =)
not the first time anyway...

to bed! :D
byeeeee!

Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can’t have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most, are those who don’t know what they want.
-Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anatomy

Nothing was going to be ordinary again, and both of them knew it. You could patch up whatever was broken, but if you were the one who had fixed it, you’d always know in your heart where the fault lines lay.
-Jodi Picoult

2010-06-23T01:04:00.002+08:00

huhhh...
world cup is getting pretty awesome. :D
and sneaking out in the middle of the night is getting much more fun.
heehee!
the rush of the adrenaline when you have to open the door and main gate quietly..
hahaz!

anyway... calvin and hobbes! :D
i love these two strips. heehee!

gosh... i'm in love with calvin.. hahaz!
he's just so cynical and totally in his own world and mind..

anyway... gonna have something big tmr.. =/
not sure wad i'm feeling.
ouh well..
let nature takes it's course.. =)

getting back results...
=/ not been doing well this time round.
it's ok.. gonna pull up my socks!
damn... my gpa is gonna be so sucky.. =/
jiayouuuuuuuu!
lalalalalalala...
SPAIN SPAIN SPAINNN! :D
i like to see them play..
it's so smooth flowing..
totally different frm Liverpool...
Liverpool play till damn shitty it's getting very pek check..
and those spanish guys is seriously heating up the pitch man...
hahaz!

TILL WHENEVER! :D
loveeeeeee!

2010-06-15T02:05:00.002+08:00

no bad mood cannot be cured by Clavin and Hobbes. :D

i dunno but i think he's pretty awesome. :D
click on the pic to see clearer! =)

2010-06-14T01:17:00.003+08:00

heehee!
for the first time of my entire 18 years of my life... i sneaked out of the house in the middle of the night to watch football.
wow.
it was so freaking scary but damn cool at the same time!
it's like.. OH MY GOD! i dunno how to explain to you!
yes i know.. it's just England vs USA. but still...
it's the first england match in world cup 2010.
i'm not going to miss it!
and even though i know tt England won't win the world cup this time just the thot of seeing Gerrard play is more than enough motivation for me to break all the rules.
hahaz!

and yes i know. the stupid god damn goalkeeper spoilt a totally awesome night.
but it's ok.. at least Gerrard stripped off his shirt and walked arnd half naked aft the match. and not to mention the goal scored was from him and so early too!
was super pissed off with England but then aft seeing Gerrard walking arnd half naked not tt pissed alr lah..
LOL!! i sound like a perv.. =/
heehee! my husband lehhh! :D
ok i shld stop it.
LOL!

anyway!
i cycled all the way from my house to Lewis's house!
it's freaking far! and the freaking upslope is not helping!
if i wanna watch another football match i'm not going to his house alr!
die also go ehub.. DON'T CARE!
although the ride back was quite cool lahz.. BUT STILL!
but i still appreciate it Lewis! THANKS! :D
heehee!

and oh man.. i realised tt ever since i've hit 18 i've become this person who don't give a freaking shit about the rules!
and tt's bad.
it's like i'm going crazy and breaking every single rules tt as been set!
shit. i need someone to stop me.
if not i'll go haywire. =/
ouh well!

and damnnnn i'm super busy this holiday!
i hardly got the chance to go out WWY!
even though i just went out with youm and pig lahz..
but still! it's not the same! =/
and pig is still so busy thx to the projects.. =/
it's ok!
I KNOW TT WE STILL LOVE AND MISSES EACH OTHER! :D
SOON WE WILL REUNITE!

damn.... it's gonna be a busy week ahead.
work from wednesday onwards.
think money!
got money means more money to shop!
JIAYOU!
maybe shun bian can shop while working too..
heehee! niceeeee.. :D

suddenly feel super tired.
like a whole bunch of things for me to do but i dunno wad.
just tt there's alot.
it's ok...
nth a slp can't handle! :D
byeeeee!

never allow someone to be your priority while allowing themselves to be their option.
-Mark Twain

2010-06-10T00:38:00.005+08:00

huhhhh...

feeling those saddening emo-ness right now.

those "i've been waiting for so damn long and i'm getting really tired of it but i can't do anything about it but i still dun wan to let go cause i'm still holding on to that last bit of hope" kind of feel.

ok not kind of.. it is wad i'm feeling right now.

this is baddddddd...

and i really really miss pig and wanyi and youm and love! =(

PIG ARH! you like disappear into freaking thin air ever since the freaking semester starts!

I HATE SENTOSA! it's making you so freaking busy i hardly see you twice a freaking month!

WTHECK?!

=(((

i seriously need my regular dose of you guys... it's the only way to keep my mind of things. =/

it's a tough road i'm taking... but i'm going to still continue.

let's just hope you're worth the fight.

like Lewis's FRIEND said...with perseverance the snail reaches the ark.

right?! hahaz! let's just hope the snail doesn't get crushed by someone before it even reaches the ark.. =/

need to filter off the bad stuff...

MEETING WITH LOVE TMR! :D

heehee! at least abit of awesomeness is coming my way... :D

love loveeee!

MUACKZ!

you better make sure you're worth the damn wait.

2010-06-04T02:40:00.000+08:00

my 18th birthday was awesome! :D
hahaz! it's seriously the best birthday ever in my whole 18 years. =)
and oh my god i'm seriously seriously touched. :D
thanks all of you guys for making this the best birthday ever!
hahaz! i love you guyssssss! :D
since it's the best birthday ever.. i shall do a dedicated post! :D wheeeeee!

first!
really really really have to thank her. =)
ALINA!!
hahaz! you're really damn awesome. and i want you to know tt. :D
and it's not because you gave me all that presents. it has totally nth to do with the gifts you gave me... but it's because you went all the way out just to make my birthday so memorable..
AND SO FREAKING AWESOME! :D
also you have been there all these time ever since i've known you and have always supported me in whatever i do.. =)
THANK YOU SUPER LOTS AND I LOVE YOUUUUU! :D heehee!
thousands and millions of hugs and kisses! :D

WWY!! :D :D

hahaha! you guys are awesome!! and even though i spent very little time with you guys on my birthday BUT i feel your loveeeee! hahaha!

THANKS SUPER DUPER LOTS FOR THE PRESENT! and getting ppl to chip in!

hahaz! i'm sure it's not easy.. THANK YOU! :D
I LOVE YOU GUYS FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER! :D
MUACKZZZZ!

hahaz! ok i've no idea if you're reading this but i'm guessing you are so...

THANK YOU SAMUEL!!! :DDDDDDD!

hahaz! I LOVE THE TWEETY BIRD! :D

lolx! just nice sia... i put at home study sian alr then see the tweety bird like give me motivation.. :D

THANK YOUUUUUUUUUU! :D

hahahaha! and thx for buying it and getting it transported back to sch and getting hit by it for lots of times by karen...

LOL! :D

lovelove wor! :DD

KARENNNNN! hahahahaha!

THANK SUPER LOTS ALSO!! OH MY GOD!

you're freaking AWESOME tooooo!

heehee! i may tease you and make fun of you but you know i love you right?! :D

hahaz! you my lesbian partner leh!! LOL!

thanks for everything! =)

i really appreciate it.. hahaz! and thx for tolerating all my nonsense... :D

i know it's not easy.. LOL!

WO AI NI DEEP DEEP WOR!! :D

heehee! kiss kiss hug hug!
I LOVE YOUUUU! :D

you guys are seriously awesome. =)

ok done! WHEEEEEEEE!

byeeeeeeeee! :D

2010-05-26T01:33:00.003+08:00

i shld be slping now.

or doing maths or something.

shit man.

so screwed. so sleep deprived. and so deprived of my awesome frens. =(

i really miss pig. and youm and yi.

even though i see youm and yi quite recently.

ohohoh!

AND I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOUMOOMOO!!

LOL! seriously felt like i've just married off my daughter. HAHAHAA! :D

and i've just lost my mood to blog. so bye.

and yes i would very much like to do tt. :D

DAMN he's HOT.

2010-05-18T01:48:00.003+08:00

screw MCT. it's retarded shit.
=/
i'm seriously sleep deprived now. haiz..
i shldn't even be blogging right now... but still.
anyway! second sissy went off to USA this morning! =)
it's really awesome how she could travel and everything.
most probably going to find her during august! WHOOOO! :D
gonna save LOTS of moneyyyy!
heeeheee!
i dun tink i'll miss her tt much though.. since i've been pretty used to her travelling so many times and 3 mnths of not seeing her is fine i guess.
looking on the bright side... at least i have TWO beds to roll about now!
hahaz! normally she would just take up HALF of my bed lorhz.. leaving me with a small space to slp.. =(
AND HER PILLOW IS MINEEEE! MUAHAHAHAHA!
not to mention the clothes i can wear without asking her... hiak hiak!
awesome. =)
3 mnths will be over soon lahz... heehee!

anyway... things have been pretty ok i guess..
think we sort of adapted to the new status... if we haven... well.. we're in the process of doing it.
=)
but it doesn't mean tt we can forget bout everything though. it's just that we're reluctantly accepting the fact. not all..but some of them anyway. we have to. whether we like it or not. =/
ouh well.
2 more weeks! =) until term tests!
hahaz! sort of looking forward to term tests for all the WRONG reasons.
LOL! actually there's only one reason.. hahaz! but it's enough.
and i guess i dun think i'll have my happy ending at all.
been thinking quite alot about it.
the possibility of it happening is just so slim. =/
but it's ok.
i'll learn to let go. sooner or later. =)
sometimes i really wish i know what's going on on the other side.
so that i will not feel that i'm hoping on something tt's of no end.
ANYWAY! bed! =)
nitez! :D

just because i didn't say anything does not mean that i don't mind at all.
i'm just merely acting like i know nothing so that you could be who you want to be.
even if it's just for awhile.
but don't ever expect me to accept that fact.
cause it will never happen.
not now. not tomorrow. not ever.

everytime i laugh, i hope he's watching. it is not because i want him to see me happy, but because maybe, just maybe, he will fall for my smile as hard as i fell for his.

2010-05-13T02:32:00.004+08:00

Its okay. Its okay to want someone you can’t have. Its okay to want something
more. Its okay to cry when you’re hurt, and its okay to stay mad at someone who
hurt you. Believe it or not, its always going to be okay. Thats just how life
works. Sometimes things don’t work out how you want them to, and most of the
time, it seems like they never will. But eventually, everything is going to iron
out in some way or another. You just have to believe, keep your faith, and learn
to move on.

=)

lots of things are not going smoothly.
no.. i'm not talking bout me.
compared to what is happenning.. mine is seriously nothing. =/
i just have too many choices..
hahaz! but funny how i just want something that's not part of the choices. =/
guess tt's life. gotta accept it and no. not gonna move on yet.
i've still have not given myself tt chance and time yet.
i shall continue to believe no matter how hard it is.
what's mine shall be mine. :D
if it's not then too bad.

i really hope everything will get better.
things and problems to solve by themselves...
it's been a pretty bad semester.
let's just hope all the bad luck will stop soon cause i'm pretty sure all this bad luck we're getting could last us for the rest of the year.
JIAYOU PPL!
we can't possibly expect sunshine everyday right?! :D
it'll be over before you know it.
:DDDDD

and i need to seriously start studying.
i'm not getting anything done. =/
feel so screwed up.
but it's ok! I SHALL CONQUER EVERY SINGLE SUBJECT!
that A shall be mineeeeeee!
heehee! :D
self motivation talk is retarded but useful... lolx!
and i realised tt i'm starting to make wishes on 11:11. =)
let's just hope it works. :D
hee!
love love!

have faith. =)
believe in love. cause it's true.

2010-05-10T00:59:00.006+08:00

Mother's Day. =/
was pretty normal i guess..
i'm gonna starve myself this following week man...
ate so much good food my freaking fats are buldging.. =(
run.. i need to run... walk fly swim wadever. anything to get those fats off me.

i'm still feeling pretty screwed up.
but was at my best on saturday when i went to met youm and yi. :D
it's been a long time i just laughed out freaking loudly in a public place just cuz we're doing stupid random things. =D! hee!

there's like a load of things i wish i could say right now.
but things tt i'm going to say is going to have consequences.
bad or good? i'm still not sure.
let's just hope it'll solve be itself.
=/
it's like going through it all over again.
just tt i'm starting frm the beginning...
unlike the previous time when i can't do anything cuz it has alr been done. =/
at least there's still time to salvage this.
or so i hope... =(
it isn't fair just cuz * happened.
and to put all we had at risk.
let's hope you come to your senses before things got worse.
cuz i sure as hell not gonna let you leave my life.
you're too important.

anyway! was looking thru tumblr the other day and OMG!
speaking of Peter Pan... YOUMINGGGG!
LOOK AT THISSSS!

his eyes.... *melts into a puddle*
omg. those eyes are freaking sexy! if only he shaves... =/
he'll be so hot my whole computer will be on fire.. :D
LOL! daymnnnn! he's AWESOME.

and and and OMG!
i WANT THESE NAILSSSSSS!

I WANT I WANT!
gonna paint my nails purple soon.. hehehe!
AHHHHHH! I WANT TT COLOURRRRR!
NAIL POLISH! WHERE ARE YOUUUU?!
I NEEEEEEED!
ouh well....
i'll be looking out for you! <3

week 4! here i come!

you have no idea how much i wan to tell you that i like you right now.
it's like this big secret just waiting to burst out.
but i know i can't.
cause i know that if i do. you'll be gone forever.
and my daily dose of happiness will never be there.
and i hate you for that.

You know what’s worst than hell? Not telling that someone you like that you like
him. Then years have passed, knowing that he liked you too. The same time you
liked him back.

— Sir Cortel

2010-05-06T01:01:00.003+08:00

school's torturous.
some stuff is starting to get weird.. =/
i'm not getting my usual dose of awesomeness.
i miss wanyi REALLY ALOT. although meeting Love yesterday was pretty awesome and made me felt like things are right again. =)

people asked me why the hell am i reading so many romance novels even though i know every single one of them will have the same climax...story line and then the same happy ending...
i guess because it's the one thing in this life of mine that is the most constant and it would never really change?
and the happy endings and sweet endings gave me that flicker of hope when i thought all was lost...
that maybe one day i'll get my sweet happy ending.

Change.
what a simple word. yet causes so much havoc in one's life.
i really hate it when things change. people, situation, feelings.. anything and everything.
maybe tt's why i wish i'm Peter Pan.
to never grow up. and to not know so much things.
if you don't know lots of thing you won't know what has changed. right?
=/

this is getting really bad.
and i shld get my much needed sleep.
bye.

don't be thinking of me, because even your fantasy of me, isn't interested in you.

2010-05-01T15:48:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALINA! (belated though but still... =D!)
haha! thanks so much for everything you've given to me.
and thanks for making my life in poly awesome.
you're more awesome than you think you are and you stay happy always ok?
love youuuuuuu! :D

alina's birthday chalet yesterday.. =)
but sadly i was too tired to be damn high.. but it was still pretty awesome though.
hahaha! FINALLY GET TO EAT MY CHICKEN WINGS AND STINGRAY AND SATAYYYY!
hah! suck on thattttt! :D
decided not to stay and went home at 11plus cuz dad's home alone.. =/
felt bad to leave him alone at home when he just came back from cruise...

anyway..overnight mahjong on thursday night...
hahaz! played only one round of mahjong and then played poker all the way till 6+.
and i'm proud to say tt i've finally won money from Lewis!
muahahahahahaha!
Lewis! when you feel like getting ur hands tainted again then tell me!
hahaha! :D
pretty much died when i went to sch on friday..
slept the whole lesson of efund...
went home and slept for awhile more.. and went to the chalet and slept alot more.. =/

but now.. i have nth else to look forward to anymore..
no more freshie camp.. no more chalet...
just school and school and more school...=(
like no life only...
somemore i haven been seeing Pig Youm and Wy often enough.
esp Wy! felt like she disappeared from the faces of earth!
reappearing only to look for ppl to study with... =(
i miss her alot alot...
and even though i've just seen Pig and Youm on thursday it doesn't feel enough...
we din even do much anw...
just sit there and eat tt two awesome bowls of STICKY CHEWY CHOCOLATE and ROCKY ROAD.
it doesn't feel like the same... =(
we seriously need to meet up more often INCLUDING WY!

and i can't believe tt i'm saying this but i miss my mum... =/
the house feels weird without her...
and i think i'll probably regret saying this when she gets home... =/
cuz she will look at the state of the house and go on and on bout it...
dieeeeee...
ouh well...
till whenever! =)

You're only a teenager. You're not yet married, so go with the flow, laugh tons, use manners, and try something new. Will you just kiss him already? Trust your feelings, spend your cash, introduce yourself, take a chance, study hard, seek happiness, and regret nothing. Dont' laugh at people's dreams, make a wish on 11:11, challenge yourself, take pictures and appreciate the memories. You should make time to dance in your underwear, and learn from the past. Play dress up and then take all your clothes off. Have the time of your life.
-ohitstuhreesh

2010-04-26T20:26:00.003+08:00

tumblr have some pretty awesome stuff.. =)

i feel like i've just ran a marathon of marathons... =/
tired like mothef.
plus today was a hell of a bitch day. =(
it feels like all the bad karma exploded right in the face.
what's worse was those who was totally innocent and have totally nth to do with it also kena.
poor shits lah! walauuuuu.. pissed.
fudging hell.

anyway!
freshie camp was ok i guess..
those wrong reasons tt made me looked forward to it didn't happened.. =/
pretty screwed up actually...
aft freshie camp went back home to slp for a pathetic one and a half hour...
then chionged to meet kevin jingyu wendy and suhui...
feel so bad..was supposed to meet them at 4 but i woke up at 4.. =/
bought all the ingredients and went to crystalla's house...
started eating before everyoone else cuz i was so bloody hungryyyyy..
it was pretty awesome to see them all again... :D
heehee!
as usual i ate like nobody's business and even though i said i'm freaking full i still continued eating like i'm freaking hungry for the next two hours.. =/
hahaz! aft the whole steamboat we went to Ice Cream Chefs!
:D
tt tub of Chocolate & Hersheys + Cookie Dough + Nutella Delight with Maltesers and Cookie Crips mix in was FREAKING TOTALLY AWESOMEEEE!

camwhored aft tt.. heehee!
missed those guys... can't believed it has alr been 5/6 years alr...
=)
best cca clique ever. :D

and i still can't believed i shamelessly added this pretty cute freshie on facebook even though i only know him for two hours..
hahahahhaha! =D!
feel so stalkerish.. =/ but i likeeeee! heehee!

damn the sleep debt tt i'm accumulating.
plus with mum and dad out of town and there's no government at home i dun tink i'll be catching up with any slp.. =/
ouh well...
let's just hope i'll survive tt 4 hours of freaking MCT tmr..
bloody shit.
byeeeeeeeee!
feel like a zombieeeeeeeeeeee.

2010-04-21T22:59:00.004+08:00

heehee! he so cute.
love his t-shirt.... I Must Not Kiss The Girls.
saw this pic frm steph's fb album. LOL!
I WANT HIS SHIRT!

anw... school's going by very slowly.. =(
i can't wait for friday.
then i can meet wy!
finally! aft like... A MONTH?!
bloody hell.. i think tt's the longest ever so far not seeing her ever since i noe her.. =(
miss her like shit.
friday. looking forward to it!
not to mention the freshie camp!
haha! ok.. i'll admit tt i'm looking forward to the camp for all the wrong reasons.
but still.
LOL!

and i shld seriously stop eating tt frequently.
it's starting to freak myself out.
the amt of food i can shove down my throat at a short period of time is crazy.
i think something's wrong with me.
oh right! its' tt tym of mnth.
damnnnnn.
a visit to the park weekly is going to be neccessary.
and maybe the pool...heehee!
need to stop eatingggggggg.
speaking of which.. i ate TWO dinners today.
crap. bad bad bad.....
argh! wadever.
eat first think later!

byeeeeeeeeeee! :D

subtract your clothes, let's add a kiss.

2010-04-20T00:51:00.004+08:00

S.H.E concert was AWESOME. =)
heehee. Hebe's DAMN CHIO. and Ella's DAMN CUTE.
AHAHAHAHAHAHA!
the whole concert was pretty high too. wheeeeeee! :D
aft tt went out of indoor stadium and Mayday's concert was still on.
aft their concert still got fireworks lorh!
advantages of having it at National Stadium...

then Universal Studios on sunday.
was ok i guess.
the structures and buildings there are pretty awesome.
but the rides was quite disappointing though.. =/
feel so cheated when we queued for a ride for like 40plus freaking MINUTES just to ride some freaking 20plus SECONDS ride.
CHEATED LIKE MOTHERF LAH!
but the indoor rollercoaster was pretty awesome though.. heehee!
though i still feel the ride is quite short.. ouh well. =/
at least we only queued for it for 10 mins or so only.. :D

feels like i chionged and crammed as much fun as possible in the last few days of holi..
heehee.
school started today anw...
was.... ok i guess?
tap tap during the first tutorial and lesson.. nice one...
slept in lecture too.. =)
quite normal though.. hahaz!
oh! and organisational communication cher is not bad though..
ahahahahaha! anyone laughing at the POS is someone likeable.
LOL!
but school's kinda weird now tt there's no monday lunches with Piggo.
no one crashing my lecture... =(
i dun tink got any other chance to do tt alr lorh! walauuuuuuuuuu! =(

at least sch starts at 2pm tmrrrrrrrrrr! :D
heehee! AWESOMEEEEE! :D
or maybe not.
4 hours of hell.
note to self : bring jacket before i freeze to death.
lalalalalalalalala!
i will survive the semester!

you can run but you can't hide.

2010-04-16T21:54:00.002+08:00

did manicure at 3bucks todayyyy! :D
heehee! so happy! wheeeee!
but seeing as how i can't preserve my nails... 2 out of 10 of them are screwed even before i reached home.. =/
and because i was trying to transfer the awesome picture of my nails i screwed up another one again.
shitzoid.
so tt's 3! but it's still awesome though! hehe!
love the colour! :D
see! see! heehee

wheeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D
shopping today was sort of productive i guess...
hahaz! at least din go home empty handed...

went to watch date night with pig today!
hahaz! it was funny...
pig went high when cobrastyle song played in the movie...
LOL!
LEIGHTON MEESTER WAS IN THE MOVIE TOOOOO!
hehehe! and Mark Wahlberg with his AH-MA-ZING body!
steve carrell had a line in the movie tt said... why would he need muscles in his shoulders?!
hahaz! so hot mannnn!
been a loooooooooong time since we watched a movie lorhz..
too bad youm and wy can't meet us aft tt.. =(

ANYWAY!
tt day me and mum went walking arnd tampONE then i saw this can drink!
ZOMGGGGG!
SEUNGRI AND GDRAGONNNNNNN!
hehehehehhehehe!
if i buy it i wun drink it lorhz..
just leave it in my cupboard and let it rot prettily..
hahaz!

Love would go high if she see this man!

wanted to buy it but felt stupid buying it and not drinking it..

ouh well...

gotta goooooooo!

school's starting sooooooooooooon! =(

bye!

if you want to find love, look for it with people who are close to
you.
-Rain

2010-04-15T22:01:00.002+08:00

I'M FEELING HIGH NOWWWWWWW!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
OH YEA...
HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY! :DDD!
AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMUEL! :D

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
TO ACTUALLY THINK AND LOOK BACK THIS ONE WHOLE FREAKING YEAR IS FAST MANNNNNN!
ZOMGGGGGGGGG!
POOFED! LIKE TT! YEAR 2! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
TOO BAD PIG'LL BE AT SENTOSA 24/7...
DUN BECOME ROASTED PIG OK?!
IF NOT I CAN'T RESIST TEMPTATION THEN EAT YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! :D
I'M SO MINGGGGG!! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE!
I'M HIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

WENT TO TP TODAY...
CAUGHT A GLIMPSE OF SOME FRESHIES....
HEEHEE... TYPING FRESHIES MAKES ME THINK OF FISHES...
HAHAHAHA! NO LINK BUT WADEVERRRRRRR!
ANYWAY!
THE FRESHIES LIKE CANNOT MAKE IT LEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
ZOMGGGGGGGG...
NO FEAST FOR THE EYES LIAOZ..
POOR EYES. LET'S JUST HOPE GOT GOOD LOOKING GIRLS!
HEEHEE.... MAYBE I SHLD BECOME LESBIAN..
IT'S SO MUCH EASIER..
PIG! BEWAREEEEEEEEEEEE! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

LOVE CAPS! WHOHOOOO!
HEEHEE!
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
:D
LOVE LOVE WOR!

2010-04-14T03:00:00.005+08:00

i'm hungry! at 3 freaking am in the morning.
wteff.
i'm thinking bout freaking mcwings...double mcspicy...fries...
damnit. shall stop thinking.
bloody air law keep me up till so late..
LOSING MY BEAUTY SLEEP!
zzz.
15 more hours man.
i can do this!
shit! i just realised i haven studied badyn
screwed like motherf....
ARGH! bye!

don't talk to me.
i'm cranky and hungry and i'll probably make fun of you.

2010-04-13T19:44:00.002+08:00

i feel like a pig. =/
even aft crashing at karen's place aft our M2 exam and be dead for 2 hours... i'm still tired and even went to slp aft i reached home only to drag myself out of bed cuz of not being able to slp thx to guilt.
zzz... guilty of not having studied a single shit for tmr's TWO papers.
damnit. i'm tireddddddd.... nth's going in...
maybe i shld go slp anw..
hehe! :D
just less than 24 hours!
and then i wun even think abt air law or aerodynamics!
not tt i'm thinking bout it now lah..but still...

lethargic like shit man.
haiz... and i miss wanyi and youm! =(
so long nv see them alrrrrrrrrrr!
hope timetable would be nice and doesn't clash like some retarded shit with their timings.
it's like i'm lacking in a daily dose of awesomeness without seeing them.. =(
ouh well.
bed first. then i shall hit the books!
WHEEEEE! byeeee! :D

2010-04-11T01:49:00.004+08:00

went clubbing for the first time! :D
smuggled into zouk thx to alina's ic... hehe.
my ears are still ringing frm the loud music even after 24 hours... shitzoid.
is tt normal? =/
and omgggggg. i'm alr starting to plan and looking for ppl to go again!
not goooooooood. getting addicted.
but hope can go again soon... hehe!
the drugs are doing it's work alr.
zzzzzzzz.
STOP RINGING IN MY EARRRRRRRRRR!
and i love my phone! :D
hehe!
nighto!

ineedtostudy!ineedtostudy!ineedtostudy!ineedtostudy!ineedtostudy!

2010-04-09T00:03:00.002+08:00

done with all tt emotional shit.
got some closure i guess...
hehehe! :D

ANYWAY! just got my SAMSUNG CORBY PROOOOOOOOOOO!
QWERTY ROCKS! :D
^5 PIGSIE! hehehehehehe! :D
i'm going to be like wy and be super annoying when i msg! hahahahaha!
GONNA ADD LOTS OF USELESS ADDITIONAL ALPHABETS!! HEHEHEHEHE!
NOT TO MENTION FREAKING UNLIMTED SMS!
muahahaha! beat tt!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! :D :D :D

bye byeeeeeeeeeee! :D

all it takes was tt one minute and twentyfive seconds.

2010-04-08T00:13:00.004+08:00

you ripped out all that i have.

not feeling myself.
felt a lil bit cheated and betrayed. and felt complied to do something against my will.
hiding behind a book so that there's a last sanctuary for me in this place.
crying my heart out at sentimental bits of the story to give a reason for the tears i poured.
the past came to the present and even though it's been a long time i can't help wondering and wishing for another end to the story. =/
learning something new yest is not helping the nerves if or when i'm going to see him.
he shldn't be able to have that much of effect on me even aft all these years.
but apparently he did.
tomorrow. i'll probably meet him again.
if only i'm a psychic. i'll noe wad he thinks.
and so i wun have to ask those questions tt's been burning inside me all these years. =/
hate it to know that i still actually care wad he thinks.
f off man...get out of my head!

this is getting retarded.
i'll go back to my happily ever after in the fantasy world.
at least it gives me a bit of hope.

all the hope in the world seemed to be sucked out of my world.
shitzoid.

2010-04-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

sentosa today! :D
hahaz! it's was pretty awesome.. the sun was freaking good..
even with a spf freaking 70 sunblock it's still not enough for you to block out the sunburnt..
hehe!
was not allowed to go cuz dad was saying tt i'm still sick and blah blah blah...
but went anw..
felt bad if i don't... not the first tym alr...
so for a looooooooooooong time... ok not really long.. but still...i lied to my parents..
hehe... wanted to say tt i go karen's house to study..but then the sand and my tan doesn't go well... so CHANGE LIE! go swimming!
hehehehehe!! :D
it was super fun...but damn tired sia....

went chinatown to eat chicken rice aft tt...
had to sit through the whole entire time watching them eat chicken rice while resisting the freaking temptation of holding those fork and spoon and shoving chicken down my throat.
but for tt pint of Ben and Jerry's at Alina's house.. I RESISTED!!
the whole time i was thinking...
QUICK EAT FINISH EAT FINISHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!
freaking torturous man...
then trained home...
so tired mannnnnnnnnnn...
even worse than my super drowsy cough medicine...

and speaking of tt! it's taking effect alr!
gosh... it's only been 15 mins since i took it..
so off to bed! :D

oh god. just the thot of it is weird.
it can't get any worse man.
guess i missed my chance.
no fate no nothing no you.

2010-04-02T23:46:00.006+08:00

Rain - Love Song.
love the chorus...it's so sad and sweet at the same time..
haha!! and OH MY GOD.
you gotta watch till the end of it...
the part where he danced halfway and RIPPED HIS SHIRT OFF!
OH GOSHHH!
total hotness! i swear the room temperature went up by 50degreeCelcius in tt one second!
LOL!
oh myyyy... the moment he ripped his shirt off...inside my head started going...i'm a bad boy... i gotta be a bad bad boy...i'm a bad bad boy...gotta be a bad boy...
hehehehehe!
and if you're a kpop noob like SHEwhomustnotbenamed (ahempigahem)it's a freaking popular song by rain called rainism.

was too tired to blog..
but i saw the video came out and went to watch it.
it'll be super evil of me if i don't share it with you guys man..
HAHAHAHAHA!! AHHHHHHH!
god..
ok i better go slp before i crash on the second day...
ahhhhhhhhhh! it's only the second day...wtf.
at least the cashier i'm with is a nice person... =)
and freaking hell... being at the bags section makes me wan to buy bagssss! even though i dun really need that much bagggggs! but it's cheap and pretty too!
AND AND AND the BRA AND PANTIES!
PIERRE CARDIN! (is it spelled like tt? =/) one whole bra and panties set is only 10 FREAKING DOLLARSSSSS!!
DAMN CHEAP LAHHHHHHHHHHHH!
i feel like i'm helping Isetan advertise.. haha!
but still...
makes me feel stupid to be working when i can be shopping and buying awesome stuff at such a good deal...
LOL! but still...
THINK MONEY! THINK MONEY! THINK MONEYYYYYYYYY!

oh! and big match tmr!
GO CHELSEAAAAAAA!! please please please kill manure...
PRETTY PLEASE?!?! =D!
someone update me ok?! cuz i can't watch how chelsea thrash manure.. =/
love love!! byeeeeeee! :D

2010-04-01T00:07:00.005+08:00

class chalet ended today...
was pretty awesome..
so much so tt i feel so sianed and boring the moment i reached home...zzz
din sleep much cuz i was coughing my lungs out..
but other than tt and the not being able to eat to my hearts content everythings was pretty awesome...
hehe!! chicken wings and satay are awesomeeeeeeeeeeee! and and and sambal sotong!
LOL! totally not supposed to eat those but continue eating anw...
spent most of the time in the chalet and playing guitar hero till our ears bleed whenever the same song is played all over again... and obviously mahjong...
till i'm pretty sianed bout it...
maybe becuz they din play money and tt they play pretty slow.. =/
the guys got high on the first night too.. haha! thx to alcohols and tt retarded 42% vodka...
it's freaking strong and i think i'll stick to Bacardi Breezer tyvm...
not tt i'm supposed to drink tt too lah...but still...

hahaz! Karen was watching me like a hawk the entire time..telling me tt i can't drink alcohol...
LOL! managed to sneak a few sips anw...
and thx to the rest who covered for me when she got suspicious... HEHEHE!
looking forward to Alina's birthday chalet...
hope it's as awesome as this.. if not..i'll still be looking forward to it cuz my cough better recover and i can eat ALL the chicken wings and satay for all i like! HEHEHE!
OH! and not to mention the AWESOME and LEGEN-waitfotit-DARY cheesecakeeeeeee!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH! makes me high just thinking bout it..
hehehehe!!

swimming tmr with Karen.. gotta burn some fats...
haven been swimming since holi started.. shit man...
gonna not be able to fit into my shorts soon.. =/
oh! and job at Isetan on fri till sun...
thank god Love is in the same dept as meeeeeee! :D
think moneyyy! HAHAHA!
love love! byeee! :D

you're making hard to not fall for you.

2010-03-26T02:05:00.004+08:00

seriously needs to stop sleeping late... =/
starting to hate it myself..

then feel like i haven slept for years in the morning..
shit man..it's really bad...
and i seriously seriously need to exercise... gosh!

anyway! mahjong at Lewis house today...
won 1 buck... thx to the crazy investment and super awesome luck...
:D

went to have dinner with family then went home and had a shock.
some retarded person... which i have a feeling it's a her... put a small tiny cage of hamster at where i put the my hamster...
i thot something bad happened to my hamster..like somebody took it or something.. in the end i look closely..
there's SIX fully grown but still young hamsters and FIVE babies hamster that has not yet opened it's eyes...
walau...the person damn inconsiderate lah!
i mean dumping and abandoning the hamster to me is fine... BUT AT LEAST PUT THEM IN A BIGGER CAGE! AND SEPEARTE THE FATHER AND MOTHER!!
GOSH!!!
wad if the mother eat the babies?!
ARE YOU STUPID OR ARE YOU STUPID?! STUPID!
FKING RETARDED WOMAN!!
and it's not the first time!!
first time was one... NOW ELEVEN!
so ppl...
i'm desperately looking for nice owners...
ppl who care and love hamsters...
they are winter white.. and no..they are not white you dumb ass... it's black...
greyish black actually...
very cute...contact me if you wan.. ok?
no hamster cage or bedding or food provided though... =/
i'm having limited food too... =(
let's just hope they wun eat the babies.. =/
the babies are freaking cute btw... hehe!
gonna keep maybe 3 of them... WEEEEEEEEEEE! :D

so!! i saw on fb tt someone's going to venice!

so awesome lah!!

really want to go there!!
so cool! so i decided to google and wiki it!
AND OMGGG! it's so pretty and EXOTIC!
TOTALLY COOL MAN!!

PICTURES! :D

you see tt it's divided into like three parts right?! but it's NOT!
it's actually divided into 6 parts! then if i nv read wrongly there's different ppl ruling the 6 diff parts... I THINK.
then at the left side got this long straight road thingy to like infinity?
haha! it's actually to the mainland...and tt long meandering canal?
it's the famous Grand Canal...
:D cool eh? hehe!

pretty pretty!!
can just go there and fall in love with anyone lorhz...
so romantic..

oh!! then they have like carnivals...

then the ppl will wear masks...

SO COOOOOOOL!!

omg... like an OPEN AIR MASQUERADE! WITH LOTS OF PPL!! COOOOL SHITTTT!

can you imagine? you walking arnd with everyone surrounding you wearing a mask?

hehehe... kinda freaky though... but cool at the same time!

oh!! and sadly cuz it's like surrounded by waters... they get like floods...

it's called Acqua Alta. aka high water.

due yto the currents and seasonal changes and everything...

so the floor are made specially...so it would not rot when it's being flooded.. hehe

wonder if fishes swim arnd...

so it's like..if you walk then suddenly got fishes swim arnd you!

HAHAHAHAHA!

i doubt so though... hehehe.

SO!COOL RIGHT?!

i wan to go.. =(

gonna earn lots of money..then go there live for a mnth or something!

hahahahaha!! I LIKEYYYY!

better sleep!

byeeeee!

2010-03-22T00:06:00.002+08:00

=( Liverpool lost. damnit.
manure fans go away before i slap you in the face.
no more champions league next season for Liverpool.
and maybe Torres is going to be sold away...
or maybe Gerrard too... shitzoid...
then Liverpool will become worse... and then soon they will be relegated...
and Liverpool will be nothing but a memory... =(
ok...shall not think so much cuz it'll never happen.. or at least i hope not... =/

ANYWAY! went to indoor stadium to work...(thx Ginny!)
think it worsens my sickness...=/
pretty bad working experience there...shall not bitch bout it anymore...
(thx Ginny anyway! =D!)
and thx to Disney on Ice... i now know tt "curiouser" is a word.
asked my sis and she said it's from Alice in Wonderland...
hehe... cool..
oh!! and one phrase keeps getting stucked in my mind!
TO INFINITY AND BEYOND!
lolx! it's as if transport back to when i'm 5 or 6 yrsold. :D

overnight mahjong tmr!!
hehe! can't wait..feels like a long time...
been watching dad and the pros play mahjong the whole day today at cute ahma's house...
have a very big itch and msged lewis and nicholas..
hahaz! we seriously need a permanent fourth player man...
always looking for a fourth player to feel the void sucks.. =/
there should be this agency where they find kaki for you whenever you have one less person.
then got different levels..noob. beginners. intermediate. advance. PROS.
hehehehe! NOT BAD LEHHHH!!
good idea... shall implement sometime soon...
lalalalala...
omg it's 1:08am alr.
byeeeeeeee! :D

2010-03-19T00:48:00.002+08:00

so fking pissed!
why am i always the one who got scolded and nagged at for not doing housework?!
when both my sisters are also at home tgt with me?!
bloody hell...especially when i went out and BOTH MY FRIGGING SISTERS ARE ALSO AT HOME!
wad the eff lah...
my dajie the whole day off leh! and she din even do anything!
everytime she's home all she do is watch tv... then aft tt go out find her bf..
din even do any frigging thing!
not doing anything is still ok..but then the whole time give those sian sian wan die wan die look..
fk yourself lah! dun so nuah can?! all i want to do is just slap you across the face and not wan to ke lian you.
at least erjie got help a little...
and tt erjie have to chiong her FYP...
bloody hell...
so fking unfair!
and all shoot at me just because i'm the youngest and that my sisters are so frigging old that telling them to do anything is as hard as moving a mountain...(direct translation of a chinese idiom?)
suck ass...
just venting anger... PMS sucks.

went to register job at Isetan today...
then went to Funan and Sim Lim today..
and i realised that those shops that shows any screen clarity would use Girls Generation MV...
so everywhere we go all you see is the 9 pretty faces dancing arnd and singing...
it gets sickening and retarded aft awhile...
but entertaining at the same time..
hahaz!
PIG got me a job at indoor stadium...(THX!=D! )
hope it's fun... hehe... maybe can oogle at cute ang moh's... hehehehe! :D
erjie's sweden fren's sister is one of the performer!
she acts at the Violet... from The Incredibles...hehe...
so cool lorhz! heard tt she's only 19 or 20...so talented!
lalala...better sleep soon!
nitez! :D

2010-03-15T01:56:00.003+08:00

just some random quotes...
calvin and hobbes are just too awesome.

Calvin: What do you think is the best way to get what you want? Is itbetter to hold fast and never back down or to compromise?
Hobbes: I suppose it's best to hold fast while you can and compromise when you need to.
Calvin: That a lot more mature than i think i care to be.

Calvin: I like these cold, gray winter days.
Days like these let you savor a bad mood.

Calvin: Childhood is short and maturity is forever.

hehe! byeeee! :D

excuse me while i fall for you.

2010-03-14T22:34:00.002+08:00

NEED
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A
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DOSE
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OF
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PRIVATE PRACTICEEEEEEEEE!
NOWWWW! =(

but shall make do with mahjong.. =(
suck ass!

was i ever a priority in your life?
or just your replacement?

2010-03-11T01:21:00.002+08:00

school is boring shit.
it's feels really frustrating to just sit in class and just waits for break and then lunch and then another break and finally go home.
it's like stuck in an office job...
half the lessons i have no idea what the teacher is teaching cuz i've been using the computer and surfing the web and read nonsensical stuff such as fmylife and OMGfacts...
it's such a total waste of time but still maybe sort of useful in a way.. =/
haiz... so sian... and i shld go and sleep soon or else tmr is going to be a bitch hell of a day.
=(

and no..i still have not changed my hamster cage... =/
my poor hamsters... ahhhh shitzoid...
i'm going to promise myself to change it! yes i will!
and something random...i like how my nail colours reflect so nicely on my black keyboard...
hahahahaha!! it's so cool and mesmerising... HEHEHE! :D
it really looks like m&ms...
makes me hungry and crave for m&ms...

but nevertheless! it's still great to see my classmates again... :D
it's been a long tym since a whole huge bunch of us went to have lunch tgt alr...and having two stacks of poker cards out in front of our plates and playing bridge and daidi..
hehe!
ouh well...
another long day ahead and i shall go look for my bed... =)
byeeeeeeeee! if you see me online tmr or anything...COME TALK TO ME OK?!
hehe! lovelove! byeeeeeee!

2010-03-05T22:15:00.002+08:00

LOL! Murphy's Law.
from facebook. one of the become a fan page...
hehehe! it's awesome.

It is impossible to make anything foolproof because fools are so ingenious.

The Murphy Philosophy
Smile . . . tomorrow will be worse.

Law of the Perversity of Nature (Mrs. Murphy's Corollary):
You cannot successfully determine beforehand which side of the bread to butter.

You never run out of things that can go wrong.

Murphy's Military Laws
The buddy system is essential to your survival; it gives the enemy somebody else to shoot at.
(LOL this is nice to know...)
There is nothing more satisfying that having someone take a shot at you, and miss.

Murphy's Technology Laws
Always draw your curves, then plot your reading.
A meeting is an event at which the minutes are kept and the hours are lost.
Some people manage by the book, even though they don't know who wrote the book or even what book.
The first myth of management is that it exists.
All things are possible except skiing through a revolving door.
Any attempt to print Murphy's laws will jam the printer.

Murphy's Love Laws

1. All the good ones are taken.
2. If the person isn't taken, there's a reason. (corr. to 1)
3. The nicer someone is, the farther away (s)he is from you.
4. Brains x Beauty x Availability = Constant.
5. The amount of love someone feels for you is inversely proportional to how much you love them.
6. Money can't buy love, but it sure gets you a great bargaining position.
7. The best things in the world are free --- and worth every penny of it.
8. Every kind action has a not-so-kind reaction.
9. Nice guys(girls) finish last.
10. If it seems too good to be true, it probably is.
11. Availability is a function of time. The minute you get interested is the minute they find someone else.

Murphy's Laws of sex
Sex is like snow; you never know how many inches you are going to get or how long it is going to last.
NEVER SLEEP WITH ANYONE CRAZIER THAN YOURSELF.
The qualities that most attract a woman to a man are usually the same ones she can't stand years later.
Sex is hereditary. If your parents never had it, chances are you won't either.
Love is a hole in the heart.
When the lights are out, all women are beautiful.
Sex discriminates against the shy and the ugly.
Sex is a three-letter word which needs some old-fashioned four-letter words to convey its full meaning.
One good turn gets most of the blankets.
Love is the triumph of imagination over intelligence.
Love is a matter of chemistry, sex is a matter of physics.
A woman never forgets the men she could have had; a man, the women he couldn't.
A man can be happy with any woman as long as he doesn't love her.
Sex is one of the nine reasons for reincarnation; the other eight are unimportant.
Smile, it makes people wonder what you are thinking.
There is no difference between a wise man and a fool when they fall in love.
Love is the delusion that one woman differs from another.

:D

2010-03-05T14:44:00.003+08:00

i feel weird.
like things are not feeling right.
is this how it is going to be every semester holiday?
last sem holi was almost the same as this time's.
it sucks. and scary.
and there's like this freaking crazy weird stupid retarded battle going on in my head.
it's making me really cranky and moody.
and no it's not pms...
probably due to rotting at home day in day out. =/
and it's only....the first 7 days of holiday.

there's this compulsory lesson thing next week and i have to go back to school for 3 days from 9-6.
and i'm actually seriously looking forward to it because at least there's something to do and a reason for me to get out ofthe house...
i mean... 9-6 everyday?! and i'm LOOKING FORWARD to it?!
freaking hell..i need more freaking god damn life man!
but then again...whenever i go out or do something...i feel like just going home and sleep.
it's like i'm sleepy 24/7 even though i had my 12 hours of sleep everyday.. =(
what's wrong with me?!
need to exercise more...maybe...damn
i'm so lazy! and my hamstercage haven been changed yet!
shitzoid!
i've been saying tt i would change it since before exams start... ahhhhhhh
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?!

long holidays suck.
it's doing my already crazy head in...
OH! and i'm letting my top earhole close.. =/
infection sucks...and now there's like this extra piece of thing coming out...
doesn't hurt..just gross and scary looking...
ouh well... whatever... dun feel all tt sad... the most go get it pierced again...
lalalalalalalalalalalalalala...
need a life.

AND I CAN'T BELIEVE I LOST SO MUCH MONEY IN MAHJONG YESTERDAY NIGHT!
10 freaking bucks.. =/
bloody lewis... bet he go ubin pray to the ubin gods or something...
suck all three of our money... =(
first tym i got bled dry in mahjong..scary...
and i think my class is getting addicted to mahjong.. =/
what was supposed to be a sianed thursday yesterday turned out to be a mahjong thursday...
karen and her bf was looking for another kaki and we couldn't find any but in the end there's two table of mahjong opened at my house... with one extra kaki...
LOL!
then last minute overnight mahjong...
hehe... although i lost alot of money it's still fun... =D!
and there's going to be a class chalet! weeeeeeeeeeeeee!
kinda looking forward to it..
hahaz! i'm imagining satays chicken wings and maybe alina's cheesecake?!
HEHEHEHEHHEE!
getting high! WHOHOOOOO! =D!
BYE!

2010-03-04T22:55:00.001+08:00

maybe...

2010-03-03T01:39:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANTON! :D
i finally rmbed.. muahahaha! sort of rmbed.

school's out.
but it's not tt fun..
just been rotting at home doing nothing.. =/
using computer and watching Glee. =D!
hehe! it's niceeeee...

i'm too lazy to blog...
till whenever. =)

you tried to escape but you know it'll just come right back to you.

2010-02-24T00:24:00.002+08:00

am happily driving ppl away thanks to my crankiness.
and it's all becuz of dfund.
it's so irritating and frustrating.
dfund is the shit!
i shall kill it and smash it into bits and bury it to the core of the earth!
nice. i'm cranky and bitchy.
fudge.

2010-02-18T23:59:00.005+08:00

in serious thot of letting my cafe world rot...
so sick of it alr..but i can't seem to let it rot...
zzz. =/

anyway! woke up at some ungodly hour today...
went to sent off my god granny who passed away on the third day of cny...
considering the fact that she has stopped any intake of food or water since the eve of cny..it's amazing how she could last till the third day...she's awesome...
rest in peace granny!
it's the first tym i went for a sea burial... :D
it's very very cool and peaceful...
totally different from the normal cremation and burial..
probably it's also becuz they only allow a limit of up to 12 ppl on the boat only...
so it's pretty much strictly family members only... it's quite a closed knit affair... =)

aft tt went to meet Pig Yi and Youm! =D!
zomg...feels like a long tym.. =/
everyone's just so busy...
studied for a while and was too tired and couldn't continue any longer so went home aft tt...
I WAS UP SINCE 6:45am in the FREAKING MORNING ok?!?!
crazy! it's ungodly lah!
realised that if i woke up and the sun is still not up yet i'll be very cranky and bitchy.. =/
ouh well...just dun pissed me off...you wouldn't like it.
went home and slept like some dead pig...totally din hear my alarm ring...
woke up in the end! WHOHOOO!
gonna study! =D! i can do itttttt!

hmmmm and i realised that it's really really scary to like/love someone...
when you fall hard for someone it's like all your real sense and wadever doesn't matter at all...
and when the person you like/love does something that totally crushes your heart..he/she wouldn't know cuz the person is totally oblivious to the love you've given...
and it's really really very scary at the thought of how someone could control your own emotions without them even trying.
i guess maybe that's the power of love...
but if it really is..i'd rather not have that power...
cause it's just too scary alr.
seriously! why can't things be simple? zzz...
life's too complicated and i don't like it...
maybe it's still best to be ignorant.
it's still better to not know anything than to know everything.
curiosity kills the cat... shall rmb tt..

and i really hate the fact that the bloody school put our main ~~fucking~~ exams right smack in the middle of chinese new year.
asshole...
it's like they deliberately torture us you noe?!
middle fingers...
shall go study now! :D
jiayou alison!

2010-02-16T01:19:00.003+08:00

played blackjack for the whole day...
my capital of 10bucks went from 10 to 2 and then back to 10 and back to 2 and back to 10 and went 20bucks!!
lolx! but i lost everything...=/ cuz aft tt i played daidi and keep on losing... 10cents a card is alot than it looks...
so at the end of the day i lost $11.40. not bad lahz...
hahaz! so tired..and i haven even started studying for my main exam yet...
and when i said i haven started studying it really means haven started studying... my books are not even out... it's stashed somewhere so that it wun clutter my newly tidied up table.
i'm so screwed so even thought there's a big probability that we will continue our blackjack session tmr i shall resist it and go and study with my beloved wanyi!
if not my gpa shall be so sucky that it cannot be revived.. =/

anyway.. one of my hamster died.. =(
his neighbour climbed over the barrier and attacked him...
he was so sick that even when we(me and my sis) put medication on it it still didn't survived...
it was so freaking skinny you noe?!
there's even this freaking huge tumour thingy underneath it's chin! it's so ke lian can?!
see alr heart pain lorh!
omg... cried when i went to bury it...
since this hammie suffered so much...i searched for a box to keep him in.
i dun tink i did that for other hammies...
or maybe one only..
haiz... so sad lorhz...
just hope that he will rest in peace...
now i'm left with 6 hamsters...
and it wun be reproducing anymore cuz i seperated them... =(
and then it would be last descendants of nata de coco... =(
i'll miss you hammie... rest in peace ok?

gotta go! there's still a long day tmr... haiz...
byeeeeee! love you guys! :D

2010-02-10T22:57:00.006+08:00

ok!! the pictures as i promised! =DD!
hehe! had lots of fun at the airshow...
going round looking at aircrafts and queuing up to go inside the private jets...
the sun was crazy that day... and now i have a flats line on my feet...
okok... the pictures! :D

hehehe! i went inside with my whole class at first...then the idea of this suddenly came to me on my way out of the aircraft...so i made karen wait for me at the exit there and i queued AGAIN...the queue is long ok?!?! and then TA-DAHHHH!! :D

MASTER PIECE! =DDD!
eh! got army guy stand there to wait for me land ok?! hahaz!

class photo! :D

hahaz! Guan Rui and Samuel trying to hijack the plane.

ahhhhhhhhhh!! hahaha!! the guy
looks damn cool sitting under the aircraft wing.. LOL!
i took a few of it... there's even one where i'm kissing the guy who's squatting the butt...
but someone haven upload it yet...
hahaz!! COOL RIGHT?! :D

the butt of the plane isn't tt far off the ground actually.. i'm just really really short and couldn't touch it.. damn it.

hehe!

one of the air stewardess in the private jet... she very pretty!!! :D

if only the aircraft is mine... =(

yes i'm short..i know. i can seriously just walk under the wing without bending... damn it.
I NEED TO GROW!

US AIR FORCE!! :D

me with Karen! =)

okok...and now! FOR THE PICTURE OF THE YEAR!

*drumroll please*

.

HAHAHAHAA!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! so hot can?!

too bad the woman beside him isn't tt hot...

if not this photo will be PERFECT!

it's taken by Yours Truly! =D!

hahaz! i'm like...OMG! that guy look damn cool! okok...use the aircraft as an excused...aim at the aircraft... then TAKE!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

HE INSIDE HE INSIDE!!muahahahahaha!!

the effect of the picture is more than i thot it would be...

the sunglasses and the briefcase completes the "i just got down from my awesome aircraft and is rushing to somewhere important" look!

LOL!

weeeeeeeeeeee!

so happy aft i took the picture..i was damn high my classmates think i'm crazy.

hahaz!

i'll post more if there are more.. =D!

thinking of blogging more but it'll just spoil the whole happiness of this post.. so i shall not.

BYEEEE!

I CAN'T WAIT FOR FRIDAY! AHHHHHHHHH!

muackz!

2010-02-07T03:06:00.004+08:00

hahaz! heard it on radio. old songs never dies.

realised that we can't live without each other for more than a week.
anything more and we'll be cranky and emotional.
LOL! it's nice in a way... =)
the last few weeks of end of sem is always the worst.
but it's ok! we shall survive! =D!

anyway airshow was not bad i guess..not as awesome as last year though..hahaz! not tt i went to last year's..but i heard it was more awesome.. =)
saw lots of cute ang moh's.. i'm like in my own element..hahaz!
shall post pictures if i got it! realised tt i haven been posting pictures for a long tym alr..
hehe. ok. i'm so hungry now damnit.
was a real pig in the aftnoon.
slept till 12+ then went back to slp aft lunch at 2 and snoozed my alarm for one whole hour tt my alarm was fed up and off-ed it by it's own.
LOL! i'm ah-maz-ing! =D!
ended up waking up at 5+... hence i'm till up now at this bloody hour..
zzz.
going sleep! BYEEEE! =D!

trying to make myself as small as possible to the world so that you
can't see the feelings i have for you.

2010-02-05T01:01:00.004+08:00

I'M GOING TO AIRSHOW 2010 TOMORROW!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
hahaz! i've been telling all those who are willing to listen to me go on and on bout me going to airshow but actually i'm not tt excited bout it...
LOL! i'm boredddddd.
and i need to slp soon! if not i can't wake up at the ungodly hour that i have to wake up!
lalalalalala!
i'm awesomeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D

2010-02-03T00:54:00.009+08:00

it's frustrating to see someone you care about very much making a huge mistake in his/her life.
especially if the mistake is one huge ass stupidity.

my history teacher sounds suicidal... stalin and ussr...pfft!

Let me love you, but don't love me back. Do love me and let me hate you for
a while. Let me feel like i have some control, because i know i never do.
-The Last Summer (of You and Me)

2010-02-02T01:03:00.003+08:00

AHAHAHAHA! i just typed a bunch of bullshit into my class reflection blog.
thanks to barney stinson i think i actually gave an awesome post!
LOL!
here it is!! =D!
total bullshit man!

i feel that stress management is a very meaningful topic and is very important.

it teaches us how to manage the stress. this is very practical as everyone would feel stress at some point of their life. by managing the stress that we feel, we won't inflict the frustration and irritation that we felt from the stress to the surrounding people. not only do you leave a good impression on others, the people around you will alsobe happy and willing to help you whenever you feel stress or down.

also, if you manage your stress wrongly, you would transfer all the negativeness to other people. and this would then become a chain of stress! (i made that up but read on! it sort of made a little sense! =D!) let's look at the top of the chain, you. when you feel stressed or frustrated, you vent it on others, say your friend, your friend would not be happy and then vent that negativeness on another friend or maybe his or her siblings, then the another friend or siblings would feel unfair and then passes on the negativeness to ANOTHER friend or the siblings if they managed the negativeness wrongly. and this whole chain of stress would go on and on!

at the end of the day, no one would feel happy and causing the world to be one grumpy place and we wouldn't like that would we? THEREFORE! stress management rocks! and we should apply what we learn to real life as it is very relevant! =D!

TADAHHHHH! :D

LOL! i'm a GENIUS!
tyvm!
one more post to go... damnit.

anyway! since i'm here might as well blog more...
SO! FIRST OF FEBRUARY! i just rmbed when i'm young i can't spell february too... the middle part is too complicated for a 7 year old man...seriously.
ANYWAY! it's been a mnth since the new year started!!
my resolution is screwed totally...
and i think to prove the point of my resolutions being screwed...my awesome subconscious mind made me late for school to mark the one mnth anniversary of the screwed resolutions!

lesson starts at 9am and i woke up at 9:10am.
hahaz!! and all the while i thot it was sunday.
how awesome can my mind be man?! =D!
LOL!

haiz..so sian... i really miss secondary school...
all the korean propaganda...whether i like it or not...
the crazy stuff we do to keep ourselves entertain...
MDM MUNEIRA!
lunch boxes for recess! =D!!
all that bitching.. hahaz!
oh man... i miss it... =(
JING! HUSBAND! LOVE! meet up soon! I REALLY MISS YOU GUYS!
MUACKZ!
ok..better go finish the damn post... zzz
byeeeeeeeeee!

Calvin: You can't just turn on creativity like a faucet.You have to be in the right mood
Hobbes: What mood is that?
Calvin: Last minute panic.
-Calvin and Hobbes

2010-01-30T22:43:00.005+08:00

hehehehe! i'm sunburnt!! WHOHOO!! =D!
woke up at some ungodly hour to go meet Karen and Samuel at school to swim.
and yes anytime BEFORE 12pm is ungodly!
hahaz! but then when we reached the sch swimming pool it's alr 11 and the damn water polo guys will be using the pool which means we can either use the small shallow swimming pool next to it and oggle out hearts out watching the water polo team train or we can go bedok or tampines swimming complex and soak in the pee filled pool.
so of cuz they choosed to go to the pee filled pool in tampines swimming complex!
zzz.

seriously man!! got cute water polo guys to see dun wan go soak in pee filled pool.
but i got my tan anw and i'm happy! WHOHOOO!! :D
we spent the whole time in the pool just talking bout stuff and din even swim at all.. hahaz!
niceeeeee! aft tt went to eat kfc which is so sinful considering the fact tt we din burn any calories...

aft tt walked back to sch and slacked in library..
hehehe! was supposed to be studying but ended up finishing one more book of calvin and hobbes and slept till the library closed.. hahaz! =D!
then went to play 4 rounds of daytona sponsored by Louis tgt with Samuel and XD!
and i'm proud to say i won 2 out of tt 4 matched tyvm! :D

lolx! okok... i'm out! =D!
might finally be getting over You're Beautiful... HEHEHE
MIGHT.
but only to be going crazy over Autumn's Concerto aka Xia Yi Zhan Xing Fu.
hahaz! someone keep tt show away frm me until aft main exams!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!
I LOVE YOU GUYS! MUACKZ!

[Edit]
ok..a thought occured to me just now.
there's a possibility that my eng o's got a B3 becuz i spelled weird as wierd.. =/
not tt i actually rmbed if i wrote tt damn word in the paper but but but! GOT POSSIBILITY RIGHT?!?!?!
omg...
and i asked one of my classmate why in the world is weird spelt as weird and not wierd...
and he said cuz e comes before i... hmmmm
it kinda actually made a weird sense don't you think!?
like lame... a comes before e!
hahaz! niceeeee... i feel like i'm enlightened!
LOL!

and and and LIVERPOOL WON! WHOHOO!
been a long tym since i watched a soccer match and i'll like to think tt they won becuz i watched it..
hehehehe! :D
sad to say my beloved Gerrard and Carragher is getting old and not playing how they used to play.. =(
but ouh well..at least some newcomers are not tt bad and have great potential.. =D!
hope is not lost! WHOHOO!!
my love for soccer has been rekindled man!
I LOVE LIVERPOOL!
muackz!
[/Edit]

2010-01-27T01:34:00.002+08:00

hungry. cranky. studying.
not a good combination man.
not to mention still obsessing over tt damn drama.
all i can think is sleep. hungry. want to rewatch You're Beautiful. sleep. hungry. want to rewatch You're Beautiful. and all over again...
RAHHHH...
need to snap out of it and stuff my head into the books.
zzz.
i will surviveeeeeeeeeeee!

2010-01-26T00:33:00.004+08:00

just got back from watching movie with my parents.. =D!
went to watch Hachiko : A Dog's Story.
very touching... cried buckets. =/
felt like someone punched my eyes...
shld go watch..hahaz! something like marley and me except the roles are sort of reverse...

anyway..i rewatched almost all of the episodes of You're Beautiful again.
hahaz!! no thanks to Karen who started to watch it even before i reach school.
and thanks to Karen now even Samuel is watching it too..
LOL! it's AWESOMEEEEE! MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
and just when i thot i had my craziness of You're Beautiful under control it went crazy again and i was sort of pretty weird and high during school...
hahahahahha!
ouh well... holiday i'm going to watch it again man! =D!

haiz... need a job soon...
or my bank is gonna deplete like how the ozone layer is depleting.. =(
ok... damn tired... there's tutorial at some ungodly hour tmr..
shitzoid.
BYEEEEEEEE! =DD!

2010-01-23T15:19:00.003+08:00

hahaz! ok! You're Beautiful the after effects is still there..but not as much alr.
it feels surreal.
that few days which i'm so hooked to the show it felt as if i'm living in my own little world.
and when i'm out in the real world i swear i actually hallucinated and thot my real world had a little bit of my fantasy world..
hahaz!! ok fine...not making any sense...
ANYWAY!
YOUM! do you think TaeKyung look like TOP?!
hahaz!! somehow when watching the show i keep on thinking it's TOP lorhz!!
make me miss Big Bang.
OK! i shall clear my head and start studying man...
been slping in lectures cuz i'm up late watching You're Beautiful.. =/
maybe i'll watch it again.. hehehehe!
during holiday that is! or maybe i can't resist it and start watching it all over again tonight.. hahaz!
shitzoid.

and i feel like i've become older lahz!!
just last year i can stay awake all the way up to 3 or 4 plus in the morning and not feel much after effects or sleep deprivation..
but now.. whenever i stay awake just ast 1 or 2 i feel like i'm a zombie..
zzz.. stupid.
lalalalalalala... WHOHOO! finally finished! hehehe...
bye! =D!

2010-01-23T02:31:00.004+08:00

i just finished You're Beautiful.
omg. it's really very nice.. =/
losing sleep over this is worth it.
hahaz! the only time i rmbed being this crazy bout a drama was Hana Kimi.
wow..Hana Kimi is soooo long ago.. =/
haiz.. sucks man...there's no one to go crazy bout with me.
there's no jing or may... =(
SO SADDDDDDDDD!

ahhhhhh... too tired and over emotional aft the whole drama...
need sleep.
till whenever! =)
how i wish there's someone up and awake to share this feeling with me now.. =/
damnit..where's a boyfriend when i needed one?!
it feels as if a whole shitload of love just exploded inside my heart and waiting for someone to come along to give that person all that love.

hahaz! guess watching korean drama is making me go...drama-mama.
LOL! quoted from lewis!
hehehehe. guess all i could do is fantasize.
ouh well! not the first time... BED! =D!

2010-01-21T20:39:00.002+08:00

oh crap.
i think i just fell in love with a guy.

who happens to be a figment of my imagination.
shitzoid.

2010-01-20T00:25:00.002+08:00

OMG!
i'm watching You're Beautiful now!
die..i shouldn't have started!
now i'm going through the whole crazy going gaga over whoever it is again!!
damnnnnnn!
omg... it just made me feel like falling in love right now... =(
how sad there isn't anyone for me to fall in love.
mannnn.
ok.shall continue! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!
omg.. i swear it's awesome!

2010-01-17T22:58:00.002+08:00

i'm PMS-ing full blast-ly.
=( hate the frustrating feeling.

and i'm going to go on a diet! starting tmr!
yes i know i'm not fat...i just want to shake off those excess meat i have.
just because i like it.

ah screw it. bye.

2010-01-14T22:50:00.002+08:00

hmmmm... ok...
i've said fuck for i dunno how many times today alr.
so screw my resolution...as long as i keep my language clean in front of CERTAIN ppl i'll be fine!
hahaz! it's impossible for you to not say fuck when all around you are guys who goes fuck! whenever they felt like it.
hehehe.

anyway! today went to accompany Karen to go pierce her ear!!
LOL! so coooool...
make me feel like piercing again!
AHAHAHAHA! okok... tt's crazy...
was so tiredddd.. =(

there's lots of nice movies out right nowwwww
there's Cirque du Freak : The Vampire's Assistant and i haven watch chipmunks yet. It's Complicated looks quite interesting too..
and and and Did You Hear About The Morgans.
but i'm broke after paying for my CAAS exam fee (4papers in total.shld be 3 but i stupidly failed one and have to retake again. there goes another 17bucks.) that i dun hav enough for fooood.
but at the rate i'm eating and consuming food now i doubt a hundred bucks just on food for a week is going to allow me to survive.
i swear it's like hitting puberty all over again and it's SCARY!
i'm hungry most of the time and even aft a meal i'll feel hungry a few hours later.
something's wrong with meeee. =/

ouh well... i'm bored and need to find something with my time.. =/
blah. bye!

2010-01-11T01:10:00.003+08:00

hahaz! okok... i'm blogging!!
because i'm awesome, i shall blog the first ever post of 2010 even though i'm tired and not thinking straight!
ahahahahahaha. eh! only awesome ppl can do tt ok?!

anyway! my resolutions have been erm... not tt bad i guess..
been keeping it!
let's see... for the first one.. not be late..
hahahaha! ok lahz.. I NEVER late YET.
does being late but still within the grace period of 15 mins count?
nahhhh don't think so.
SO! i'm not late YET! whohooo!
yay me!

second one... LOL! no vulgarities...
erm... sad to say i've broken it just an hour after 2010 starts and continued to break it on the 4th day since 2010 starts but OTHER THAN THAT i've kept my language very very clean.
I SWEAR!!
even pig says she like talking to me now that i censor the f words. EHEHEHEHE! =D!

third one!
i'm not sure though. but i think i've stopped it alr.
gotta check with my awesome friends on tt.. but i think i've stopped being bimbotic alr!
AHAHAHAHAHA! i now pronounce me...AWESOME and AWESOMEST!

fourth!
lolx! ok... i've said "seriously" for i dunno how many times alr..BUT! not tt much ok?!
ahahahahaha! even changed the "accent" as pig would hav called it..
so not tt bad...

all in all...i must say..my resolutions are still going strong!
hahaha! WHOOHOOOO!! =D!
and yes..i'm so sorry for leaving my blog dead for idunnohowlong.
cuz i'm just so busy wad with school starting and me being a super lazy shit.
hahaz! school's generally okay i guess...
not much of a happenning..
except for the fact of Alina and Gary being tgt and makes it ohsosweet till i pretty much blush like i'm the one in love whenever i sit NEXT TO THEM.
hahaz! therefore i try not to sit next to them during lectures or i'll just pass out in a fit of giggles that could actually last for the entire lecture.
LOL! i swear they're damn damn sweet!! ahahahahahaha! omggggg...
just thinking bout it made me feel....fillintheblanks.
ahahaha! =D!

oh! and a thought just came to me..
i can't rmb who..but we were talking bout me going to have a boyfriend in 2009.
lolx! HAH! see! told you i wouldn't get one!
hmmmm or maybe my awesome subconscious mind have been remembering that and subconsciously pushing any potential love interest.
hahaz! don't know if it's a blessing in disguise or not. ouh well...
no time to dwell on it.
right now things still seem ok and normal.
but i would actually prefer if things to suck right now if that means i'll have an awesome luck at the latter of this year where i'll be going through a horrible stage in my life and pretty much torturous and stressful.
but i shall be becareful of wad i wish for...
just hope my luck would not be too shitty when sem 2.2 comes.
pray like mad!

ok...the awesome me is getting not that awesome alr so off i go!
there's still air law test the first thing in the morning.
good luck to me!
bye people!
love always! =)

don't even think of running away.
cause the past would ALWAYS catch up with you.
no matter how awful or pleasant it is.
true story.

2009-12-17T23:30:00.002+08:00

hehehehehe!
went teoheng today with Love and Jing!
=DDDD! it was AWESOME!
AND OMG JING JING KISSED MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
hahahahahhahahaha! i dunno whether to be happy or sad.. LOL!
we were so high tt jing jing just kissed me!
on the cheek! LOL!
anywayyyyyyyy had swiss chocolate ice blended from koi cafe.
it's effing expensive but worth it i guess... HAHA!
=D!
oh man...had fun with them.... was so high... hehehehehe.

anyway! there's work tmr.. =(
ouh well..at least there's Pig and Yi and Husband and Youm! =D!
although we all work on different lvls..zzz...
it's like they purposely put us far far away from each otherrrrrrrrrrrrr! =(
nvm...i will surviveeeeeeeeeeeeee! =D!
think money!

ANYWAY! another new year is coming soon!
soooooo with the influenece of Love! i'm gonna come up with my new year resolution list nowwww...
hehehe... be prepared! and let your imagination run wild with these new awesome added "features" of me in this upcoming new year!!!
*drum rolls*

NUMBAH 1!
NOT BE LATE FOR SCHOOL, MEETING OF FRIENDS, OR WHATEVER THAT REQUIRES ME TO BE EARLY OR THE LEAST BE PUNCTUAL!

hahahahaha! seriously? i don't think it'll ever happen but wtheck... there's a 0.000000001% chance of it happening..sooo.. LOL!

2!
stop sprouting vulgarities? =/
no fuck. no bitch? oh c'mon..bitch can lahz...
just not everytime lahhhhhh!
hehehehe. gosh! what the hell am i doing setting resolutions that is impossible..zzz

3!
stop being a bimbo.
hehehehe. apparently i can't go like "i want that awesome prada bag and that chanel and burberry."
LOL!
omg.... now that i think bout it...it's ~~fucking~~ bimbotic!
p/s: it's not next year yet so i can continue with my f words... hehehe
okok fine! stop giving me that look...yes i know! THAT LOOK!
see! striked off! =DD!
OK! i swear... the first two resolutions suck...but for this one i'm going to change!
pinkie swear!! PIG! give you the permission to whack me in the head if i'm bimbotic!
hahaz!! serious! =DDD!

4!
STOP SAYING SERIOUSLY!
ok..seriously... i need to stop saying seriously..
hahahaha! it's like robin with literally all over again...
HEHEHEHEHEHE! =D!
okok! seriously! stop it!
LOL! ahahahahahaha

ok...i shall stop at 4...
it's already impossible enough alr. =(
may the coming year bring me awesome stuff! =D!
I LOVE YOU GUYSSSSSSSSS!
i want to watch alvin and chipmunksssss!
hehehe.
better go slp before i crash and sleep halfway while working.. =/
byeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i can do it!

2009-12-14T18:24:00.000+08:00

Love's back from Vietnam!
miss her super lots... and aft tt she go and escape to malacca before we even had a chance to have at least an hour conversation and made me go crazy alone in singapore.
but it's ok! gonna meet her on thursday!! whohoo!
decided to just pon two more trng since i've alr pon-ed a term of trng.
two more wun die. hehe!

been doing my head in ever since term test's over.
screwed up every single paper. feels like murphy's law. =/
my body's clock pretty screwed during the term test week. causing crazy eye bags and dark eye rings! awesome... not.
and i realised i've become so freaking bimbotic these few days it's a wonder how anyone near me can stand it.
pretty disgusted with myself right now...i'm in this whole self-doubting and bimbotic shit phase.
i don't even know wth is wrong with me but i know something is wrong.
hopefully i can get pass all this shit before term break ends.
cause i need to get back to my awesome brain of mine and start hitting the books before i die during the main exam next year.
and since study week is during the cny week which is so fucking dumb i'll need to understand wadever tt is being taught if not i'll just self destruct during main exams.
feckkkkkkkkk.
everything feels so shitty now. =(

feeling better aft talking to Love!
thanks for keeping my sanity...
and for that i love you more! if it's even possible.. thanks love! =D!
it's gonna be a short break from school.. =/
two weeks. gosh. at least there's time to meet up with love and everyone else. =)
miss wanyi tooooooo!
feels like she really escaped to her own planet!
haven made plans with her yet...hmmm...need to find tym!
looking forward to the cousing gathering cum bbq!
yayyyyyyyyyyyy! nth beats barbequed food.
hehehehe.

found tt i'm losing interest in almost everything.
except maybe food and sleep. =(
shopping seem to lose it's appeal or maybe it's just me. ouh well...
i need to get out of this rut. pronto!
feck. bye!

bet you din realise anything at all.
but wait, when did you even realise ANYTHING?
maybe i'm making sacrifices for the wrong person.
you aren't worth it.
gonna give it to someone who deserves it.
you bitch.

2009-12-06T22:56:00.003+08:00

oh my fucking god!
to be pmsing during fucking term tests!
mum and dad and dajie isn't in SG nowwwwww...
stranded all alone with erjie at home!
O-M-G.
if i call anyone of you must pick up ok?! cuz i may be strangled to death!
hahahaha! kiddin erjie! if you ever see this... hehehe!
ok lahz..erjie isn't tt bad as i portrayed to be... lolx!
i realised tt all my frens tink erjie is the bad bitch cuz i only told them abt her when she's a bitch to me.. hahahahaha!
opps! my bad..
but can't blame me wad! half the time she isn't home anw... lolx!
anyway! went to study the whole day at karen's house... walau! her dad like feed pig liddat!
damn full can?!?!?! ate like 2 full meals in less than 4 hours...
die... my tummy is fucking huge it's fucking gross...
it's a good thing i'm going back to trng.. hahaz!

my cafe world is rotting like nobody's business...
i'm dying of circuits and logic gates and maths and breaking of the error chain or wad shit and true airspeed and wad not.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
i'm gonna hibernate aft all this shit is gone!

ok...not feeling good to blog anymore... bye!
good luck ppl...
let's kick this damn term tests in the ass!
MAY THE FORCE BE WITH ME! =D!
fine i shall share alittle of the force with you then...
hehe.
BUT JUST A LITTLE! i need it!

2009-12-02T01:12:00.003+08:00

405th post! HAPPT BIRTHDAY YOUMSIE!
hahaz! now only left wanyi to be 1777777!
hehehehe! may all your dirtiest fantasies come alive!
and i only wish for the dirty one! not dirty don't want!
hahahahaha! LOVE YOU WORXZSZXCSZXCSZXZS!

i'm going crazy with OTCM now..ahhhhh
so much stuff to memorise...
=/ i have the damn term test in less than 18hours!
and nth's inside my head nowwwww
ouh well...

anyway..things have been pretty weird lately.. =/
my class isn't really the same anymore..
feels pretty divided.. guess it's because of the lack of card games.
now during lunch break some head to the library to study...others dunno disappear go where...
and ppl like me who needs food to survive pigs out and totally din study at all...
everyone's chionging so hard it's scary man...
=( i miss those times where we play card games and go crazy...
ouh well... happy things don't last for a long time anyway...
S is acting damn weird lately...
even when in school half the tym i dun see him...
it's like he's avoiding us or something...
weird...dumbass doesn't even reply the damn msg.

ok! gotta go...guess i'll just let the weirdness sinks in..
once the weirdness sinks in i'll get used to it and just accept the damn change.
ahhhh wadever..
LOVE YOU YOUM!
happy birthday! =DDD!
nitez!

guess i can't recognise you with your clothes on. =D

2009-11-28T00:12:00.003+08:00

thanks to lewis..i'm seriously starting to think tt my class is seriously crazy...
and how hard we study and pia just to get tt perfect results.
it's getting scary actually..
since i'm still not in the study mode and i'm so lazy it's a wonder how i pass the quizzes...
and it doesn't help things much when alina tells me that she just studied till 6am in the freaking morning...
and while she's happily studying there...i'm happily playing freaking mahjong...
walau.... not stress also will become stress lahz!!
OMG. =(

ANYWAY! speaking of mahjong!
i think i got the itch to play mahjong again!
shits.... getting addicted.. =/
yesterday night i got Lewis Weilun Nicholas and Karen over to my house to play mj...
hahaz! it was fun! karen gotta go aft 12 though... her dad doesn't allow.. =(
so tt left me with 3 guys... =/
played till DAMN DAMN slow..and only managed to finished 1 and a half round in 7 hours.
LOL! damn slow can?! koko krunched in the middle of the night!
lose money...but it's ok! had fun anyway... =)
gonna mj during holi alr!
muahahahahaha!so from 10+ we played till 7+ in the morning...
my first ever time.. =D!
hehe...

and and and i want to watch ninja assassin!! =((
damn the m18 rating.
ARGH!
no fairrrrrrrrrr! =((
gonna find ways to sneak myself in.. I DON'T CARE!
and i'm gonna go get some studying done tmr!
i don't care man..gonna chiong too... =/
Pig asking me to chiong also.. sian..
anyone wan jio me go study tmr?!
CALL ME OK?! =D!
in the aftnoon though..
morning is stricktly for slping tyvm! =D!

go liaoz! byeeeeeeeeeee!
muackz! =D!

2009-11-22T21:43:00.002+08:00

something feels weird.. =/
things didn't really feel the same ever since holiday ended and school started anyway. =/
guess too much stuff happened during the holiday and it changes alot of things.

anyway! i've taken out my braces alr!!
hahahahaha! =D!
super happy! felt super weird aft it's out though...
but i'll get used to it.. hahaz! i have to anyway... gonna be how it is in my mouth till every teeth in my mouth drops out...
hehehe!

aviation run was yesterday.
woke up at like 5:30am. totally nuts. =(
wanted to zao aft taking the attendance..
hahaz! i tink my classmates didn't really think i was serious when i told them i wanted to go off.. =/
ouh well...
managed to survive through the run..
rushed back home to change and bath before going out to meet pig and youmz...
met up with them and went to wanyi's house!
hahahaha!! we were all super hungry and was pretty cranky and weird on the way to her house.. LOL!
but we were ok aft having some foooooood in our stomach!
=D! awesome...hahaz!
aft tt went out to the living room to watch teeveeeee! and play monopoly!
hahaz! i tink it's becoming a ritual to play monopoly at wanyi's house now..
LOL!
aft tt went to 201 to have bbt! =D!
saw this fat cat there lying in the middle of the place..
hahaz!
it's like super lazy and nua and everything.. hahaz! just beggin for the passersby to give it a good scratch.. lolx..
but i still like dogs better..hehe! =D!

aft tt went home and helped mum mop the floor and everything..
hahaz! didn't slp till 1+!
i'm power!! lolx...
but i totally died today..
slept till 1+ then ate lunch and went back to slp again at 3+...
gonna sleep soon alr..and it's not even 12.
gosh.. early mornings just isn't me..
there's sch till 7 tmr...
damn shitty... ahhhhhhhhhhhh!
sick of everything.
plus overnight mj plans are getting a little screwed up.. =/
should have known better than to look forward to something.
nth ever seems to be going the right way.
blame it on bad luck i guess...
wad a run of awesomely bad bad luck.. =/
just hope everything's going to be better soon... =)

think christmas! =D!
ahhhhhhh! going off!
bye ppl!
wish for a better tmr! =/

should have known better.
should have listened to my brain.
never am i going to give you another chance.
never.

2009-11-18T00:02:00.003+08:00

ahhhhhhh!
life's a blur now...
just taking it day by day... =/
surviving one school day at a time. =(
super no life man...
have to start mugging alr arhz!
siansxzszxzs!
got no mood to go to sch everyday.. =(
ahhhhhhh!! at least there's something to look forward to...
and and and x'mas is cominggggg!!
whohoooooooo!! =DDD!
although i wun be in sg during x'mas but i'm still looking forward to it!
hahaz!! been a long tym since i look forward to x'mas alr!
lalalalalalalalalala!! this year got the x'mas feel! maybe it's cause of the AWESOME weather!
hehehehe!

but thx to the awesome weather i'm almost late everyday!!
dieeeeeeeee!
gotta go dig out my old alarm clock and use it alr!
ANYWAY!! i'm taking out my braces soon!!!
hahaz! in 2 days actually! =DDD!
finally!! hehehehehe!
but i tink i'll kinda miss it though..
cause it has been part of me for 2 years plus! =(
ouh well... hehehehehe! still looking forward to it!
LOVE's birthday coming soon too! hehehe!
and and and WANYI's bro wedding! LOL!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! okok..i'm hyped up now!
better go study!!
Lalalalalalalala!
love you guys! =DD!

cause i can't for the life of me remember how it was used to be.

2009-11-13T02:12:00.002+08:00

super lazy to blog...
lalalala... quiz tmr and i dun understand alot of things.
so screwed...
my full marks in maths quiz is gone too!
shitass... =(

scammed someone today...
think i overdid it.. =/
it's gonna be weird nowwwww...
i hope not though.
CCN day tmr!
not really looking forward to it..cuz it's VERY last minute...
hahaz!

and shit man... i'm getting very very irritated by K nowadays!
bad bad bad!
she's just so freaking narrowminded and doesn't even have a tiny bit of forgiveness!
i mean the thing is over for so freaking long and she's still harping on it...
it's not even personal lahz!
and she just keeps going on and on..even A told her to let it go but she just doesn't want to..
bleh.
just hope the feeling will go away...
may partly be PMS anw...
i hope so.. =/

better sleep soon!
ahhhh! nitez ppl! =D!!

2009-11-04T23:23:00.003+08:00

i'm getting faaaaaaaaaat!
ahhhhhhhhhhh!
omg...and i swear i'm evolving into a pig. =/
i came back home today aft sch and make lunch for myself.
then i just crashed on the bed at 3:30 and slept all the way to 7.
i keep waking up...look at the tym and go back to slp again and again lahz..
shit... pig pig pig.
my tummy's popping outtttt!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
need to exercise soon!
but i'm just so lazy.
blah...
need to start studying too!!
getting behind lectures alr... =/ not understandin wad is bein taught.
die.
books! here i come!!
lalalalalalala.

Liverpool! sorry. but i'm abandoning you this season.
next season i'll be back!
ahhhhhhhh! hope you dun get relegated by then.

2009-11-01T22:43:00.003+08:00

whoo!
subcom camp was fun!
was up all night and din sleep at all..hahaz!
ok maybe i did..stole a wee bit of slp while the rest went to wash up and everything..
hehehe...
the front part was still ok..played some icebreaking games and all tt...
oh!! there's this one ang moh frm finland!
hahaz!! student exchange prog and everything...
then we need to think of a grp name so we ask him (name mika..yes..as in the singer mika. ) how to sae fuck in finnish.
LOL! i hav no idea how it spell but it's something like vitto.
and whenever we had cheers or wadever we just go vitto vitto vitto!
and he was like..if only you guys noe wth you're cheering abt.
hahahaha!
then aft tt there's this night walk where we get blind folded and had to walk round the sch.
quite fun although i keep on stepping on my grp member slippers.
poor shit.

aft tt everyone was being thrust in to a stretch of classroom alone which was supposedly haunted.. =/
then it ended bout 1+ and bathed at the sports hall.
played cards with the cher in charge. which also happens to be the cher tt i pretty much hate.
then wanted to go out and eat...
so my tt cher whom later turned out to be quite nice drove the 7 of us 8 if you include him at 4+ in the morning to JALAN KAYU for supper/breakfast.
hehehe... walau! the 8 of us all squeeze into a 4 seater car lahz!!
DAMN COOL!
then it was raining super heavy and we were all so cold but was stuck there cuz we can't get into the car. hahaz!
cher picked up the bill too.. =D!
then when we went back ALINA drove!!
hahahahaha!! it was damn cool!
me and karen was squeezing in the front seat then cher was at the back squeezing behind with 4 other guys. LOL!
and when we reaching tp tt tym..alina chiong past a redlight lahz!
PLUS SHE SLOW AND STEADY DE GO PASS CAN?!
and slow as in like 50-60km/h slow! hahahaha! POWER!
with a bus waiting for her to pass so he can make a turn... LOL!

then reached tp a couple of them crashed for a few hours while we continued playin cards...
hahaz! then aft tt went to play treasure hunt.
broke my slippers strap...bit my both side of the gum...got a super pain blue black on my knee and elbow while going to the FIRST check point.
and because of tt i had to run abt barefooted which causes my heel to hurt and make my walking become limping.
LOL! had no idea why i did wad i did to cause all tt but wadever.
a moment of folly i guess...

then aft tt had captain's ball. which i suck btw.
our team came in second though.
there's 4 team fyi...
hahahaha!! the malays were really good!!
then aft tt was organisers vs the participants..
HAHAHAHA! it's like 4-5 ppl against like 10? 11? ppl..LOL!
funny..but we were good..didn't really get thrashed.. hahaz!
aft tt break camp and cher sent me and alina home!
hehe! niceeee =D!

aft tt slept for4 hours and went for dinner..came back and slept for another 12 hours.
wah..shiok..
hehehe! it's awesome! =DD!
lalalalalalala!!
and LIVERPOOL SUCKS THIS SEASON! AHHHHH!
omg... blehhhh. bye! =D!

forget it.
guess you don't care anymore.
no fate. no kismet.
not the one.

2009-10-28T22:26:00.002+08:00

damn tired.
every single day back frm school and it's like seriously damn tired.
doesn't seem like 12 hours of slp is going to be enough. =/
all the energy was being drained and used up in sch so tt it wun feel so lame and boring everyday.
need some entertainment or we'll go crazy. =/
at least my frens are happy.. hahaz!
need to slp early man...
but dun tink so...
cuz quizzes are coming up like next week.
shit. so dead... all my classmates are alr starting to study and do maths and practice like shit and i haven even start.
omg man. you shld seriously see how chiong my class is..
it's freaking god damn freaky!
guess it's good in a weird and twisted way... =/
putting the pressure on me will get me to study too i guess.. =/
but everyday just seems so tired tt i dun hav anymore extra energy left to study. =/
haiz...shit.
jiayou alison... and it's only the 2 week of the second semester.
damnit.
someone give me an energy booster?
tt can last me for the whole sem...
seems like i used up most of it in the first sem alr.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

and i dun understand wad the hell is being thought now...
ok..i can follow most of them lahz..but there's this one subject where i'm practically lost..
need to buck up or else i'm screwed.
jiayou arhz alison!
anyway! there's subcom camp this coming fri! =)
too tired to look forward to it.
oh ya! and i shld seriously stop all the "fucking" and everything.
now my classmates and i always will have a fucking in every sentence...
hahaz! shit.. it's damn vulgar i swear!
if my sis was there i'm gonna be in so much trouble i probably wun even see my skin cuz it's been pinched and everything by her man.
my left ear almost came off aft i said one f word in front of her lahz...
ONE! can you imagine if it's ALOT?
she'll die. or i would anyway.
zzz.
ouh well.
i'm going off.. tired. =/
bed i'm coming! byeeeeeeeee! =D!
till whenever.

still tongue tied and brain dead.
didn't help much with your presence arnd me everyday.
need to get a grip. before everything is seriously gone.
or is it gone alr? =/

2009-10-22T21:25:00.002+08:00

school's boringggg...
and sucky.. hate mondays now... it's so...ARGH!
geez..i'm really contradicting myself...
when there's holiday i wish school would come..now schools here i'm bitching bout how sucky it is..
gosh..
anw! it's been tiring..and i'm just super lazy to blog...
damn tired.. =/ feel like a pig... all i can tink of is sleeeeeeep...
blah...
anw...last sunday before school starts i went out with the wushu people..
hehe... gosh..i love them... went to ECP to have subway...then rent bikes and cycled our butt to hell all the way to changi village...
but it's still awesome...LOL!
hehehe! i miss them alot...ouh well..
and now i'm just so goddamn lazy to blog..
byeeeeee! =D!

2009-10-15T00:03:00.002+08:00

i don't think it's ever gonna be enough.
i have really changed alot..ok not really alot..but quite alot aft the blowup...
i helped dad...cooked food tt is still edible. did some housework....
but it's never enough. there's always dissatisfaction where either i've not done enough or not good enough.
it's just so blah.
done all i could...don't see sis doing anymore than i did.
but still getting all the crap.
can't wait for school to start seriously.
at least i get a reason to get out of this place.
now even when i go out and hav fun i'll feel guilty and everything. like i don't deserve to be let out and have fun.
whenever i ask if there's anything going on the next day so i can make sure dad have someone to prepare food everything i'll be given a look tt says you-going-out-again?!-tt's-ridiculous...
this is bullshit.

blah. woke up and went out to have lunch at Swensen's with dad and sis.
dad pangsehed us to go gossip and drink coffee with his kaki...
sadded... stayed in library to re read a book...
finally borrowed something tt looks remotely decent...
thinking of going out tmr cuz it's just so boring at home.
looking forward to friday... =)
gonna dress up and go to town with anti thurs.
hope everything goes well..but shall not anticiapte much cuz thins always suck when i anticipate too much.
and this post is getting dumber.
so bye. i shall take a look at my cafe world.
oh! not to mention i'm getting fat too. damnit.

2009-10-14T00:56:00.005+08:00

credits : http://www.cbs.com/primetime/how_i_met_your_mother/photos/photos.php?v=37549&s=5&p=1

=)
hahahaha! gosh..barney so cute!
wish i could watch HIMYM nowwwwwww! =(
LOL! now tt Barney is tgt with Robin!
OMG! hahaha! so cool! =DD!
those who doesn't noe wth i'm talking bout...
go watch it.
it's AWESOME. hehehehe!

When i'm sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead. True story.
- Barney Stinson

hahaz! ain't he awesome? LOL!
anyway...today has been kinda productive...to me...
spent quality time with dad.. =)
accompanied him walk arnd and visited cute ah ma..
hahaz!
gonna bring him out tmr again with dajie...
guess i'm just too caught up with everything tt's going on arnd me tt i didn't spend much time with dad...
well..at least i did tt before sch starts...
mannnn... school's starting...
not looking forward to it..but in a way still looking forward to it...
i'm scared... scared tt i will slack..and my results will be shitty..
and all the projects tt will start coming...
damn... jiayou alison...
it's something you hav to face sooner or later..
GOGO!
and promos are over for the JC ppl! =DD!
yay! hope they all get AWESOME results!
LOL! and i'm craving for chocolate pudding milk tea frm tmart.. =(
damn...

anyway..i started doing crunches like two days ago before i slp..
3 sets of 25... it's still nth but aches all over my abdomen...
tummy still there. zzz. it's only the second day..but still..hahaz!
okok..i'm tired..woke up early...gotta slp soon! if not i'll just crash in front of the comp.
blegh... bye ppl!
you guys are awesome... hahaz! =D!

2009-10-11T01:14:00.002+08:00

mid autumn festival. =)

girls day out! aft wanyi's promo! =DD!

had a blow up yesterday night with sis and mum.
my sis pissed me off man. couldn't tolerate her shit anymore..it's not the first tym she sae all tt shitass stuff...sort of piled up and exploded.
gosh. one shld really think before they cry. my eyes hurt aft tt. =/ and the day aft.
but i guess they sort of talked some sense in me...
i could so totally be a bitch when i want to.
ouh well..guess it's in the genes.
gotta try to help out... keyword : TRY.

i'm feeling very itchy mouth now.. keep on wanting to eat a whole lot of stuff.
damn. i'm so getting fat.
my tummy is getting freaking bigger lahz...
shit.
need to run soon!
ahhhhhhh!
sucks man..now i can't go out and have fun without feeling guilty..
damnit. shld stop complainin.
getoverit you bitch.

gonna add a new panel at the side..hehehe!
list of food i wanna eat! MUAHAHA!
going off!
hooked to cafe world. damn.
byeeeeeeeeee! =D!

2009-10-06T00:17:00.003+08:00

anti-thurs. =)
karen. me. wenliang. kent. samuel.

so Liverpool lost to Chelsea. 2-0.
sucks man. it's the second consecutive tym they lost 2-0.
damnit. the title is gone alr. nv again seen... =(
haiz...it's ok... didn't really expect them to win the title this season..
not with the team they have now. without alonso everything feels weird..
but actually the Liverpool team now is so totally different from the one i supported 4 years ago...
the only constant player was Gerrard and Carragher...
it's not the same anymore... kinda missed the old squad...
like steve finnan! he's awesome...
ahhhh ok..change topic...

went to sch today...didn't really study at all..
aft tt went to swimmm...
been a long long long tym since i swam man!
only swim 20 laps and my arms are aching..shit.
need to burn off more fats!!
pretty much rot like nobody's business aft tt... then went home and sleep!
gonna go may may house tmr! =) and maybe get some studying done..damn...
haven started at all... shit.
i hope i wun fail... ahhhh crap!
jiayou alison!!
looking forward to thurs!!
hehehehehe!
ok..i need to go slp..if not i can't wake up.. =/
and i need to stop msgin! damn...
byeeee! =D!

don't screw it up don't screw it up don't screw it up.
you stupid weird shit.

2009-10-03T01:43:00.002+08:00

hehehehe!
today was goooood!
except for the morning part...
the bloody boss was so freaking naggy and i had to force myself to pry my eyes open so i wun slp while he explain the product..gosh...
almost strangled tt person who asked a ton of question!
was super bored and kept moving arnd until the boss noes tt i'm super bored and very impatient to get out of tt shithole...
but aft the product trng me and karen and wenliang (one of my triathlon teammate) went to meet kent (another teammate) and samuel to have lunch...
aft tt chionged down like some mad women to meet pigsie at orchard!
=DDD! HEHEHEHE! it's awesome!

but suck lorhz...pig who has all the intention to buy something didn't saw anything she like and me the broke one with NO intention of buying anything saw like so many stuff i wan to buy.
damnit. =(
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! no fair! =(
walked round fareast till we're damn bored and sian alr..so walked to the heeren and then to cineleisure....
then head to tampines for awhile and back home!
it was damn fun and awesome... =)
finally finally finally get to enjoy my holiday!
omg...and pigsie! seriously! get out of my head! it's freaky!!
hehehe! I LOVE YOUUUU!

gosh! it feels good now... although i totally regret me signing up for the courts job.. =/
it's lame and dumb and boring...
might only last for a mnth...hmmm...
anw..can't wait for next thurs and fri!!
FINALLY CAN GO OUT WITH WANYIIIIIII! WHOHOHOHOHOHOHO!!
HAPPYY!
and jing! congratz on getting out of tt shithole! we survived!!! =D! ^5!
hehe! i'm going! byeeeee!
muackz! =DDD!

2009-10-01T00:21:00.002+08:00

wow. looking at my prev post...
i'm really pissed man...
but i'm fine now! =DD!
hehe!
tmr's going to be the last dayyyyyyy!
yayyyy! =)
today kinda sucked at work...
my supervisor just pretty much dumped documents tt is as high as mount everest to me to scan them in.
bloody hell. jing's pissed too...
cuz the same bitch did the same thing to her...
poor thing..
she still hav to survive another week...
jiayou jing!! =DD!
hahaz! i'm going to see my mood tmr and if i'm happy i shall finish tt pile of shit for her.
if not... i'll just leave half tt pile of shit for her to scan by herself.
i'm such a nice person... =D!

hahaz! anyway...i forgot wad i wan to blog abt alr.
damn.... my memory is seriously failing me...zzz
almost fell sick today...
had this very sicky feeling while i'm at work then when i reached home i head straight to bed and sleep like nobody's buisness...
and i'm fineeeeeeeee!
weeeee... gosh.... i really hav nth to blog abt...zzz.
and NO! i'm not going to blog abt the Liverpool's lost....RAHHHHH!
i'm bored...
and i'm going off.
tata! =)

2009-09-28T23:58:00.002+08:00

i'm having the pms of the pms.
as in like the king of fucking god damn pms.
i get so fucking god damn irritated fucking god damn easily it's fucking god damn irritating.
i swear this is even worst than PSLE!
and PSLE was the fucking worst thing tt ever happened to me...
no.. O's are still not tt bad...PSLE was alot fucking worse.
can you imagine?! fucking hell!
i seriously seriously can't stand staying at home now...
the last week i was even rushing home trying to walk so god damn fast so tt i can be home as soon as possible...
but now..fuck! i'm thinking of excuses and things to do like going to the library or bank even though the fucking queue to deposit cash is fucking nuts.

cuz all i do at home is get fucking god damn nagged!
like wadver i did was not enough.
fine so i didn't do much...but how the fuck am i supposed to noe i'm supposed to fucking do something without being told?!
HELLO?! i'm not a fucking god dman psychic! as much as i like to call myself one.
housework was nv my thing and bloody hell...of cuz i dunno wad to do if you dun fucking tell me.
and when you fucking tell me wad to do... say it in a god damn nice manner lahz!
wad the fuck is so god damn hard?!
i'm not the fucking god damn maid lorhz!! you can tell me nicely and i would do it begrudgingly but still do it...
you screaming at me or shouting at me to do something isn't going to help much lahz!
fucking hell...
i'm going crazy here man...
sonofabitch.

i need to get out of this shithole but it's not tt easy to get out of this shithole.
fuck...i'm like back to sec 1...where everysingle place i go i have to tell my parents...
and whenever i came home just a little aft 8 i'll be guilty and keep thinking up of excuses so tt i wun get scold...
wtf.. i'm seventeen! i dun even feel seventeen!
and why i dun feel seventeen?!
cuz i'm not fucking treated like one!!! god damnit.
and when i dun feel like seventeen i dun act like one...
and when i dun act like one stop fucking telling me tt i dun act like one and keep on saying tt i'm some fucking god damn sec 1 kid!
if you wan me to act like seventeen then treat me like fucking god damn seventeen!
ARGH!

screw this shit.
just get me out of this fucking shithole before i go crazy man.
fuck.

2009-09-26T00:44:00.002+08:00

watching this jap drama...
funny..i dun even noe the name of the drama...
but it's damn good and awesome...
i noe the jap title though!
ok..and i forgot wad is it... lazy go find...
but it's damn damn damn nice and not to mention there's lots of cute guys in it!!
hahahahaha!!
it's abt this girl who married this rich guy who is abt to die in a mnth and she hav to take care his six adpoted sons aft he die so tt she can clear her debts.
it's super nice...and short.. =(
only 11 epi... haiz...
left two more episodes only!! shall savour it...
the sons are damn hot..
hehehehe!!

anw!! self declared today off.
din go to work today but accompany my dad to check up early in the morning today...
my 12 straight hours of slp is gone.. =(
damn...
also..i'm super broke..cuz i just paid two mnths of my phone bill which cost a total of 90+ bucks...
and poofed...my isetan pay is gone alr...
i deleted emails frm blogshops saying tt they launched a new collection of clothes.
cuz i'm scared i see smth i like and i'll spend again...
it's been a loooooong tym since i online shop...
haiz... helpppppp...
i work so much...much or many? much sounds more right...but anw..
i work so much but i only got one pay...
damn.... wth is taking the pay for the IT fair so longgggggg?!?!?
doesn't like the feel of an empty bank... =/

celebrated pigsie's birthday yest! =)
she went nuts over the flowers we gave her...
hahaz!had mee suaaaaaaaaaa! =DDD!
and i miss wanyiiiii...
hehehehe! and i'm bored...
sian...no mood blog liaoz...
wan to sleeeeeeeep...
but cannot...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

haiz...i'm kind of hoping sch would reopen soon...
then i would be able to go out without giving a reason...
although i'm going out almost everyday but it's to work...and it's different...
it's no life....
school is life....
even though i'm not going to work i dun like staying at home either.. =/
haiz... sian arhz........
tink aft i finish my jap drama i go rewatch hana kimi...

ah. bye! =)

your gender would be alot more tolerable if it wasn't so darn cynical.
-calvin and hobbes.

2009-09-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

i'm bored...
i just watched idunnohowmany episodes of HIMYM and now i'm at season 3 alr..
wayyyy too fast!
not good!
maybe i shld go watch my hana kimi...hehehehe...
revive the love of Ikuta Toma...
AWESOME! =D!
LEGEN-waitforit-DARY!
muahahahahahaha!
blame it on too much HIMYM.

i miss tt pigsie.....
quick come back!
toffee looks homesick!
or ownersick... something liddat....
i'm so gonna get killed if she's skinnier...damn... i'm going to stuff her with food.
TOFFEE! dun let pigsie noe!
i'm going crazy.... i'm talking to pig's rabbit thru my blog..wth?
lalalalalala...
i need to talk to human beings!
i'm going weird! and tt's baaaaaaaaaad.
i'm not doing normal things nowadays...
cuz i have this job which is boring..but not too boring thx to jing...
but still boring... and i haven unload my feelings normally for a week now...
it's all bottled up and jumbled up and it's not going to come out anytime...
it's weird......
i'm weird...

having internal struggle nowwwwwww...
blame it on pms.
i dun care...
POST menstrual syndrom....feck...i forgot how to spell tt ass word!
damnit.
SCREW YOU PMS! SCREW YOU!
i'm outta my mind...
PIG! stop oggling at cute taiwanese guys and come backkkkkk!
i wan nobody nobody but chuuuuuuuuuuu!!
*claps claps double finger pointy thingy at you*
lalalalalala!

i'm high... cuz i'm tiiiiiiired...
does it makes sens? no..it doesn't...but it does right now.. gonna find dramas to watch...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
PIGSIE! COME BACKIEEEEEE!
bye!! i love youuuuuuuuuuu!

selamat hari raya syafiq! hahaha!
=D!

2009-09-16T23:30:00.005+08:00

=) this song is nice..
and and and there's like a JaeJoong lil bro...Joon Ki's twin...SeungRi's lil' bro too...
i'm just kidding...they just look super duper alike! it's freaky!!
hahaz! i feel like i'm back to those korean/jap propaganda days...
LOL! thx to jing jing...
we actually squealed like nobody's buisness and practically screaming at her ipod in the office lah!
hahahahaha!
anw... the job i'm at now sucks totally.
it's freaking god damn boring. and even though it's seriously like easy money...
i'm actually bored out of my mind tt i even came up with a couple of excuses to give the supervisor why i want to quit ON THE FIRST DAY OF WORK.
and i think i'm going to get freaking fat lahz!
i'm not exercising...
all i do everyday was just sit down in front of the comp waiting for lunch tym to come.
aft lunch and pigging out like pigs...
go back in front of the computer and sit there till your butt numb for another 6 hours.
i'll be amazed if i'm not getting fat.. =(

but it's ok! at least got jing jing to accompany me...
if not i think i'll be gone aft the first day alr...
sorry jing jing..for having to put up with my whining.

anyway...pigsie is not in town...so i hardly go online anw...
not tt i hav the tym or mood... since my dad's home i can't stay at the comp for too long.
not tt i'm complainin...nth to do online anw..
except for HIMYM.
lolx!
it's getting super boring...
ahhhhhhhhhh! i need a life soon!
i need a life as much as i need a tan!
omg... i'm like getting whiter..
and staying in the freaking north pole office the whole day doesn't help at all.
=(

can't wait till 1st oct!
cuz it's going to be the last day!
hahaz! i'm even going self declare off on 25th Sept.
jing not going work on tt day anw!
and can use this day to celebrate tt pig's birthday! =)
have to see if she's free not though...
hmmm... okok... i'm off..
hope i wun be bored out of my mind.
may i survive this work. =(
give me the will power ppl!
jiayou alison! gogo! you need the money!
=D!

2009-09-14T16:34:00.002+08:00

ok...i got the job alr.
nooooooooo...
i noe i shldn't be like complaining or wad not...
but...damnit... i'm not going to enjoy my holiday now!
nooooooooooo!!
and i haven even go out at all with pigsie!
sian!
not to mention the travelling tym there sucks.
and and and i haven sleep till i'm shuang yet!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh! MY HOLIDAYYYYYYYY! =(
at least the pay is not bad i guess... =/
haiz...
i'm gonna watch HIMYM!
byeeeee! =D!

2009-09-14T12:42:00.002+08:00

okok! a quick post before i go batheeeeeeee!
going for some HDB admin interview in like less than 2 hours later!
and i'm not looking forward to it..
i dun even feel like going to work..but tt's not the point..
i dun even noe wad's the point...
but still..

anyway! i've finished watching Gossip Girl Season 2 alr...
bloody hell...Chuck Bass is like damn sexy and awesome...
and i've just finishedmy IT Fair job...
thankgod! my boss and one of my colleague is driving me nuts... one more day and i'll go crazy...
and for the first tym of my life some stranger actually asked for my phone number...
and it feels damn weird...
and i have no idea how much i earned and i may get cheated by my boss for all i noe...
and i need to go and bathe before i'm really late!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! bye!
i love you!! and i'll miss tt stupid pig!
byeeeeeeeeeeee! =D!

2009-09-09T00:16:00.002+08:00

i'm going to let my blog rot till i finish Gossip Girl season 2 and ALL the season of How I Met Your Mother.
till the next tym. =)

you know you love me.
xoxo.

2009-08-29T00:21:00.003+08:00

i'm tired. woke up at 8+ in the morning not knowing tt my life is pretty much going to change somehow.
i'm scared. like scared shitless.
ok...so not really shitless. cuz aft hearing the news i was so scared my stomach hurt tt i went to shit.
but still. you get wad i mean.
i'm really not going to ask for much.
just hope tt everything's going to be fine and that there's still a long way ahead for him.
ok..so it may be sort of a little too much. but isn't tt wad we all hope for anyway?
i'm gonna think freaking positive and not cry anymore.
or i'll try not to anyway.
somehow the tears came happily like no one's buisness.
it's been a long tym tt it have been so out of control and a long tym since i cried in front of him.
i just want everything to be ok.

anyway. on a lighter note...
i finally watched the proposal!
hehehe! like finally! and it's AWESOME!
okok... rewind abit.
first went to meet karen at orchard..was like horribly late...guilty.
aft tt we went shopping at fareast!
hahaz! orchard sort of changed thanks to ion. and i was abit lost aft coming out of the mrt...
zzz. anyway. we didn't really had much shopping mood so before we head to ion we went into this shop selling tank top and everything.
then we were buying like 4 tops at once and then the sales girl there was like super nice and i think the boss(another woman) is quite a bitch and the sales girl actually helped us bluff her boss and we only paid like 20 bucks for tt 4 tops which is actually supposed to cost like 47bucks.
i'm not kidding.
LIKE SERIOUSLY! hahahaha! then me and karen was like so shock tt aft paying tt 20 bucks we went out of the shop and walked super fast towards ion.
HEHEHEHEHE! =D!
AND AND AND OMG! ion have freaking lots of good FOOD!
ahhhhhhhhhhhh! it's like a torture..you walk arnd the basement and all tt food looking at you but you just can't buy it cause it's freaking ex. =(
i hate you food! i hate you!
make me hungry! =(

anyway...ion is apparently so big tt you can't find a toilet.
they can have all the damn brands but you just can't the damn toilet.
zzz. aft tt trained down to tampines to find HUSBAND! =D!
hehehe! i was even early lahz! then mos burger-ed.
and THE PROPOSAL! =D!
and guys wonder why girls have all those fantasy when all these chick flicks just pretty much plant the idea into our heads.
hahaz! aft the movie we din feel like going home so early so went to fish & co. to chill...
MY CHOCKIE JUNKIE! =D!!!! and and the chocolate fudge ice cream.
omg. it's freaking sinful but damn good anyway.
hahahz! I LIKEY!
sort of cam-whored then went off alr.
OH YA! and husband gave me part of my birthday present. which is a laminated photocopy of our marriage cert.
it's like seriously dumb but wth. when were we ever intelligent in the first place.
hahahaz!
had fun though. been a long tym since we meet up and had fun.. WEEEEEEEEEE! =D!

husband complained why the century is bigger than the movie name.
quite dumb actually.

maybe we shld make this our wedding photo.

LOL!

give me a miracle.

and i would actually count my blessings.

2009-08-23T21:15:00.003+08:00

hehehehe!
i'm not supposed to be even online...
LOL! i'm supposed to be like practising maths now...
but i'm not..and i havent seen a single maths question in 24 hours..
and i dun think i would for another 12 hours...
it can't be 24 hours cause i'm gonna have a maths exam in less than 24 hours...
AHHAHAHAHA.
i'm so dead..
fasc took all my energy away. and i have no more energy left to study other subjects...
funny since fasc is only 3 credit units(CU) and other subject is like 5 or 6 CUs.
nice one lahz alison... =/
i still have no idea if i'm gonna fail tt subject...
i hope as well not.. =/
don't think i will...but still you never noe... shall not jinx it...
shall keep hoping.. and praying.. =/

i'm not studyiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing...
i better noe how to do the maths paper tmr..
or i shall kick myself in the butt for being so lazy...
lalalala...
it feels as if i'm having holiday alr... damnit.
jiayou alison! 3 more days! =D!
i haven been talking to alot of ppl these days and i miss them so much...
been so busy pia-ing for exam tt i just din hav tym to stop and say hello..
but it's ok..i have the holi for me to rot and catch up with peoplee!
=D! i miss lovelovelovelove. =( and jing. and husband! and weird...anton too... and syafiq...
all tt football talk... hehehe... now epl season is here!! =D!
oh yea! =)

okok...still got 3 more days! FOCUS alison! FOCUS!
the f word rmb...
gosh..i hate tt word. screw it. i go watch tv.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEE! =D!
LIVERPOOL!! YOU BETTER WIN! RAHHHHHHHH!

2009-08-19T22:15:00.002+08:00

1 more day! to my FASC exam.
i'm seriously seriously going to pray like hell that i'm passing this exam man.. =(
if not i'm going to have to take the supp paper which means having to go through all this whole studying fasc process again.. =(
and one of these studying process is torturous enough and i'm NOT going to go through it again twice man!
NEVER! i've been studying fasc for the last 3 days and my brain is almost fried... =/
hope everything's still there when friday comes.. =(
JIAYOU ALISON!
don't let FASC kill you!!
RAHHHHHHHH!
haiz...damn tired... my energy is gonna burn out soon..
been drifting in and out of conversations... =/
ahhhhhhhhhhh... gonna slp now then wake up later to study...
=( bye.
wish me luck ppl.. i hope i dun die.
PLEASE!! JUST GIVE ME A PASS!! PLEASEEEEEEE!!!!

2009-08-14T01:56:00.001+08:00

Colbie Caillat - Fallin' For You.
=)

it's such a sweet song.
and totally what i'm feeling.
ahhhh... i'm tired... and i'm nuts to be bloggin at 2am in the monrning.
but i have nth to do cuz i'm waiting for my group mate to send me the damn report.
zzz...I WANT TO SLEEP! =(

ahhhhh finally... report done.
i'm going!
GONE! POOFED! DISAPPEAR!
=D!

2009-08-12T22:25:00.000+08:00

it's feeling weird.
something's changing and somehow everything feels like it's spinning out of control and i have no idea where to start from.
it's scary.
been a long tym since i felt this way.
it's like change is coming again and i have to adapt to everything all over again.
i hate it when i feel this way. it's like i'm there but feeling as if i'm a million miles away.
maybe it's all that mugging that's muddling up my brain.
just hoped that everything will go back to how it was and i will stop feeling this way.
predicting some depressing days ahead. =/
guess everyone's just so busy with their own lives right now it's hard to stop them to tell them exactly wad's on ur mind.
cuz every single moment with them is just so precious that you only wan to tell them the good stuff and you'll hide all tt bad stuff to urself until it just piles right up and pretty much explodes in ur face.
scary. =(
someone please just guide me back to where i came from.
this whole new place is just too new for me.
looking forward to 4th Sept.
i miss my secondary school friends. =(

2009-08-07T23:17:00.003+08:00

the week has finally came to and end.
thursday was kinda not bad i guess.
cuz i was super tired that i pretty much slept the whole day away.
slept during lectures and the only time i was really awake was when doing my labtest(which i managed not to electrocute myself) and during the presentation.
ok..so during the presentation i wasn't REALLY awake..but kinda awake during my turn.
THANK GOD i did ok... needed this presentation ALOT to pull up my failing grades.. =/
and i think i look pretty good in formal.
HEHEHE! i think it's the heels... WEEEEEEEEEE! =D!
but sadly wearing those heels doesn't make me any much taller... :'(
got teased like crazy by my classmates.
ouh well...
at least it's over and done with.
now...all i need is to tackle tt damn report. =/
die.

ANYWAY. went to watch G.I.Joe today.
hahaha! it's nice... kinda hate the ending though.
hate it when there's like a follow up of the movie..
and it would have been better if we're not sitting in the first two row.
haiz...damn sian...
i've forgotten wad i wanna blog bout alr.
my memory is failing me..shit.
and i think aft doing tt project on the damn airplane...
i'm NEVER ever going to look at an airplane and NOT think of ailerons flaps slats or wadever shit.
it's like stucked in my mind...horrible...
oh! and i'm broke now...
cuz i bought dark choc ferrero for my group mates... =/
it's like 7 bucks for 12 lah!!!!
=( but ouh well...at least they're happy.. =)
and damnnnnn... it's nice...
anyone wants to buy for meeee? =D!

hahaz! oh! and today my lecture ended early.
cuz my lecturer was damn pissed by us. =/
the whole lecture was super noisy lahz...then my lecturer just scolded us and then ended it with...lecture today is over.
wah..scary sia...
but can't blame him lahz.. =/ he's not the first lecturer to scold us for being noisy anyway...
lemme see... in the four subjects tt i'm taking...three has alr scolded us... and tt only onewas maths.
but then maths is not really the whole course and there's like not much ppl go for the lectures...sooooooooo... guess we're really noisy.. =/

ahhhhhhhh...i'm damn bored...
byeeeeeeeeeeeee!
needs MORE sleep. =(

sorry, didn't know what to do.
and staying silent was all i could ever do.
but thanks. for everything.
it meant everything to me and i'm sorry.

2009-08-06T01:24:00.002+08:00

just chiong finished my presentation speech .
my eyes are getting blurry... =/
need slp soon...
tmr still need wake up DAMN early to go for dental.. =( DAMNIT.
i have to go myself somemore!! NOOOOOOOOOOOO!
haiz...have to wake up even before the sun rises...
and tmr is going to be a looooooooong day...
wake up early for dental. then chiong to sch. then endure 8 hours of sch.
then go through one hour of horrible presentation.
and chiong to trng. feck.
i'm gonna be so dead tmr.
but at least i'm done with the presentation and get slaughtered by tt shitass cher.
JIAYOU ALISON! you can survive THURSDAY!
GOGO!

anyway...i was thinking...
doing projects with a group can see their true colours.
like if the person is really responsible or just some shitass irresponsible guy who just wait there and wait for ppl to do the shitwork for them.
ouh well...
tired... go off alr! =) byeeeeeee!

2009-08-04T00:42:00.003+08:00

this post is dedicated to PIGSIE.
cause she asked me to blog...saying that she is practising self discipline by not opening her mail, fb, and blogger...
LOL! poor thing.
JIAYOU PIGSIE!

DELETED. too depressing.

oh! anyway...on a not so brighter note...but still better than the rescheduling one...
karen wore heels today! haha!! and she's like tall lah!
making me the short one... like seriously damn short lorhz!!
i look like some ungrown kid besides them man...
somemore all the guys in my class are like tall... =/
but it was quite cool...hahaha!
ok..i tink i better slp soon..if not i'm going to be late tmr... =/
although i AM going to be late tmr...ahhh wadever. byeeee! =D!

2009-08-03T00:33:00.004+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! ok.. SORT OF finished my slides...
still need abit of touching up to do..
cause it looks plain and weird... =/
haiz...i'm going crazy alr... FASC is seriously damn shitty...
wtf.
but anyway... i think my group members are not bad.. LOL
they noe that i like orange and two of them purposely make it pretty orange... HAHA!
kinda sweet actually... hehehe...
but then there's this one where he keep on giving me the slides and reports wayyyy past the dateline.
damn shit lahz... and he's like super...ARGH!
nvm...it's ok...
and i forgot wad i wan to blog alr...
damn.
nvm..till....the next post!
=)

I’m gonna break down these walls
I've built around myself I wanna fall so in love
With you and no one else

2009-08-02T01:01:00.002+08:00

hehe! finally. after like YEARS of sticking to the same blogskin...i've CHANGED!
=D!
THANKIE PIGGIEEEEEE! =D!
so to honour her for helping me make this blogskin..i shall leave that poksie up there.. =(
i made such a big sacrifice man... hahaha! THANKS ANW! LOVE YA! =D!

hahaz! and i found out that i'm loving my hamster more and more..
i esp like the fat one...he's like super fat and seriously need to go on a diet..but still..hahaha! he's damn cute lahz... and i name him Fatty.
hehehe. suits him wad! i even have one hamster named BigBalls.
cause he like to climb onto the metal cage and go biting the cage like some crazy hamster..and exposing his huge balls at the same time...
LOL!

ANYWAY! i've finally quitted my job... =/
was like super guilty and sad at the same time while i told my boss that i wan to quit...
but aft tt i felt gooooooood... hehehe!
finally man...i'm super fed up with how my fucking manager treats us...
she's super dumb can?!
not to mention a total bitch.... it's ok...i'm out of that shithole. =D!
shall not let her spoil my first post on this new skin! hehehehe

do you guys like the clavin and hobbes? hahaha
i love calvin... he's just...damn cute and too clever for his own good... LOL!
and i like how the purple contrast with the orange backgroung.. hehehe!
in short... I LIKEYYYYYYY! =D!

Boys Like Girls is going to have a new album out soon!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i forgot how cute Martin Johnson is...
hehehe. ouh well... pig thinks i'm overly obsessed...
though she din sae it...but i bet she thinks so...right pig?!
hahaha! i secretly think that she's jealous that i'm not overly obsessed over her...
LOL! kidding PIGSIE! =D!

okie then... till whenever... =D!
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i'm thinking of changing my name to Alison Gerrard Toma Johnson...
HAHAHAHA! not bad eh.... =D!!!

2009-07-30T23:51:00.001+08:00

think i'm gonna be sick of orange soon... =/
maybe it's a mistake screaming at my group members to send me their reports in orange font...
now i'm going to edit the shit and it's in orange and it's giving me the headache and i'm on the verge of puking...
feck.
this whole thing sucks alot.
and i still haven even started on my slides... i'm so screwed...

and i've been pon-ing thursday trng... =/
my senior is breathing down my neck on why i'm not going for thurs trng...
like wth am i supposed to sae?
i seriously hate running and i have no idea why the hell i signed up for tri?
blegh......die lahz.....

and i'm getting fat... shit...i keep on eating and feeling hungry super fast... damnit...
shall go on a diet alr... maybe going for thurs trng is not that bad of an idea...
ahhhhhhhhhh!
i'm tired...this blog post is getting depressing...
bye... back to the report..shit...

please let me survive this shit.

2009-07-26T02:13:00.002+08:00

hahaz! omg..i forgot wad i wan to blog about alr.

anw...in less than 24 hours i'm hoping i can watch at least 45 mins of torres playing football.
since gerrard didn't come to singapore i guess i'll have to settle for second best... =(
i'm not as hyped up as i thought i would be...
probably because Gerrad din come or probably because it's being shadowed by the thot of having three quizzes in the coming week...
haiz sian....
but funny...somehow i've never doubted that i would one day go to Liverpool one more time and actually see Gerrard in the flesh... =/
it's like something i HAD to do...and i'm just waiting for the right time to come and do it...
ouh well... shall see how it is tmr.. =D!

ahhhhhh...i really forgot wad i wan to blog abt...there's like this list of things i want to blog abt IN MY HEAD.
but i can't seem to find the list in my head now...
zzz...
shitttttttttt! got a feeling it's gone forever.. hahahah!
ouh well...
i better study!!
CAN'T FREAKING FAIL FASC ALR!
jiayou alison!
GOGOGOGOGOG!

2009-07-21T22:56:00.002+08:00

had my first real pissed off feeling towards karen.
and yes...i'm going to blame it all on my post menstrual syndrom.
karen din want to have lunch...and just wanted to study...
bloody hell...early in the morning ask me study...
and i super dun feel like studying at tt tym lorhz. and she effing force me to study...
wtf. i'm like....fuck you lahz.
was all i could do to not explode right infront of her and just walked away.
besides it's the only break time i have for the whole fucking day and my break was at 12 and i have to wait till fucking 5pm till school ends.
fucking hate it when i'm being forced to study when i don't want to...
wad's worse was when i agreed to not go and eat lunch and sit down at some bench along the corridor..karen keep on asking me to study lehz study lehz...
bloody heck! i've given you enough face to not just leave you and go eat with the guys alr and now you're forcing me to do something i don't want...
fuck you lah!
be happy i just said "don't talk to me."
walau.... i so wanted to scream at you and sae fuck off you bitch!

omg.... ok...calm down alison....
see?!?! stupid PMS.
but ok lahz...i didn't went ballistic...
poor alina was like damn scared lahz...feel so guilty... =/
ouh well....
i seriously need to start studying alr...
but i'm not having any motivation to study!
die lahz... haiz...
helpppppppppp! =(

and and and Gerrard is not coming to singapore!!
wth?!?!?!?!?!?!?
haiz..sad...but nvm... i'll see him soon!! ONE DAY!
:'(

ahhhh lazy... bye!